if i dont blog, i wont blog for weeks.. if i do, i'll do it few times a day....

so back here, after being to so many other blogs..
it's refreshing to see so many blogs, maintained in very local english (afterall, blogs are really just for my easy reading), much honesty, by people like me..
like me = non-teens... now, i wouldnt go defining that as old
i'm practically jobless today..and bored of course
no work.. at all..
wait till mr yong's back then i'll take the word 'bored' in a new perspective..

i finally went to hani's site.. after reading the hu-has about it in aiz's entry..
(it's funny how i can casually mention these ppl's name as if they're my highschool buddies)
my, salute to the girl for her honesty.. and it's really worth a visit.. or more..
the fact that she devotes the site truly (mainly) to her honey.. and all the 'i miss the touch of his skin's really give u the extra reason to think that u've arrived to yet another serious blog, with serious writer and a serious issue.. but, in this one, i would wanna stay
reading hers remind me of wat i actually want my blog to be, i guess i'm not gutsy enough.. and thank Lord for that.. else i'll be in trouble the day my bro, cho, checked my history.. stupidstupid me for not deleting them!
which reminds me, they never really revisit... checked theirs to my comfort.

i've been noticing quite a few familiar faces on the net, through these blogs..
this is not good
as far as possible, i would wanna stay anonymous.. (yeah right, after having my bro sneaking up my entries...)
i noticed that girl from my primary school, that guy from uni, that guy from high school..
damn.. why are all of them in this little (i think) ring of bloggers
and the fact that they are all interconnected.. shesshh.. do u really have to get connected with fellow bloggers if u're one?
not that it bothers me, but there seems to be a std unspoken procedure about blogging that i've not been observing.

and one more thing worth noticing,,
discussion about sex nowadays does not evolve around a general subject matter anymore..
the words i, my boyfriend, my sayang, my girl, and SEX are used conveniently in one sentence
i've nothing against this.. no i lied
i do
it does not bother me to learn that most fo my girlfrens are Ms V no more
similarly, it doesnt do me any damage reading a line of a blog somewhere along the line of - we finally did IT..
wat gets to me whenever i read/hear such thing is... i could be in the statistics too.. really, i could.. i wont.. i hope i wont..

this issue is like that day when i learn that gays, arent exactly minority in malaysia..and they too, maintain blogs, openly..
i'm beginning to contradict myself here.. hell do i care!.. no, i really do..
but u nonvirgins and gays out there.. dont worry, it's not that i've something bad against ur existence/condition.. (somehow i made it sound like a desease).. this is purely a selfish mind rant.
so wat if there're too many gays out there? my bros could be one, and i might end up boyless
so wat if majority aren't virgin..? i could be one of them, i could be one of them... and i really, really dont want to..

see, no matter how i say i dont mind these society, as far as i'm concerned, i dont want any of my family members, even myself to be part of it.
that's another selfish need.i need my family and me to be normal. normal, in the sense of in line with our basic religion teachings. in that sense i am still very much of an orthodox. but just me, n my family..
like many other girls.. i dream of having a gay best fren.. 2 in 1 package never fail to impress huh?

why am i even talking about this now..
i dunno.. u see when u're jobless in an office with your own all day internet connection, and a boss on vacation far, far away.. this is wat u get.. a worthless 2 cents.....eehhehe

ok..reality check
win wanted me to browse around for a house in shah alam..never a problem to me.. i love doing these stuff, looking up for something for other ppl..
last few weeks was a car for me
few days back it was IT course for jazmi..
and now a house
i know i never accomplish anything.. except for a few 'maybes'
but it's the search, and the amount of search that i went through that constitute my sense of achievement..it's a triumph

while searching for win's... i wondered into my dreamland.. looking at adverts on mont kiara residentials n stuff..hmm..wishful me
but found myself drawan back to shah alam, subang, bukit jelutong area.. simply to the fact that my parents will be there, win will be there, and if jazmi were to continue his studies, it'll definitely be in shah alam..
geez, from the look of it, i do wanna marry this guy huh? ehehe.. i'll leave that there..

aa..yes, another thing, win need my aid to look for a good personal investment book.. which in a way, automatically instructed me to go to megamall or klcc this coming weekend.. out of my own free will actually.
so this weekend, all of u, weekenders, please stay out of megamall..
i'm going to do some shopping for my working clothes too.. yeah yeah, never ending.. but never started actually.. ehehe
need to get myself a new pair of track pants..
and i'm done..
(wat??)
yeah i'm done considering my soon-to-arrive maxis bill.. thx to maxis interactive, i have a rough gauge of the upcoming amount.. it's not pretty
though win has covered some of his.. i think the bulk of it is still down to the evil of needy-clingy-call-me-every-minute relationship.. so mr (bigpocket) pilot cant (wont) do much to help la..

in the background of my pc monitor, sits a dear coleague so immersed in his work.. which tend to have a daily due date.. hmm..
me being me, i should be feeling bad.. but then again.. think of all the days when i'm forced to my seat by my pile of work..i should really treasure this peaceful moment..

on the other hand, i should stop here