many, many, many things has happen in the last 4 days, many things of great concern, at least to me

firstly, a fren of mine confessed his/her (to maintain his/her anonymity) darkest secret to me.. it's a real big one.. though not a shocker, somehow...
let me not elaborate on this, since i would give it away..
it's been a while since i was last trusted with a life n death secret as such (no, i havent screwed up a major secret before), so u can imagine the turmoil it caused myself just not to blurt it out to someone.. 3 days post confession, my fren, not a single soul...
i guess it's simply the fact of knowing that he/she trusted me enough with such a massive matter of his/her life...
to dear fren, thx and u're the same ol shit to me, no matter wat.. be patience and things will straightened up.. : )
to other frens who think they might know wat/who i'm talking about here... NO..it's not wat u think!..ehehe
(macam zaman sekolah rendahla pulak..!)

on another note.. i learnt that the phonebill i left in australia has multiplied furiously over the months simply due to the late payment charges and tax on the total sum.. (yes, the bill item + the late pmt charges). I never thought of clearing things up with this giant telco, since it's not a common practice among asian students, or even european exhange students before leaving the ozieland. (my statement is not based on any formal empirical research though evidence are substantial)
then i received a reminder, followed by a warning, and another, and till last week... a formal legal letter..
ehehe.. should have expect but i found myself panicking somehow..
told u i'm a law abiding person..
so bla bla bla.. yeah i'm going to meet the payment.. which means, no car at least till june.. darn!

this is where i screw my weekend..
i became ms bad-girlfren last saturday.. i was expressing my worries to him while jogging ..err more like brisk walking (or just plain walking?) around the subang lake..everything he does is wrong.. i admit that it was seriously PMS, and i was aware of it even then..really, even he noticed that (he keeps count, u see) but i just could stop.. if he shuts, i'll say he doesnt care.. if he tries to console, i'll say it's easy for him to say.. if he tries to suggest, i'll
say he doesnt understand... but he kept trying .. with a smile.. aaaahhh... now i remember how the smile irritates me that saturday morning, and make me feel like a fool today..eheheh
he was so, so patient with me.. and it made me feel bad to be such a crybaby.. and i scolded him for making me feeling so..
let me just say... i'm soo lucky he didnt dump me that day..eheh

now everything settled, having graduated with a commerce degree with fond interest in mgmt accounting, i dont think it should be too much of a problem to restructure my budget.
sometime i feel i'm too uptight about my financial.. but most of the time i feel that it's necessary, afterall.. i'm in love with 'the writer' not 'the doctor'...
and unless i found a doctor with characteristics of perfect clone to my mr writer now..(or if not better)..i dont mind putting my knowledge in budgeting into good use.