to the fool i love

win n jazmi met last weekend.
and i typed a full page about it here minutes ago.
then i 'select all' and 'delete'

my dear fren, win,

i dunno if it's my right to speak my minds here, or is it not my right to list down my perceptions about u last saturday which might spell out 'fool' on ur forehead.
i guess i wont. 2 giant guilts in a row is too much for me to handle.

happy birthday dear. sorry i forgot.

maybe i'm over reacting.
everybody over-react around the person they love anyway.

-ying

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i thought i like this layout.
as soon as i've finished editing and all..
i'm already bored with it..
it's too 'nice' for me huh?
too..subtle for my presence here..
mcm tere sgt
nantilah, buat balik

i hate mondays!

Littlelittle BIG things in life

First and foremost..BLOGGER have just had a facelift.. Now i'll be typing in this neat little box, with a gloomy grey background. I like this new outlook.. it's neat. and simple. But the grey.. i may blame them if my entries sounds a bit on the flat side from now on ..i hope they'll do something abt it.. the usual blue n orange is cool wat.. i dont mind the background being that orange.

anyway, got my waja yesterday.. that's right.. i have a car now.. my own car, a car i will tell/write about as 'my first car' in some yrs later...uncle asri delivered it yesterday eve to the office.. so the journey home yesterday was the most exciting ever..(though it'll help if i brought along a pair of sandals, i dont enjoy driving with high heels) i'm going crazy..
i took almost 10 mins to get the parking perfect, not that it's hard to side park given the size (i've been driving nissan serena). i just want it to be perfect..it's like a first night thing (told u i'm going crazy!)(.. and when i went up, i quickly hurried to my bedroom window, to have a 16th floor posterior view of the lovely new toy. ahh... perfect, me in my room, with a view of my car.

little2things abt that big toy ..hehe

- the bontot is so tonggek, it's kinda hard to park with such limited view.. reminds me of our alfa 155 dulu.. all alfas are like that pun anyway.

- the volume/control button at the steering is sooo cool.. gives me the 'in control' feeling

- the steering is placed quite low..well..i acknowledge that my thighs are just too thick..but, ceteris paribus, it's still considered low.. i've driven satria n wira before.. and it doesnt feel like this. not that i'm complaining (already!).. i guess the concept here is like those sporty car.. the steering IS smaller too.. and the view, it feels as though i'm literally on the ground. not much of a fan of such vertically challenged vehicle.. but it's ok.

-there's a minor scratch on the mirror

-it's quite quiet

-the seat really tucks me in

-the sound system is cool

-the air-con, like all proton cars are way too cool for my layers of lemak, even at the lowest of temp n fan. unbelievable, but true.

ok.. i guess this obsession will go on for quite sometime.. it has to, cos this eve i'm banking out the sum to pay to papa already..
there goes..
budget plan II starts

now, on to one of my biggest decision of the yr.
i've submitted the CIMA application form. meaning i have concluded to choose this over CPA. well.. unless i change my mind, again, at the cost of 109pound. i guess i wont.
so, giventake a month, i'll start my ACCOUNTING professional course soon.. who would've thought huh?
maybe in actual truth, i do like a/c.. it's just abt being jual mahal..
it was the subject i studied most, and scored well..
*looking left n right*.. nope.. i dont think so. i'm not one of these ppl.. i'm no accountant, or ever wannabe one. now how on earth do i explain this anxiousness to start this CIMA course? ;)

the BIG issue on the littlest thing
to buy or not to buy?
i got a good offer on SonyEricsson T310 and Motorola C300..
it'll cost me quite a percentage of my savings now.. but it is still a GOOD offer.. more like 70% discount. i wont think twice if my current nokia8210 is doing fine.. but truth is, silly me dunked it in my coffee last week.. i can only click the green and red handhone sign and some few other button. SMSing requires such a great deal of creativity with it. in short, it's time to say goodbye. in fact, i've been checking out the models, the low-end one of course to replace it last week. i'm sooooo far left out in the mobile trend nowadays..
i kinda stop somewhere at nokia butterfly, so go figure.
should i?
do i really need a mobile with built in camera?
so wat if the screen is not colored?
polyphonic do sounds irritating at times anyway...

heh..too long dah
i guess the grey backround doesnt have any impact on my blogging ability watsoever.. ehehe

i feel terrible down today
not that i'm on a total shut down.. but i feel bad

typed a whole lenghty entry detailing my utmost secret just now, then the pc just went dead on me..
maybe some things are not meant the be shared

anyway, i'd like to share this.. it's worth a visit at moments like this

and, called CIMA just now, to finalise certain stuff..
got to know that i'm not entitled to the new exemption fees if i send the form by this Friday.
that's a fat good news for me.. it means i'll be saving RM800+

just not enuff to shed some light to this dreading day.

maybe i should just be grateful that i'm still alive today, be it for good or bad

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i know this is not fit for a blog entry
but it's my blog.. no censorship wateva, just some regrets later (or the 'delete' button)

i always thought my guy is different in some ways..
like he has the highest level of tolerance or something
then i saw/experience his reaction to a rejection today
he is a normal guy afterall..

enuff said
there..for my mental note

papa offer jazmi work with him.. (intro tak bagi salam pun)
it's a job he's been hoping to have
it's a job papa thinks he can handle
it's a pay papa thinks he is worth (more than wat he's getting now)

mama la ni yg suggest.. tiba2 je.
she was chatting to me about work and stuff, and then tanya abt the jobs jazmi's been applying..then it suddenly appear to her, "bakpo tok khijo dgn papa yah?".. i didnt manage to say a thing before she picked up the phone and within seconds, papa were directing me to ask for his resume..

without much thought, i called him.. all he can say is REALLY?.. and OK
i wasnt sure if it's a good or a bad thing
if i were him, i will be nervous like hell

i didnt mean to meddle into his career path though i know all along he adored my father's organisation, and the business that he is in, is sebijik like wat jazmi's involved in. i know if he were to work with papa, he'll be able to earn more. i know of this plan all along.. but it's nothing that i want to even try to voice out to either papa or jazmi
and mama came up with it

i'll just leave this to fate lah then
it's not me who try to turn around things anyway.. if it's his rezeki, mana tau kan?

it's just this discomfort knowing that he's working with my dad.. with papa...jazmi n papa under one roof, collaborating in professional sense.. hah!
though some might find this 'cool!'.. i do have my concern

quickie

the most unexpected, blessed reunion
my boy is back!
my boy is in town!
my ASUS L8400.. will be in msia for 3 weeks before another series of testing long distance longing..
but i bet the net time we'll be spending together is not even a week due to the servicing.. not too bad ey?

hey bo-uy, how's it goin mate? : )

talking rubbish aussie to my taiwanese notebook.. heh.. i need weekend!

havagudday ppl!

quickie

the most unexpected, blessed reunion
my boy is back!
my boy is in town!
my ASUS L8400.. will be in msia for 3 weeks before another series of testing long distance longing..
but i bet the net time we'll be spending together is not even a week due to the servicing.. not too bad ey?

hey bo-uy, how's it goin mate? : )

talking rubbish aussie to my taiwanese notebook.. heh.. i need weekend!

havagudday ppl!

i went shopping yesterday..
due to overwhelming anticipation, i just couldnt wait
ehehe.. yeah right
some transport problem yesterday, so might have to leave office only after 7.30, means kena bukak puasa here.. (with wat?) .. so i went to the 3-minutes-away-midvalley.. lynn n hetz were there already...and the best thing is, tak beli mende pun i the end..
maybe being financially prepared is not good enough to gear me for shopping spree
susahla gemuk ni
nak shopping pun kena ada thorough planning..sbb one whole shopping complex may not offer me anything : )
but then again, senang, nak beli, masuk that kedai je, that kedai and only that..
tak payah nak scout around, masuk, tgk, compare prices.. try, a size smaller or bigger?..
i'm mean , i know
peace ying!
later2.. rasa mcm gatal tangan n byk mulut pulak today but works are abundance

eh, the word 'work' as a noun, ada plural ke?
-i've got a lot of work
-several construction works
enlighten me anyone..
and i claim myself an oversea grad..

weekend ni nak gi shopping!
tak tau dgn sapa, tak tau bila, tak tau kat mana,tak tau nak beli apa..
but nak gi shopping

sapa?
ajak mama maybe..mama n zetty, alah then sure papa nak ikut, then the boys..watevala..nanti2 call hetz n lynn ke..

bila?
sunday father's day, so sure nak arrange something at home plus maybe going to ftms nak clear cima application, books, classes (yes, me taking cima) saturday morning dgn jazmila kot since he'll be starting class this weekend, 1-10pm sat, 8-5pm sunday.. saturday morning is about all i can havela kan. nabil ajak tgk movie, nemo, again, but then defer lagi kot, masing2 ada hal..
so probably saturday afternoon, ha'ah kan, ajak my family makan luar sekali la.. papa bayar though

mana?
chances are midvalley, check out ms read, then jusco, then the rest.. unless isetan sale..sale ke? klcc la kot then..

beli apa?
nak beli kasut actually, but mcm boleh main redah je klcc or midvalley, actually been there, done that, tak jumpa pun saiz kaki gajah ni..haa..anyone knows where to get larger sizes ladies shoes (larger = 10 and above) it'll do my one whole ancestor a great favour! get back to me will ya?
kasut one thing.. nak 'refresh' under garments nye collectionla.. this is my favourite, nothing feels better than brand new panties or 'triumph life support' : )
and nak get anything yg berkaitan.. ahaha...disclaimer note in case overspent

ok, back to work

hi..quick one

dying of stress this days.....
hows life/work...

those two lines greeted me in my outlook Inbox this morning..it's dear cousin again..i'm getting scared..
why must he mengadu this n that to me lately..
suddenly think i'm the most comfy person to talk to issit?
or just 'keeping in touch' with a cousin..
i cant help thinking that it's the 3rd (or is it 2nd) attempt..
i wish i am just perasan now

meet the parents-part II

his mom just smiled.. and didnt utter a thing.. she stayed like that till i left.. never fasten her eyes on me, never ask anything, just ajak makan, suruh tambah, suruh minum..when i talk, she listened, when i dont she didnt ask..
the father is just hilarious.. i'm beginning to think fathers are like that.. my father is another case..

the family is exactly how i imagine them to be
the younger sister is shy and quiet, the brother is also quiet.. i dont remember jazmi talking to him pun
the 2 yr old nephew is the center of attention.. Thank God for him..
the older sister, however, is quite loud.. well..jazmi said all eldest girls are.. heyy!!
she asked me this and that, the father listened tentatively, let go a huge 'aahh..' when i said i studies abroad and that my father is a businessman, a bigger 'aahh..' when he found out i went there via a scholarship. then he went on praising accountants, like it's the hardest tittle to achieve.. the sis and the father argued a little.. normal la.. the dad nak tunjuk that he knows this and that (though he actually asked if i'm a member of AIM instead of MIA.. cute innit?) and the sis got irritated by the ol man enthusiasm (especially the part where he mistook 'consultant' for 'counselor')..

the mom, is so ever quiet
but according to his son later, that was her most sociable mode.. she's just not a talker and i shouldnt feel bad about it..
it's when the mom starts talking then i should be worried..
heh..watevala dear

so we ate a lot, talk a little, and watch the cute nephew played..

jazmi smiled all the way home : )

meet the parents - postmortem

"so mcm mana mak?"
"ok"
"ok je?"
"mi yg pilih, mak ok je"
"boleh 'on' tak mak?"
"semayang cukup 5 waktu belum?"

i think mak dia power, she seldom say things, but from his story the things that she say are very interesting..i think she's a Tok We.. yeah she is, and i hope she is in every sense, senang dapat in law mcm tu..

meet the parents-part 1

yesterday i met his parents

it wasnt as how i imagine it will be, never thought i'll be meeting them right after 4 hours of sweating and mingling with strangers..giving out bunga telur.. yes, me, giving out bunga telur, u may laugh world.. but that's the most 'convenient' plan for all parties
in fact, he was suppose to be in kedah, attending his frensss' weddingsss..but didnt manage since kereta rosak. so he accompanied me to lynn's bro's wedding.. and waited while i helped distribute the telur..i learn that he wasnt a bad cameraman either actually

it was weird, me and him, at a wedding..with frens around, forecasting that we're next in line.
and not to mention mama and papa was there too.. of course, we went separately...else it'll all be like one big fairytale..
mama n papa glances at us quite a number of times, mama just smiled.. and i froze.. jazmi was sitting besides me talking to me, and my parents were across looking and smiling. they were even responsive when my frens teased them about us.

at about 4pm, after second round of nasi kenduri (hey, i think i deserve it) we was about to make our way home when i noticed an interesting couple.. no, it wasnt the bride n groom.
che'ya and husband was there too! of all ppl to catch me looming at a wedding with jazmi.. them!
i went to see her anyhow, after trying hard to hid jazmi somewhere. she was surprised to see me of course, and i immediately sense her eyes scanning my background for any makhluk she can suspect as my boyfren.. jazmi n hetz suddenly found soo much topics to talk about.. eheh
then hetz walk us untill we're off her sight.. yeah, the idea of making it look like he's with her instead of me..u think that lady'll buy it?.. i can actually feel her tailing my movement..(which was confirmed by hetz later that night)

we stopped to get his parents something, then off we go..
he was smiling all the way
i know this is not fair but i was nervous shit about the encounter just now , that it actually overshadowed my innitial nervous abt meeting his parents..
well..at least it helped me a little.. once i've faced che' ya, i think i can face any parents of any boy now.. ehehe.. jahatnya.. she's no evil actually, and pretty harmless.. i wonder why..
must be her aura then..

we reached his sis home, greeted by his cheerful father, his mom just smiled.. and didnt utter a thing.. she stayed like that till i left.. never fasten her eyes on me, never ask anything, just ajak makan, suruh tambah, suruh minum..when i talk, she listened, when i dont she didnt ask..
the father is just hilarious.. i'm beginning to think fathers are like that.. my father is another case..

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