I'm speaking London man!

Thanks Zero, i'm still here.

Ahh.. where do i start. It's Sunday afternoon, the most conducive time for a nap, and i'm here in the office. Just got back from business trip to London. Actually was back since Tuesday but since I started work onWednesday itself, never got the chance to overcome my jetlag yet.. so i'll just say 'i just got back' till i've fully recovered. Anyway, it feels good saying it.. "i just got back from buss trip to London" ahaha.. kampung gila!

My life these pass few weeks has been quite happeningla jugak, but totally unbloggable. In other words, it's been work, work and work. The happening part of it is.. i like it. Ever since the dept started on this international project, mcm2 happened. And we're talking abt myriad of extreme emotions. Kadang2 rasa macam masochist pulak. Lagi byk kerja, the more ridiculous the instruction is, the more excited i get (not sexually though, sorry to dissapoint). Well, maybe it's just me la, so emotionally connected with my work.. org lain biasa je kot. It's exhausting no doubt and somewhat it has changed my life a bit (i gained few kilos) but at least it gives me sense of worth. Hehe.. am i sick or wat?

But then sometimes rasa mcm loser pun ada. Cant help feeling like a dissapointment to many. The other day, papa n mama's anniversary cum zetty's bday.. and i was stuck at the office.. and yes, it was sunday. Of course mama n papa tak kisah, as if i'm much help around the kitchen pun.. but then arriving home when it's already full with guests is somehow very saddening jugakla.. even tho takde sapa comment apa pun. Hari tu at Alynn's baby's cukur jambul pun, i made a grand entry, straight from work, late, oily-faced and all... pastu for an hr or so stone je.. sbb exhausted.

And last Friday. it was dearest's bday. Initially thought we wont be celebrating together sbb i was suppose to be holidaying in Bangkok and him in hometown. Alih2 boss gave me assignment to London and cancelled my leave (hence trip to Bangkok) just like that. So he came back in time for dinner together last Friday. But stupid me got stuck at the office. This time i was really stuck and it wasnt the sheer pleasure of sense of worth bull anymore. Dahla on the way back madwoman nak tumpang. Told her i've got guest waiting at home. She asked sapa your guest? wat the fffff kan??? None of your buss b****. Then dgn selambanya she said, "takpelah then, WE can leave now". On the way i called dearest asked him to wait for another 5 mins, ade last minute issue at the office (referring to the madwoman who takes forever to pack up). Letak phone, the madwoman yg very clearly was attentively listening to my conversation, said, "Hantar i kat rumah terus boleh?" Till now i'm still wondering y the hell did i not say NO. If your husband doesnt want to pick his lazy bum to fetch u, is it my problem to ensure you're sent safe to ur doorstep??? Ok, slight diversion.. but the bday dinner which was suppose to be something special, since 1. it's the only thing we celebrate and 2.we havent seen each other lama dah jugak turned out to be us habiskan lauk yg bibik masak kat rumah and having coffee while watching kill bill 2 later. Well, he wasnt complaining, though he said "masa bujang ni la nak kerja lewat2 kan?", but i felt a huge pang of guilt. Almost angry at myself. But since the dinner pun impromptu je and he just got back from Kedah, the homey alternative wasnt such a bad thing la. But had we made bookings n he's all dressed up for the occasion, i would have killed myself dah.

So, that's me updated.
Still pathetic, still self centered, just busier je.

Oh the London trip. mcm dah basi nak cerita. but this kedekut company (or boss) made me go on Sat nite and come back on Mon eve. Being first timer in London.. and on a solo trip.. i was told that it was a crazy thing to do. Well, like i said, i'm still recuperating.
Dahla less than a week before went to Spore buat carton check before shipping = 8 hrs in spore warehouse sweating it out with a bunch of naked warehouse guys..uurghh!!
Anyway, wat hurt most is not my bio clock, but the fact that i missed the Bangkok trip!
But made it very clear to boss that he just wasted my RM300 flight ticket due to last minute (aka bad) planning.
Perhaps, we're looking at another oversea trip before yr end.. : )
Jakunnya aku...

AzieNovan's wedding and THE party

Had a smashing weekend.

Attended Novan n Azie's akad nikah on Saturday morning. It was a quiet and simple event, perfect if u ask me. Just as how way wedding should be. The hantarans, the dress, the make up, the invitees.. wish mine'll be something like that.. just that. I wish..

Anyway, couldnt help feeling sentimental over the event right from the moment we arrived at Novan's place. Afterall, it's the first guy/girl of the Sevens getting married, to each other! Novan was as 'sempoi' as usual. Telling us not to worry abt mengangkat dulang at wat not cos the dulang sikit je.. Aku kasi 5 je, 5 je.. hahah.. kesian my wife... He even told us he was very economical abt where he gets wat he wore that day. Nevertheless he looks really good, well, if only the sampin is a bit higher, but of course, that's his trademark.

All the boys pun were present that day, which makes the whole thing extra special, cos it's been a while since we last held gathering with complete members. Guess work drifted us apart a bit.. belum laki/bini/anak masing2 lagi.. Hetz n Shaz cried a bit.. I was almost there but not quite. This kawin thing, it's really inching nearer lah. We told the boys that the standard now has been set, habisla korang, bini Novan lawa (and Azie did look LAWA instead of cute that day).. and plus, he did it first time right. Sekali lafaz je.. hehehe

Well, maybe wat everybody shd learn from this event is never to sarungkan cincin to ur wife while u're standing and she's seated, and no, squatting in front of her is not a better idea either. Kawin dah Novan...
Next week the reception and that's n event to look fwd to.. Dgr cerita ramai org dah makin lawa n makin kurus.. let's spoil my esteem..

******

Later that night, the same crowd++ gathered at lish's for THE AF FINAL partayy!!
food byk gila. Lish cooked Olio pasta, grill chicken and baked terung, Hetz buat some Asian chicken salad and I brought some potato salad n popiah. Auntie Aminah siap baked a prune cake for us. and Zahir brought two tubs of real evil icecream. Now, writing this down makes me fell gilababi guilty cos i think i had 2nd helping for most of them!

As usual, Ben the bookie arranged for some pool for the final result. I won RM6!! Abt the result, oklaaa.. but i really think Adam tak patut menang. He's such a typical Malaysian entertainer. Who needs a second Yusri anyway?? Wat to do, supply meets demand. Wonder how much Shaz spent on him.. shame on u perempuan! We left quite late jugak.. and quite sad that this season's over.. Gila2 dah sangkut to this show..

Yesterday pulak gi shopping dgn dearest. Managed to pursuade him to buy this yellow shirt.. hehehe.. yellow on him.. mama was very sceptical when she heard that. And i bought a pink shirt. Dunno apesal drawn to pink sgt nowadays.. dah elok2 try the blue one alih2 pay for the pink one.

As expected, hari ni nak bgn pun susah. First thing in the morning, had a meeting. Boss asked everybody to stay late this week. Expect to be working till midnight. Full commitment. Fast. Accurate. Proactive. Responsible.. gitu2la dia ckp tadi..
Obviously, i'm not here yet.
Malasnyaaa....

This is wat i get for talking abt holiday too early in advance
i'm still here
and driving her back pulak tu..
urrghhh...

Holidayyy!!

Byk refreshing stuff happening next mth

Will be going to Spore for this medical conference/exhibition.. excited cos firstly, i'm turning into a biomed freak.. mcm jakun gila bila tgk all the equipments and their latest tech. never thought this industry interesting.. yelah, since pre-SPM my die hard ambition was to be a doctor.. me, doctor.. hahhaha... yeah, even my parents are still laughing

Secondly.. it's away from this office.. and away from Msia, even though cross that tiny strait.. It wont be a long trip though probably just overnight.. but it should be refreshing enough

Then end of Sept, booked flight to Bangkok. Konon another shopping spree with mama. Tapi this time papa n zetty will be joining, so we kinda know sapa going to do the spreee here lah. Afterall i spent too much already on this August sale. Setakat ni dah beli satu baju, 2 seluar, satu kain for baju kurung. Going to get a pair of spec, kasut kerja, more baju kerja and maybe a nice suit.
Puas hati aku!

Once again, sapa tau any shoe maker? My size is hopeless in this Asia regionlah!

Honesty is the bloody best policy..

Apa nak buat ah kalau his ex is more lawa and he admits it again n again..
Ok he admits it again n again sbb i asked him again n again.. just to get a 'politically correct' answer.. to no avail oviously

I know physical beauty is skin deep, but then he didnt say she's lawa physically je. Sbb dah byk kali sgt tanya and got that err.. unexpected answer, kadang2 mcm dah tak kisah. But sometimes, when time is bad, PMS for instance (bad is an understatement) rasa mcm alaaaahai.. wat to do .. i'm not so good looking in his eyes afterall.. very bad for the esteem.

By the way, "Yes, she is prettier than you" is an unexpected answer bukan sbb i'm darn pretty or even confident that i am pretty. But biasala kan, beauty is in the eyes of beholder, and i would expect, of all ppl, this beholder will admitla that aku paling lawa.. muahahahaha!

Ok that sentence alone concludes everything for me. That it's not possible so wake up and face the fact! Paling lawa.. i wish! Tapi kalau Angelina Jolie ke, Aishwarya Rai ke.. or any celebrity yg can spend a fortune on their looks for that matter, tak kisahla. But his ex is just an ordinary girl. Ordinary girl who looks prettier than me. Urghhhh!!! (This is turning into a very PMSy entry)

Win dah ckp, he is blind. I know Win meant well but that doesnt help at all cos Win hasnt met his ex. So sapa2 yg try to pacify me by telling no lah u're preeeety wat may not help at all, unless u've evidently seen this girl. In fact i havent seen her picture/met her either. Itu yg geram tu, lawa mana sgtla dia ni... ehehehe.. evilevilevil..

Mcm ni jelah. He is with me now. And we're talking abt weddings. That's a good sign huh? Tak kisahla (paling) lawa ke tak, but if he loves me n decided to marry this ugly face, wat do i have to complain abt. I mean I drool over guys in front of him when we're out n about.. and i completely forgot he's there when Mr Damon flashes on screen.. So hey!

At least, at least.. i can take that he's n honest person. Sigh...

Black Monday

still kat office. doing, of all thing.. printing.
tinggal boss je, the whole dept dah blah. from here can hear guys main volleyball kat luar. bengang betul.. baru plan nak join this week. dah lama diorang ajak but tak pernah nak try and of all day, today yg rasa nak main, stuck here doing PRINTING.
business plan season is back.. and this is only the beginning

last week pun same thing jugak, punyala semangat calling2 the ladies for the weekly netball. alih2 semua org turun, and i'm left here.. membesarkan bontot..
kalau gaji increase in proportion lainla pulak..

anyway hari tu mr boss dah indicate. i'm in for good news during appraisal this yr
i'm holding on to that jelah now
amin..

la..boss suruh balik.. dia kata you young girl, it's dark already!!
yeah .. u're telling me..
bagus jugak ada 'granpa' as a boss

God's gift to ME!

I'm mad abt this guy.. yes yrs after high school.. or uni.. i'm still mad abt this guy. Now dont tell me he looks like Leo cos that wont turn me off..

The other day, he appeared on MTV alongside Halle Berry and i was jumping like a freaking teenage girl. In front of all my teenage brothers.. and Zetty..and Julee.

He's simply orgasmiclah! I like..

Takleh upload gambar la pulak.. next timela..potong s.. betulla

mr damon

Rojak

CIMA results are out.
I passed one subject, and failed another.
Weird how that doesnt affect me at all.. well, except for.." alamak.. duit lagi!"
Even papa was indifferent abt it.
"How come fail?"
"Sbb tak pass"
"Emm.. OK, repeat jelah"
"Yeah, i guess"
This conversation took place at the dinner table with brothers anxiously waiting for me to get wacked. Of course they were left puzzled, thinking aloud, "Damn, how one earth did u do that??"
Wat to do, favourite girl! NOTT!!

Julee is growing up fine. She now knows how to greet me at the door when i arrived home and usher my way to the bedroom. She's adorable. Wish i could post more pictures tapi being paranoid me, maybe nantila. They say if u take pictures of ur cat/kitten, they will stray. The only way Julee can stray away from us on the 16th floor is of course through the aid of gravity.. eeee

There's a big wedding coming up. Actually i dunno how's it gonna be like, but since it's a close fren marrying another close fren, it's automatically a big one! I'm invited to the akad nikah, which is quite unnerving. I dont quite fancy the tense atmosphere. I remember freaking out at Ida's earlier this yr masa the kadi read all the tanggungjawab n stuff. But when it comes to the "Sah!" part, i was like.. damn! jealousnyaa..
Tapi one part i fear most will always be, wat if aku takleh bangun after the akad.. cramp/numb feet?? How?.. malu gila.. why la takleh akad nikah sitting down on chairs like normal deals? And how the hell can anyone control lawa that long (yes, with numb feet some more)?
I'm so not prepared am i?

Anyway, the wedding. Should be interesting sbb dah lama tak jumpa org. Ex collegemates, seniors, juniors, mentors.. i guess they will be at the reception. If i allow myself, i can get depress thinking of the number of familiar faces i'll be greeting, and the heavier me they'll be meeting. Tulah.. masa makan tak ingat.. bila ada function startla cuak. Anyway. we're still unsure on the wedding gift. Since it'll be quite a number of us, and since both are our frens, maybe angpau tu lumayan sikitla. One of the guys suggested PS2. Now i know wat to tell them NOT to buy for my wedding nanti.

Great weekend plan ahead. Only thing is, it's only Monday! Shopping carnival ni really gonna kill me la. It's the 2nd day of the mth, and i'm in red already.

Catatan semasa bengang, dan buntu

Waa... hebat, dah boleh upload gambar direct.
ada quote, ada bullet list..

Kalau nak ikutkan hati nak menyumpah pasal kerja sekarang, rasanya vocab yg ada mmg tak cukup lagi.. I think it's fit to say that work/current project is driving us mad. I'm getting more opinionated on the madwoman, even in public. (All these while kutuk dlm hati & private emails je.. hahah) Now, it has been established among colleagues that i'm not the boss talibarut (finally) .. and hence they are (more) free to swear like crazy abt her in front of me. And the project itself..all the hardwork, the trains of meetings.. the anticipation and the adrenaline rush.. down the drain dah.. sedih la jugak.. Cant believe i'm actually getting emotional about my work.
Hahahaha..tapi sedih2 pun, just now got news abt the second phase of my one-woman project (ie MY project) The outlook is convincing. So very happy. My baby is back!

Ughh.. i am so irritating.. so mengada.

And nobody understand wtf i'm saying

Oklah, Julee.. the kitten is getting bigger and healthier and more mengada. Papa said, just like the owner.. that's me by the way. Been spending a lot on her to the extend that mama asked if i have enough money left when i gave her monthly duit ibubapa. The truth is, mmg tak cukup ma! but takkan that kucing kecik tu cost your monthly 'beautification allowance'. But then again i suspect mama's redirecting her fund to that little culprit jugak. Semalam she came back with few kinds of kitten food, then the carrier bag, some toys (yes, toys) and mende ntah lagi for Julee.
But no, mama still cant hold her (sebab geli)

More pictures later.

p/s : Naura, i'll give u the list/recommendation nanti k? ke dah tak sabar2 ni ;)

 

There're several obvious reasons to be here blogging when the IN-tray dah macam nak roboh..

1. The irritating madwoman ie Boss, is not around.

2. Alynn, my ex classmate in kys, just gave birth to a cute healthy baby boy (to quote the sms she send us). The mom is alhamdulillah healthy, and the baby.. kuss semangat!!geram gilagila.. terus rasa nak beranak..untill Alynn shares her experience in full detail.. i guess i can wait few more yearslah

3. I got myself a month+ old kitten. We call her Julee cos it's juling and it's July. She was pretty sick when we got her, so semalam, dearest me n zetty went to a vet (first time ever!) and pegi beli some supplies. The poor little thing is having cirit birit at the moment but active like hell.. so go figure wat we have to handle at homela. Bibik seems a little bit irritated by the mess. but everyone else just couldnt let her go lah! oh yeah, mr dearest is getting jealous too..

Speaking of mr dearest, i got a rose yesterday! and there was no special occasion. Terawang2 sekejap.. but felt quite guilty, sbb he waited for me for 1 hr+ to go to the vet. (The stupid madwoman held me back to do some stupid thing) when it's really non of his business. So treated him to this Just Pasta place (in Taipan, USJ), sbb ada voucher (cheapskate!). I must say the pizza there is good. Pasta so-so jelah. But the service is weird man, even tho it's efficient. The waiters and the owners were asking us abt the food every 15 minutes... and they change the ash tray quite often too.. once for every cigratte..

I'm in love

I'm currently madly in love with my job. No, i'm by no means a workaholic yet, but i absolutely enjoy my 8.30am-5.30pm these days. The adrenaline rush i get, along with the piles of assignments is simply.. WOW!

AND I'M NOT BEING SARCASTIC.. yeah.. scary huh?

Just the other day i was so damn jealous of a fren of mine who's into unit trust blablabla. She's so into it.. and earning big bucks too. Bigger bucks than mine.. Much much bigger bucks..

But yeah, earning what i'm earning doing what i'm doing now is simply satisfying too. Who would have thought..

It's an annoying entry i know, so let me just say this, my boss's head is empty. Seriously. Which makes it weird really.. Me loving my job and at the same time feeling like killing her every second of the passing business hours..Urrghh.. she's urrghh.. i've no word for her.. hetz, if u're reading, pls verify this..

maybe i'll just post each thing she say/do that makes me go "wat the ff...??"
that way, i'll have things to say in my blog on daily basis..
haha.. funny

i'm ying. and i'm an AF addict..

..and i dont mind being one. Afterall, given my social circle, i have nothing much to do on Saturday eve anyway, esp when Mr Dearest has commenced classes. And at least AF gives me another reason for me to lepak2 makan2 with frens on weekend, ie, i became less of a 'monogamist' ..haha... as if i need another reason for lepak2 makan2..

First concert
We were at Lish's, fully equipped with rounds and rounds of nasik lemak and pudding and cake and pisang goreng. And it wasnt just the quantity. All of the above, sedap! Of course gossip session follow suit while we flipped some same ol magazines over and over again. And yeah, we had that girly girly activity of making Niz try out some outfit just to beat the esteem out of us. Then we praise her and make her pose for us while Lish go snap happy. Get the lesbo vibe yet?

Second concert
It was at my place this time, but with a different league. Irwan and Syude joined me after i drugged them with plates and plates of meehoon. I realised i'm not the only 'demam' person around when Irwan started singing along and suggested that we should go karaoke sometime..

Third concert
Lepak rumah Lynn since she had the whole house to herself over the weekend. the usual crowd, me, hetz n niz, joined by khalid later. Had pizza and was couching to the max. Rather dissapointed with the performance and a few other things.. Hetz said the rehearsal was better.. (another 'demam' person identified here). By the way i think Fitri shd go out first.. then Edlin.. then Sher Kawi.. hahaha

All in all, bestla jugak ada something to look fwd to Saturday nites. That sounds so pathetic.. but hey..

BUT HEY!!!.. next week lain cerita pulak.. ;)
later2 la

Do u happen to know..

Prove to me that this blog serves more than just my narcissism

1. Where, in Subang, can i go for eyebrow threading and how much does it cost?

2. Where, in Malaysia, can i find ladies shoes in special sizes (10 and above)? Besides Princess shoes and Central Shoes on Jalan TAR and that corner shop on Penang Road.

3. Where, in Klang Valley, can i find a good shoe-maker, that is capable of making large sizes shoes that are comfy? Besides Datuk Jimmy Choo of course (does he make/design them in large size anyway?).

and, while i'm at it..

Anybody interested in kain for baju kebaya indon (ie, kain batik and embroidered top) going for abt RM 150. I think the market price for these type of kain are $250-$300+.
Materials of the kain varies from see through rayon/crepe to thai silk.

The wonders of meetings

We're currently working on this huge project. The thing with this project is it's a damn rush job, but it's too massive to let go. Yeah, my company is having the ego thing, i guess they bit more than we could chew this time. But wat do an ordinary exec like me know huh?

Sitting in one of the zillions meeting (on this project) just now, i cant help but have a little escape from the hustle, to notice

1. My Ladyboss is always out of topic. I found it amusing how Mr Bigboss can handle this situation by asking same questions over and over again in different ways. Sometimes i get this impluse to just climb across the meeting table and shut her popcorn mouth, literally, and do the explanation to BigBoss on her behalf, cos really, we're the ciku execs usually know more abt the matter than her anyway

2. My colleague, Mr Sloppyhead is a serious blur case la. He needs to be asked a question trice in order to get his dreamyhead in the right frame to answer the question. Asking a question someone has asked 10 minutes earlier, or in another meeting yesterday or last week (which he attended), is a famous routine of his.

3. Another colleague, Ms Dontmesswithme have quite a noticeable mood swing. If she's unhappy with something and somebody in the meeting, u'll immediately get the vibes. Eyes rolled, voice raised, excessive sighing, and the face expression..

4. Bigboss is a definite gelabah old man. He reminds me so much of papa, which i'm not sure if i should be grateful for or not. He gets so gelabah about deadline that sometimes we cant help but laugh, right there, in the meeting, in front of him. and then, of course, as good subordinates we pacify him with lots of "dont worrys". but yeah, having a team which includes the above, i think his worries are sometimes valid.

Comfession of a Drama Queen

Didnt go to work today, had major diarhoea. Learnt that diarhoea not only cos all the excessive toilet visits, it also provide more time for unnecessary toilet-time weird thoughts. Heh..

Anyway, meet loser of the day..

Had freaky dream about mr dearest last nite.
Woke up early to give him a ring.
No answer.
Waited 10 mins, call again.
No answer.
It did not help that he is all the way up north and travelling by one of those express busses to KL today ( i hate those bus crashes news!)
Woke up, mandi, brekkie.. the lots. Ring again
No answer
It's 10am, and he's suppose to be on the bus back already. But he's not even answering the calls.. (which cumulatively amounts to A LOT dah by then)
PANICKED
Starts imagining all weird stuff.. and the worst.. some road accident.
I know he's a dead log when he sleeps but never ignore phonecalls though.
Wat if the dream is some sort of premonition?
Wat if something reaaallly bad happened to him?
Wat if this is not just me being paranoid?
Arrrghhhh!!
It's 10.15am and he's not answering the phone yet.
Called Abe to call office and get his number in Alor Setar.
Crying and cursing him at the same time now..
Another 10 minutes, and crying is an understatement by then.
10.25. He answered, in his chirpy morning tone.
I was half crying and half laughing
He was dumbfounded (O'oo.. gf aku dah gilaa..)
A few hush2 and sorries
And the loser finally slept like a baby..

Malu/Klakar/Bodoh gila.

Papa's snowball

Among many2 parents i know and befriended, nobody is quite like papa. He's hilarious, sporting like hell, unbelievably irritating and posses all sorts of quality magazines tend to describe a man, boy, father and son. Seriously, he's such a wholesome guy. And worse case is, he's a typical Kelantanese too.

You know how conversation tends to lead from one thing to another. Papa being him loves to do this. He likes to think of one issue then relate it to others and then starts thinking abt it all at once. So, occasionally, out of nowhere we get this snowball. They are seriously right when they say guys cannot multitask but papa, he has another major issue, he doesnt know how to compartmentalise too.

And this is how the most recent snowball happens

Papa : U know there's new township coming up near our new hse?
Mama : Really? Hah, okla like that Noreen. How much?
Ying : Yeah, how much?
Papa : You want to buy a house? How are u going to afford it???
Ying : Not nowla. Later of course can afford. Get married ke..
Mama : Yeah, kawin dulu
Papa : Mung nok kawin ni, boyfren mung dah cukup duit ko dok?
Ying : La, we've discussed about this right? We're working things outla
Papa : Dont think of things so lightly Noreen. Study tak habis lagi. Duit lagi..
Ying : But pa, if u want me to wait for him to finish study and all, 3-4 tahun lagila.. paling cepat. You want me to get married at that age ke? Kan we've agreed on this. study is study, kawin is kawin.
Mama : Tulah
Papa : Berapa tahun lagi?? Ish.. why so long? Pastu mung nok ur husband ada diploma je. U're a degree holder.
Ying : Takpelah, he's working it out kan. The other day we agreed already wat..(Shot a look at mama) Mestila lama, part time..blablabla
Mama : (Buat dek)
Papa : Nok senang, u support his study la. Buat full time cepat sikit habiskan. 2 yrs?
Mama : Ish pa, org tak cakap mcm tu. Jodoh ni kita takleh kata
Papa : No, kawinla dulu. Dah selamat kawin then u support his study la. How much is it going to cost u anyway?
Ying : $1000 kot per semester. Dunno. No pa, the cost is not much of a problem now. But isnt this unpractical?
Papa : Apa susah. Mung duduk dgn aku lah. Haaa...nak murah lagi gi study kat Bandung. You said everything there is murah. Institut Teknologi Bandung, very recognise u know. probably cheaper.
Ying : Haaa.. so u're allowing me to stay abroad la.. Sano sejuk jugak, adela rasa mcm migrate aussie jugak kan.. and the currency, sure jadi org kaya kat sana kan..
Mama : Yes, u start a business, jadi agent kain for mama here..
Papa : Hish, mung duduk sini dgn akula! Husband mung tu dok sano, study..
Ying : Nooooo way. You havent seen the girls there. Mama almost brought back one for Abe
Papa : Dont worry, your boyfren is not that good looking afterall
Mama : If that's the case i dunnola. As long as Malaysian, good looking or not is secondary.
Papa : Then u find another
Ying : Noo way!
Papa : Heyla Noreen.. i dunnola.. all i want is the best for everyone.. Dgn Cho SPM lagi, your CIMA how? Farez tu nasib baik dah balik study sini.. Aku ni tua doh.. You're the eldest.. Zetty tu.. kena harapkan adik beradik dah tu support.. blablablabla

And that's my father. Mind u, this type of conversation, especially the closure is veryvery common in our home. Though wat he said could be funny and insane to me, it also means that he's willing to allow unorthodox things happen to his family. Which is wat confuses me now, me getting married to a guy of unequivalent academic qualification (though working towards it..give another3-4 yrs) is worse than me being the sole-bread winner, supporting my husband study far away from sight? Twisted la papa ni.

While i truly appreciate his concern over this matter, i found it hard to understand the logic behind his suggestion. It's not like dearest is not pursuing his degree now. If that's the case, lain ceritala. Afterall, him working+part time study=3,4 yrs towards degree while full time study+not working = 2,3 yrs for degree.. beza sikit sgt to justify such a weird arrangement.

I've spoken to dearest about this. He understands papa's concern, but yeah, u guess right. I think it'll take one in a million to agree to this arrangement. And i'm glad, sbb if he agrees.. it'll be weird for me to tell i'm not willing to go with that huge sacrifice.. hehe.. me, practical.

For me, i'm bless to have parents as reasonable as them. Understanding and allowing our own choices though there are instances when it's tempting to intervene (be it a sound suggestion or not!). Papa likes dearest, i can tell. It's just the security he's lacking. Maybe he's not rich and deosnt come ready with all sorts of certs. But i'm sure with their blessing, and jodoh, of course, things will turn out ok. As mama always say to assure papa, "It's in her blood pa, we started off like that jugak dulu"

New baby New house

I'm back and no, i wont blog about Bandung, yet.
There's so much to say about it, require so much emotion and i'm not fit for it right now. hehe..i'll give it three keywords for now though.
shopping.best.gila.

the holiday was marvellous. came back feeling totally refresh and not a worry abt my sucky exam papers the other day. in fact i forgot abt it altogether. hehe..

Boss awarded me with a new baby again yesterday. this particular project is definitely exciting, so much so that i left for work early this morning. To kick start the project, we had a 3 hrs presentation/meeting with the top guns yesterday. I guess the most exciting part of this would be the exposure i get by working with the industy's specialist. A man who has been there even before i was born. I'm certainly looking fwd to this especially after realising that i am beginning to understand the industry AND the sophisticated technical aspect of the biotech products. Now i can tell my former bio teacher that all his (and my) effort in the subject has not gone to waste afterall.

Another interesting development on the 'work' front is actually the netball court! Finally, they've annouce that the court is ready and that frenly match/trainings will be on weekly basis. ooohh.. bestnya2..Ladies, we're gonna play ball!!

The parents pulak has been busy with plans for our new hse which is completing anytime this mth. Papa has recruited my cousin Syam as the official architect and his driver, Uncle Asri as the contractor for the renovations. So for the past few days they've been busy surveying the ground and wat not. I am appointing myself as the asst. interior decorator, with mama being the Mem of course. Cant wait, cant wait!

Actually i meant to blog about something papa highlighted abt 'our plan'. about me n mr dearest to be precise. but this is altogether a lengthy one on its own. nanti2lah kot.

i never know how to end a blog entry. heh.

Exam, Holiday and Pontianak

Exam sucks gila major..as always, wat else is new
Anyway, going to Bandung tomorrow..hah!
will story later

that Pontianak Sundal Malam movie is o-k laaa..
scary cos it's a malay/asian ghost, so it feels real, though the make up n everything is just plain.. foundation two or three shades fairer and lotsa red substance/liquid.
but it's boring.. with restrictionsssss imposed by the authorities, I think i'll excuse them to a certain degree lah

it's 3 am and the freaking Pontianak's shriek is still looming around in my head..
err.. nite!

Undo

Nak kata baik, tak jugak.
But i deleted a long entry which manage to be online for few hrs just now. Abt this old man which is my clerk. Dont ask why. Probably i'm over it. Not that anything happened and that i've a different perspective abt him now. But feel better this way...try not to fill this blog with so much aversion. He's not worth a bloody entry anyway.

Having said that, i still feel somebody should torment/kill the animal who did that gruesome abuse to the poor indon girl. a maid is still human no matter wat.

The clerk attack!

Deleted

Talk about goodies

I have 2 goodies for all today

1. 6 free tickets to Starlight Cinema, the open air movie experience happening next mth in Bukit Kiara. Just go, try ur luck, doesnt hurt a bit, takes less than 1 minute. It's so easy, Mr Dearest and I got 12 already! (yes, we're so kiasu)

2. A true 'datin dosage'. I dunno if this is simply fictional (like the debate of Belle de Jour's blog) but it simply is, again, another good insight to the world which we often wonder abt (at least i do). Good read. Just go.

Just one final chapter to go and a few more days left. Cant wait till exam's over.
Bandung oh Bandung!

Heart wide open

Conversation with win last night and jenn'sweekly supplement inspired this.

I was a serious die-hard chatter freak once, and that was not known to many. Hence admitting that i met Mr Dearest online on one fateful eve is simply not an easy task. Probably, yeah, the reason why is simply because i dont want them to be under the impression that i was desperate, and hence quietly, resorted to the internet for help. Because i didnt. Tapi yelah, wat to do, that's where i met him, there's certainly no regret abt it cos he's definitely a beeeeg catch, at least to me la.

Actuallykan why worry abt wat ppl think? Why must we impose upon ourself things like 'meeting the one online is NOT cool'? Before we know it, we become prejudice. We become one of them, the stereotypicals. Tapikan how can we build such a strong principle, the no-no list, for something as uncontrolled as fate, like our own jodoh.

Mama, as most mothers, told me and reminded me over and over again, dont dislike anyone, else yg mcm tu lah yg u'll end up with.

Have an open heart.
If u want to go online to find ur true one, pegi jelah, just be careful. Whatever history a guy/girl has, it's HISTORY. Nobody's perfect afterall.
If ur parents have someone they want u to meet, go. It's not about 'tangkap muat'. Just open yourself to possibilities, discount no one, u'll be surprised, trust me.

So yes, we met thru the net.
It was new year's eve 2002 by the way. A bored girl and a heartbroken guy. The rest is history, insyaAllah.. hehe
Love u dear!

i want..

1. new bra(s)
2. new spectacle
3. a hair trim
4. tailor made black pants
5. an all-occasion lipstick
6. kfc hot n spicy
7. brisbane
8. mr dearest
9. UQ's pizza

desperate need of no 1 & 2
can do without 3, 5 & 6 at the moment
simply unattainable currently - no 7 & 9
sigh..

time flies huh..it's already FRIDAY..
in MAY.. MAY!!!

8 more hours to go everyone...

exam and the new adventure

right
exam is two weeks away and i'm only 70% through reading the chapters, yes READING thru the chapters. meaning to say about 30% of my course guidelines are still sitting nicely in the file, as good as new. in fact, at the rate things are going, some of my read chapters are also as good as new.. since i just skim thru them..
i'm such a disspointment to myself..

took extra 3 days of last week = weeklong holiday at home, all in the name of 'revision'. nak revise apa, tgk pun tak pernah. nonetheless, it was a fruitful one. besides revising, i went to selesa hillhome, our family holiday home and man.. was that vegetating or what?? my parents, zetty and i, watched 6 vcds in 2 days. i was practically 24hrs on my back, discount the meal time. terrible but syok sgt2

besides selesa, tak pegi mana2. just stayed at home. teman mama shopping and i grew this new interest - participating in contest. we are busy stuffing ourself with wall's ice cream now. on the other hand, papa went pasta mad and naturally and willingly, i, was dragged along. mama pulak tried cooking few pasta dishes at home, using my service as the taster. then of course, the mothers day dinner, prepared by me n papa. mama seems to like it, but cho ate almost half of the pasta serving.

anyway, after aaaaaall that..inhale...i'm back on one of my 'adventures' again. After all the huha abt this thing, i've decided to have a go at it. the only downside so far is it's expensive.. say about RM200 for a mth supply. but of course, compared to paying thousands just to get a permanent sauna scar and a deep emotional wound, this is nothing. and besides the 2 days of incessant migraine i had innitially, i have nothing else to complain. really, no scurrying to the loo, no bad smells (dont worry, wont elaborate) and no hell-ish tummy ache. so no complain yet. at least it helps me to control my food a bit, mengenangkan the money i fork out for the pills.

i'd report on the result if i were confident enough. but i think i'll practice prudence and wait a little while to confirm. just to be sure, u know.

new blogger new spirit

blogger baru cun siot!!
dead bored with blogging lately
terima kasih blogger.com
semoga kita panjang umur

rezeki, dim sum & more rezeki

alhamdulillah, i've received wat i've been waiting (and expecting) after more than full yr of service. so, to celebrate, mama n i will be flying off to Bandung for 4 days 3 nites stay. i dont really know wat's nice there but i heard it's THE place for factory outlets. nice enuff for us!. afterall bila lagi nak bawak mama pegi on a girlie2 outing. dah kawin nanti susah. never thought i'd be able to do this in my first/second yr of earning.
some frens of hers will be going too, holidays with the aunties.. wat else can make me feel more youthful!
(thx to AirAsia, now EVERYBODY can flyandtreattheirmothers -nomatterhowciputtheirearningsare)

an interesting development at the office today
over tea (we have official tea time in our company), colleagues and i were discussing about the best slimming option. somebody mentioned abt sendayu tinggi. now i dunno if this is just me or it's serious good advertising. i heard this name a couple of time from different ppl this week alone. so i went and check it out lah. very comprehensive website for a local company selling traditional medicine. soooo.... one of these days, me n frens will check it out for real and perhaps try it kot.
if there's any good, i'd be the first to tell ya!

by the way, we went to pan pac kl for papa's bday do. good spread of dim sum buffet in thai thong at around $35 per pax and i think it's quite a notorious place for it pun . got him a kingston thumb drive since i think he(/the household) need one. but of course, as expected, the kids benefit from it more lah. yeh's girl was there jugak. and abe n cho in the end came solo je. dearest never looked better on that day, spotting the shirt i chose for him and a super clean shaven face. thank u dear! and weee.. he loves dim sum. so kira contra the fact that he doesnt like sushi. adeje abt dia..

speaking of dim sum, there's this place i'd recommend to all. klang executive club chinese restaurant (it's situated next to bukit raja shopping complex). their spread is as good as pan pac's though the fried stuff are not freshly prepared like how they did in pan pac. in fact, expect to squat down n peep for your pick of those stuff which came in a trolley. fun huh? well for the price they're charging (rm 17 nett), what do u expect kan? anyway, thx hetz for the thought of treating me that scrumptious lunch. rezeki kita ada lelaki kaya nak belanja, nak buat camana.. haha ; )

well, good week so far!

papa, hang li poh & 'the gift'

thx to hetz for the pointer, i found Hang Li Poh and immediately won 2 tickets to the theatre (courtesy of www.kakiseni.com). thought of giving them to my parents for papa's bday (well i had the intention to BUY not WIN free tickets for them but rezeki..) but papa has some other plan that nite. so tak boleh and i've to get other presentla pulak (weee..i'll be going with dearest then!) well, this present thing is not a family tradition ke apa but since it's THAT one day of the year, and even zetty can come up with a decent "i love u pa" customised mug, i think i should go the extra mile to get him something.

mama actually likes the gift-exchanging idea (like xmas) and think maybe we should emulate the act someday..maybe during new yr or something. nothing to pricey, just nice little surprises for each other. and no, no xmas/new yr/raya tree for us.

actuallynya kan, i know wat's the best gift for him
but i'm afraid that's definitely not achieveable on friday
hey bilala nak kurus ni ying..
next yr pa, next yr

jolly good weekend!

it's been a good weekend so far
woke up exceptionally early to a clean room and organised wardrobe (spent the whole thursday nite cleaning and re-organising), spent an extra 15 minutes snuggling with zetty (i just love the smell of her kiddies shampoo), went for a good jog around the area, pampered beloved mr waja with a long wash n scrub (had tough time getting rid of debu collected from all over msia) and for no reason had asked mama to get some fresh flowers to match the newly changed bedspread. hmm..
for my ex house/chalet mates.. they probably know wat's gonna happen next..
cik ying nak study!
cos i'm a freak when it comes to perfect situation/environment for studying..

kena mandi dulu.. but before that i have few recommendations

1. rejoice rich
well, the rebonding effect does not appear exactly like depicted in the advert, but it does leave my hair feeling gorgeously light. it cleans well, but not squeky and dry. yet does not weigh down hair like pantene does (aka shiny but limp). light smell.. fresh, just as i like it. the best part is it's freaking cheap, ard 11.90 per 500 ml bottle, which last quite a while.

2. pill ramping cantik binari
hahaha.. yes.. i'm recommending this. it eases bowel movement but does not irritate your daily schedule (u dont risk going to toilet zillion times). i think it cleanses my system too..mcm detox, notable in my complexion after consumption(amboi!). according to the instruction, it helps regulate menses and lessen period cramps (i seldom have problem with mine so i wouldnt really know) just one point though, take lots and lots of water with this, cos it's really like jamu.. very panas, so u tend to get ulcers (sign of tak cukup air) and plus to avoid dehydration.. after dah buang a lot tu kan.. it's traditional formulation so i guess no harm there (remember nona roguy and the steroid case?)

3. stuff body scrub
bought it sbb murah sgt. about $4.70 kot per tub, maybe sbb tgh offer (i chose Chill, the orange colored one). very pleasant smell,to me at leastla. mama said it's bau 'berlemak', u know like ice-creamish, milkish plus some sweet smell of citrus...and it last a long while..even after few hours sitting with smokers in uptown. oklah, i bought it purely because of the smell. the beads are fine but serves the purposela. and the effect is also worth it, after only one application, skin feels softer and more supple. betol! cubalah.. $4.70 for such pampering...

and that's today's service to the society..
i'll be back with my version of 'My Unisense Experience..'

A NEW BEGINNING

i think i'm tired of this blog la
thought of printing all the entries.. and shut it down
lagi lama blogging, mcm lagi self centered. kadang2 bila baca balik, mcm.. e'eh.. minah ni.. mcm bagus.. haha

but today, as i was browsing jenne's fat msian girl (esp this entry) it strucked me la. i want to berkhidmat for the masyarakat (nevermind my language), for the masyarakat of the big & fat especially. and that makes me so happy. thinking abt it makes me feel so good already.

so i guess from now on, this blog will be concentrating on bigNfat issue which i encountered, as a fat msian girl myself. but if u see me deviating from the topic.. let me. cos we fat ppl do have other matters to think abt too.. rather than just the excessive fat (well, maybe that's y i'm still a fatty).

kenapa la tak pernah terpikir abt it selama ni? maybe because i've never really reached the comfy-in-my-body state yet kot, though many may beg to differ (oh u ppl dont know me!). but being here (blog)for a yr plus, i guess it's no secret to the mass that i have some weight issue. so nak malu apa lagi kan? it's not that i'm proud abt being fat. but at least i'm proud that i can admit it, connecting myself to the word fat in almost every sentence in this entry. in fact, i'm even prouder now that not only i admit it, i'm here to help 'my clan'. not that i'm trying to establish an identity for the fats and start a groupie of some sort here. i'm just here to help, just like wat jenne is doing.

oh boy oh boy.. seronoknya!

p/s : pls dont assume i'm exagerating abt my weight issue cos i seriously do have one. i'm not one of those yg ngada2 nak komplen abt that extra cm of flesh. i mean business and therefore i'm justified. (but i still i wont share my BMI and weight just to furnish my claim though.. thx)

paper chasing n me

i thought i wont blog for sometime till i really have something to blog about..
then i read pick yin's, and here i am

paper chasing. it is sick, really
back in uni years, i try not to believe that pro papers are essentials for accounting grads. in fact, i still believe so. pro papers (ACCA, CIMA, CPA) are ONLY for aspired accountants and nerds. those who wants to be accountant, will HAVE to have one of those papers. those who loves to study will always do. i think that's standard and i dont belong there.

but due to peer pressure (not mine, but papa's) i pursue CIMA. i must say i was veryvery reluctant at first. to start with, i dont like accounting, in fact i hate it. but i went for it 4 yrs ago for the 'free education' and the 'oversea' part, and that's another story. wat's the fun in seeing figures, classifying them into neat categories, debits, credits, understanding how they behave..blabla. pardon me all accounting scholars/academia, i think any other field would be more interesting.. anything, but this. .

anyhow, here i am somewhere in intermediate level of my CIMA paper. thanks to the pressure and the fact that dearest is also doing part time course (takleh tenet, baik aku study) i was a fool for a while. thinking that this will be a cool move (a denial really). so i BELONG. i'm an acc grad, pursuing my pro papers, just like almost all my other acc grad frens (sheesh i hate them). rasa bestla jugak. like i'm doing something, not JUST WORKING. making papa proud that he has a daughter like his frens. (and having something to do while dearest attend class..oh..pathetic!)

but i wasnt a fool for long (that feels great to type!)
thank God at least i'm not too numb (dumb) to blindly choose CPA since i'm an aussie grad or ACCA cos it's higher level (konon). i did some research. comparing between MBAs and pro paper, and between pros papers. i'm glad i arrive at CIMA and took the less travelled route of mgmt accounting. now i think instead of being a typical, i'm a nerd. i'm glad i decided to do it. Of course the paper would help in career advancement at some point, even in my future own business (amin) cos msia is a paperchasing nation, but that's not all. even if i didnt manage to see the end of this at least i know i'm bloody learning something.. and best thing is.. it's relavant to work..like WOW! no more studying meaningless texts. it's really learning.. it's as casual as reading magazines. now i understand why those brainies love studying so much.. it's their story book. (and i dont mean i've beocme one too)
some advert for CIMA. it's an interesting course which entails different aspect of business (acc/costing/law/IT/project/even psychology of mgmt). the texts are suitable for casual read, complete with bits of humour and some interesting case studies.
plus, i also learn true meaning of discipline, nothing like throwing the garbage when it's time, or waking up for classes by my own. it's high class time management.. haha.. balancing between job, social and the textbook. not taking any classes and not having anyone/frens to refer to for this course has made it more challenging. it's like all is up to me, me, me!
and me being me, i just love such empowerment..haha
well..it's a relief to know that i'm not in this for the end result, but really for the journey (do i sound not me?)

so, to postgraduate or not to postgraduate should really be a personal question, not to be confused with society's expectation. afterall we're all the same in His eyes and rezeki tu from Him, usaha is not just about getting another paper, right? tapi kalau pikir balik, there must be something in a huha to be a huha and from experience, it's worth to check it out.


p/s : this is dedicated to those ppl who did it for the sake of knowledge and not social standards (esp my dearest)
and to those interested in CIMA, jom ah ramai2.. mgmt acc is on the rise man! (no offence to ACCA, CPA and the likes holder/pursuer.. cos ur papers are equally respectable.. just that they dont do it for me.. hehe)

i'm back

in one piece

the trip went well , except for the JB experience. no offense to johoreans.. but i simply hate the capital la..
long story there and i dont think i want to go into it. basically my car got stucked in a banjir kilat and that caused a dent in my savings account at the moment. dahla dpt surat from jpj on my way to JB from kuantan (via segamat). it's the plate number.. they classified it as 'fancy' which really, i wasnt aware of pun..oh well.. nasib tak kena saman jelaaa..

smalam cuti, went to OU with dearest (he's also on leave).. kurasakan dunia ini kami yang punya!!
seriously, try loiterring in shopping complex on MONDAY.. (the fact that it's uniform day for my company makes this much much more interesting) .meant to buy papa's bday present. it's around the corner and mama dah plan a dinner at this fancy restaurant which papa just got to know and love so much. last year we had a massive bbq for close relatives at home. this yr it's gonna be different. papa had asked all his children to bring their partner to the dinner. and by partner, he meant bf/gf. that sends yeh, cho and abe anxious.
on the other hand, for some weird reason, dearest is soo looking fwd to buying the present.
the problem is i'm broke.. darn!

i'm thinking an album of me n papa from my babyyears to my grad day.
but that would automatically exclude dearest (we're thinking of getting something together)
and the album spells 'cheapskate' louder than 'thoughtfull' i guess..
so i'm thinking ice-cream cake and some funny boxers.. cos i know the old man loves them.. hehe

ideas?

round msia trip - part 2

this will be a quickie
at the office now, about to leave for the second part of the round msia trip
colleagues are not moving, still glued to the monitors.. i told them not to come to the office first, it'll be never ending i tell u..
aarrghhh.. nanti kalau lambat aku jugak tense on the road..

breathe in breathe out..
weekend was fun.. thx to girlfrens for the pig-out and gossip session.. and dearest for manymany things.

i'll see u guys thurs insyaAllah..
pray for my safe journey k?

round msia trip - almost part 2

i'm back
suppose to leave in 15 mins, got my bag packed and everything, thought nak singgah office to pick up some documents and just to leave late sikit, nak avoid the morning rush
but boss tukar plan... cheh.. hari tu dah ok kan the itenerary
now suruh tukar mcm2 pulak

anyway, be leaving again on monday
kl-kuantan-jb-melaka-pd-seremban-kl
my colleague, a mother of 3 tu dah buat muka dah
hari tu yg pegi 2 malam tu pun dia dah semacam.. homesick
the husband siap nangis2 before she left the other day.. awww...

all in all, trip was fun.. but hell tiring
i drove all the way.. which still amazed me.. esp the non-stop tapah-kangar route..
we had the best of penang, chow rasta (being that our appointment is in komtar itself) and gurney's drive food. we had the famous northern meehun sup. and we had dinner at the kedah stadium.. where dearest lepak with frens in his hometown. brought back some karas from kedah, jeruk from penang and guava from ipoh. the appointments went well.. a particular doctor of pejabat kesihatan perak really made my day. she's soooo baik and appreciative.. it made the travelling worthwhile.

after 3 days on the road, 2 nites in hotel room.. i can safely say that i'm not built for marketing n sales la. but i love the PR part.. it gives me good satisfaction knowing my clients are happy.

22 new emails and piles in the 'in' tray to clear..

round msia trip - part 1

i'm leaving tomorrow
on my round msia trip
boss revised plan.. after i counter proposed
so going to big cities, jumpa the directors je

so it's gonna be
kangar-alor setar-penang-ipoh-kl-kuantan-kl-johor-melaka-kl

wish me luck
and pray for a safe journey

i feel all grown up now..

soccer and sucker!

for the effort that i've put in since last yr, and the $$$ i help to reap for the co, boss have awarded me with something i think i'm going to remember for my entire career/professional life
an all paid-for road trip around peninsular malaysia with 2 'girls'
we're leaving next tuesday and the trip will take 11 days. it's my first outstation assignment. i'm suppose to meet all my clients, hand some brochures, hold some redundant casual conversations, my business card, and make an impression so much so that they'll remember me, and the company.

this is what they refer to as Customer Relationship Management.
so who's the driver? me
who's the navigator? me
who's going to do the talking? me
who's going to prepare the paperwork/letters/pamphlets?me
and whose car??? mine!!!
arrghh..
have i driven off-highway long distance before? barely
have my dear waja? no way
do we know the exact adresses? no
do we have a time constraint? yes
are we specialist in the product? hell no!

ok... i know this will sound soo mengada2. aku pun dah menyampah type. but tak kisahla.. tgh bengang tahap maksimum. boss suka buat mcm ni.. smua last minute and expect wonders. dahla tu, siap suruh jimat2.. hotel pun suruh share satu bilik, sebab tu hantar semua perempuan. journey pun suruh cepat2 takut rugi allowance outstation. kau hantar aku gi 100+ klinik2 kat ceruk2 tu, suruh dirve cepat2, jauh2..untuk senyumsenyumsalamsalam? hish.. kalau pasal customer, semua benda nak tiptop.. kalau pasal staff.. semua kena jimat. sayang company konon! company pun tak sayang kita.

first board companyla konon. blooming business. bright prospect. international tie. nation's pride. report kat klse juta2.
bonus? senyaaappp je... ee..jgn kutuk, periuk nasik aku, jgn kutuk... sayang company.. sayang..maybe over reaction je kot ni.. manja sgt. dah biasa dok dlm ofis aircond, tgk pc. suruh kluar sikit komplen (dlm blog je la)

mcm mana nak handle this. i'm having myriad of emotions. right now i'm excited, terrified, worried and exhausted.

anyway, semalam tgk bola best. abe tak pegi pun. frens yg patut nak jumpa and shout profanities together tak jumpa pun. but it was fine. best sgt actually. letih tetapi lega. hehe.. should do this more often. coupled with news of above assignment.. mmg i can turn into a typical fanatic malaysian football fan (jerit lebih dari coach/team manager, sign languages-jari tgh specifically, auto enrichment of profanities vocabulary-in different languages and dialect,

GE2004 and ida's do

Finally back to my normal life

Last week, while the Malaysians are busy discussing, reading, blogging, debating and joking about GE2004, my family and i was busy preparing for my cousin ida's wedding. Nonetheless, most of ppl involved went back to Kelantan just in time for voting, so dont blame/praise them for the state's election result. In fact, we watched the result announcement very closely throughout the nite together, and together means continuous phonecalls to and fro Kelantan as the master bedroom turns into bilik gerakan kelantan cawangan Subang jaya..
The atmosphere was overwhelming. All of us stayed up for the result (which only came through officially last nite, sadly). Bros were anxiously waiting for the holiday announcement. Dearest was also with us, feeling equally jittery about his homeground, Kedah's fate.

Anyway, that's done. I'm no politician but i'm weirdly looking fwd to the next GE lah. syioklah pulak.

Ok, the wedding. All went well with of course few glitches here and there, noticeable only by us, the organisers. the weather is not helping, so it was a typical wedding.. hot, hot, HOT. i took leave almost the whole week last week to help around ie do the hantarans, the bilik pengantin, siapkan the flower girls dresses and dressing them later, accompanying the bride on the day. was happy that my aunt and the family really appreciate my effort and hence promised the same for mine. As papa put it while carrying the periuk, tables and chairs.. "it's an investment"

so ida, my childhood girlfren is married. she was the one whom i shared all my weird conversation with. my first 'sex talk' at the tender age of 8 (yeah, i do start early) and my passion for 'ais krim payung' (it's home made red bean ice cream in a shape of an umbrella with tiny bits of red bean on top... and it only cost 5cents). this is another thing u get being Kelantanese (in my opinion), u're barely 24 and your peer cousins who used to bath naked with u once are either married or buncit with botol susu in one hand and payung (for anak bini) in the other hand.

that guy's parents was at the wedding. i didnt feel weird or concious around them anymore. they probably have known that i'm with someone else now.

dearest dah start badminton balik. to be back in shape. tak acilah macam ni. have to work something out jugaklah. dia kata kalau kawan2 main futsal campur2, then dia ajak.. but mampukah aku main futsal after sooooooo long meninggalkan all those team games. hahaha.. anyway, mlm ni tgk bola msia-korea.. it's been so bloody long jugak since my last live football match. guess the last was before fly.. tgk msia kena bash by ermm..i cant even remember.

RM50

yay! aku kaya!
got RM50 for some transcripting work i did for my fren over the weekend.
she's got some more coming..
should cover bday present cho.. i know i'm overdue

blablablahetztunangblabla

Boss dua-dua cuti.
Colleague yang patut replace boss, cuti.
Colleagues yang lain, dua orang cuti.
The sales team, semua keluar.
Yang tinggal, the clerk, colleague yang just tau main share je, and me.

Just wat i need to recover from my hectic weekend.

Anyway, congrats to hetz on her engagement yesterday, which went well as i assure
you look very princessy in pink!
may God bless you both..

waaa...tunangan orang dah kawan aku..eheheh

org kurus tak sedar diri! - part 2

futher to yesterday's entry, i found myself faced with the similar subject again during lunch (not a good time for it, issit?) today. but this time with colleagues who equally detest those sort of people. having 'curvy people' with minds of their own, and 'reactive' mouth to match, as colleagues is REALLY just wat i need sometimes. even the size M lot are agreeable on this. "kalau dah ok, syukur jelah..sebok je nak join complain!", funny enough the comment was directed to this skinny elderly never-married lady in the office (she wasnt present in the discussion of course). i can only smile. cos really, i can only afford to make such statement in my blog, or even just thoughts.
plain saint (konon) or just chicken?
wateva, it feels good to have ppl sharing my 'hatred'.
berat sama dipikul..
though i'm beginning to suspect colleagues have read my blog

i miss him la wei..
last saw him during cho's birthday dinner, which was not distant ago. but all we talk about was work, and exam, cos well.. parents are included in conversation you see. aaahh..miss him miss him. his exam will be over soon and he's skipping next semester for some reasons. i'm going to be spoilt. i will make sure i'll be spoilt. when he called early this morning for that brief 'hi, good morning'. i realised how i miss a long, deep, engaging conversation with him, well about nothing specific or important. that's it! talking about the unimportants, make me feel less adult, more in love. that's so much fun, just being lovers and plain oblivious. not a care about not having enough time to talk about things that matters, or things that deserve more of those scarce 'us' time. aku dah mengarut. well, anyway, i should be grateful cos this is a good thing. this craving. the sparks may have turned into small occasional flickers, and the butterflies in the stomach, they dont flutter that often anymore, but this craving is still here. i hope this is the same explanation for my parents endless brief calls and smses during the day when pa is in the office and ma at home. oh bless them!

oh well.. at least good to know me and him are mutual on our verbosity, at least in this case.. dunno about other cases though. ; )

dasar kurus tak sedar diri!

i HATE people who complain they're fat when they're not.
you can complain about anything you want.
it's your rights.
fine with me
but complaining about something that isnt there is something i cant accept.
especially when you toy around with the fact
especially when i'm battling a far worse senario than the one u created.
it's a stupid insensitive trend u know, these for-the-sake-of-it complaining

pardon me for being emotional but
i HATE it.
please, stop it.

even i cant believe i'm capable of such hatred

cho

the fren i was talking about last Monday called just now
he's organising a small gathering in mid valley
going through the list of names.. i feel the urge to go lah pulak
just realised i've not met them for quite some time..
maybe 7 yrs of time.. hehe

but i couldnt make it
cos tonite is my dearest bro, cho birthday..and we're having family dinner
he's 17 today! getting older, and even taller huh, that chipmunk.
as i'm aware that he, his brother, and their frens read this blog,
let me just make this one specially for him then

cho is my fav among the 3 guys
call me 'pilih kasih' but i've to admit it..
maybe sharing bed with him for 2-3 yrs, when we were small leave this impact on me. he's veryvery manja, though currently trying very hard to act like a tough cookie. it's not easy having hooligan yeh and papa's-mirror-image abe as his brothers. no matter how hard he tries, how serious he try to appear to us, how stern he is with zetty, or how tall and hairy he is now, he's still the little cho to me. face that 17..or 27.. u'll still be cho.. and ur opinion, no matter how adult it may sound.. will always be received with a smile, first. hehe, we're bad lot.

cho's very caring and affectionate. he always sits besides zetty, attending to her homework. he sings/plays songs for me. even through the internet when i was in aussie. and i heard he's a good sounding board, especially for the girls in his school. now that we're talking about girls....cho has loads of them around him. at least that's the impression i get from his phonebook, open house invites and frenster! and it's no wonder why, since he's blessed with the mancung-est nose of us all, eye lashes to die for (if u're a girl la..haha), a that cheeky meeky smile. and he's the tallest too.. enough to give him confidence to call me, whose height is considered above average for an asian girl, SIPENDEK!.. urrghh..

he's responsible, veryveryvery funny and witty, which i may conclude as a smart boy. and above all.. he's soooooo CUTE. he's naive, shy, gelabah and careless.. and that's CUTE. and ok, besides all these kiddish things i've been mentioning, yeah, he's a great companion. he listens to my problem, saying things that simply lighten my trouble moments. and we're such a cool musical duo.. hahhaha..

oh.. i'm so blessed to have (and toy) him around.

so my dear picho
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!
may u be blessed with a good wife and a good life. (i think that's complimentary..hehe)
all the best with ur SPM.. remember, i screw up my SPM to make urs look better.
have fun
and take care

love,
kak ying

p/s: now, i'm not expected to give any present am i?

blogging has its pros n cons
but between taking too much time off of work and justifying that my grammar is bullshit, i would indomitably defend that it made me aware of more stuff.

first things first, i became more aware of new words, cos i realised, while typing/blogging, my vocab is shamefully limited.
i begin questioning myself abt grammar. the tenses, singular n plural terms and spelling (?) and consult my immediate available referance points for help. though i may not have improved at all, at least i've come to realised that. and that's a start. (it's hard being a over confident narcissitic u know?)

i can also safely say that i am more aware of individual differences and that i've no right judging them based on no matter wat (esp their writings), though it's tempting to brand certain ppl an obvious aristocrat wannabe through their writings abt 'branded food n coffee', gadget this n gadget that.. oh yeah, klcc this n klcc that. afterall i read me and figure i'm sooo bloody full of myself sometimes too. so there u go, ppl are different. and i should respect that. and many ppl can make use of the expensive food & gadget reviews too right?

last, but not least (i wanna go back dah ni), blogging has always reminded me to count my lucky stars.
i whine and whine in my blog like there's no tomorrow. as though my small little problem will cause my life. while i know i have the rights to do so cos it's my life n my blog, i also realised (by reading others') that ppl around me go through worse things. i've been reading last week and maybe it was a really bias sample..but worse things happen .ppl divorcing/breaking up here and there, families falling apart, singletons mourning abt their singlehood. and i'm just here mourning abt not having enough money, not loosing any weight, not quite having it 'perfect' with dearest, occasional workload..
God, if i continue reading these sort of stories and compare with mine.. i think i might start to hate me. hehe

i'm going back now
back to my relatively perfect life.

did i just totally blew it or wat???
i just hate myself for these kind of thingslah

just now, this person from this company i've been dealing with was here for some discussion with boss
there was that guy (his the MD of the co), my sr gm, and a manager from another dept
i was just not in the mood to say hi and socialise with big shot
so i just avoided the bunch, literally hide behind my partition..went out, go to the toilet
then wham! i bumped into them in the aisle.
the MD said hi..
and all i could say is "oh hi!"
and off i went
there were at least 5 footsteps ahead before they resume their conversation
were they tailing my movement with disbelief?
were they thinking wat i think they were thinking?
SNOBISH BITCH
thing is i dont even know y i did that.. not wanting to disturb their discussion maybe..
things would be much better if i just
pause
ask "How are u Mr S? had ur lunch?"
or maybe some redundant stuff like "Heard the new allocation coming through? Guess we're ready for second phase?"
yeah, considering i'll be resuming another phase of project with this guy, i thought too little just now, and just walk pass like some important hot shot, with some other important place to be..
totally blew it!

today i received a pleasant, pleasant surprise in a form of a phone call from a long lost friend
the last time we saw each other was way back in melaka, on our spm result day which was in 1997 (God i'm old!)
i remembered we were making jokes about me doing accounting and him venturing into medicine course while looking at our spm results (it was a joke back then u see, me doing accounting course.. ironic..haha) and i think that was probably the last thing we talked/laughed about

he sounds different, very.. mature. i swear i wont recognise him if he didnt introduced himself as my ex-HUSBAND. it's amazing how we settled into catching up mode so easily after that introduction. he is warm, as he used to be. very comfortably and conveniently warm. as we talked i recall our series of love letters, our 'small little family', the occasional flirting, the song dedications.. hahaha.. then the jealousy, and the end of it all.

it's good to hear from him after 7 yrs. and he hinted that i'll be hearing from him again soon for the 'nasi minyak invitation' . i'm simply happy for him (in fact ecstatic as if i'm hearing it from my bestest of frens)

i guess it doesnt need a real relationship or the best of friendship to etch a memory as significant and as good as this. we were not having anything emotional going on. while we were not enemies, we were not confidants either. heh, we were not even classmates, so that discount a whole lot of hours spent together. but those brief encounters at the locker area, or the walk to the dining hall after prep classes and those msgs and letters conveyed through our juniors. yeah, it must be those letters! those were the things that help build this memory. in fact, the letters helped me, in a way or two, went through the turmoil in that school at that time. they made me feel good and worthy.

so, maybe this is not a real relationship or the best of friendship to etch a memory as significant and as good as this, but who can forget an imaginary husband huh?
and for that i thank u my friend, for giving me this nice warm memory, and not freak out/embarassed to call me some yrs later to remind me abt it. thanks man. i honour u with this entry. may God bless u always.

as expected, i'm already bored with my new layout
something not right somewhere.. things are just too.. ermm.. bland

well, anyway, i sprained my neck
i dunno when it happened exactly. first it started with this uncomfy feeling..before i know it, i cant turn my head to the left, right, up and down.i cant even lift up my hand and opening my mouth is a serious torture. so i was on mc yesterday, and literally bedridden the whole day.so much pain it was, but it's funny at the same time too.. weird how my situation reminded almost everyone whose aware of this malay film back in the 80's where this woman accidentally swallowed a whole corn cob.
(yeah, i was waering that neck support..and with my heavy cheek..it's ghastly i tell u!)

i'm officially broke this month. spend almost all my paycheck already..and tomorrow, insyaAllah, i'm going for another round of shopping with some immediate frens (immediate frens = a term we use for veryvery close frens whom u'll invite to ur tunang/akad nikah, even tho the ceremony is for relatives only)
and there's bday lunch for our very own ms perfect (really, perfect!)
good company, good food, good bargain..
not going to miss this one..

have a nice weekend ppl!

happiness is infectious
my colleague turn up at the office today as bright and happy as can be
greeted me in an exceptionally higher pitch
and yeah, she made me smile..
cant help but feeling the same way.. though it's really about nothing but just her



little perks in life..
and ms p has finally arrived after 46 days.. fuhhh...

day 2 - part 2

this is getting impossible.. i'm beginning to loose sight of the actual cause of this arrangement
focus ying... focus...
remember wat made u come here
remember why u are here
remember wat u have done to avoid coming here in the first place
remember wat happened after all your attempts
remember u a year back
remember how u feel a yr back
read all ur archieve
see all ur pics

remember your 23rd birthday
remember the ring

i cant remember anymore..

day 2

things are not exactly peachy and rosey but i slept well last nite
woke up only about 4-5 times..

feeling empty and numb at the moment
not sure if i was happy or feeling lousy abt coming to work today
everything seems to settle in the background for a while
another week of work
aiming for 2 chapters to finish by end of this week

this morning i wake up exceptionally early
in my prayers, i asked for a sign
a sign to help me think objectively, to steer away unnecessary thought and concentrate on wat matters
to know if this is just of my own creation or it is a true huge problem
and just now, i came across this now i'm juggling if this is a true co-incident or the sign..

Sometimes, it is easy to lose sight of oneself especially when the world does not give you a lot of encouragement to go through life alone. People are always throwing parties to celebrate couple love. From Valentine's Day to weddings to anniversaries, a girl has every reason to find a partner and very little cause to remain single. As such, we hang on to our couplehood for as long as we can take it, until perhaps one finds another (how many girls you know jump from one boat to another without ever getting their feet wet?), or worse, until the abuse becomes physical.

The next time you carry the cross of love, ask yourself one very simple question: is the suffering only an exception, or has it become the norm? It is one thing to go through a rough patch together, and quite another to go through it yourself.

Just make sure you know the difference.

day 1

i dont even know if i can survive today
i'm officially G.O.N.E
tonight, i think i'll just cry myself to sleep
aahh.. just the thought of it lighten things up a little..
remember ying, this is wat u want (and this little kid on the left says it all..)
goodnite dear
hope u have a pleasant one

there's this senior lady in my office whom at first, i thought, was a nuisance. but she turn out ok, well, maybe a total opposite. she's a super dedicated staff and a frenly colleague too. and she constantly stops by for a little chat. but not today. today it was a total bitching session (which i hesitate to participate, u never know really) about the mgmt. u see, the mgmt here is very much screwed up. like in most companies. but really, the thing that gets on our nerve here is not a thing, it's not a system, it's not some stupid company policy. it's not a thing in fact. it's a group of high profile ppl, they wish! the lady was shaking when she was going on and on about this is stupid, that is stupid. she was totally demotivated, and i can understand why. towards the end, she even held my hand and her eyes went watery. yes, very dramatic for an office scene. but i pity her. i pat her back and told her to take it easy.
i'm getting the hang of things around here.

i dont even know y i'm documenting it here.. maybe cos it's part of my life now.. a huge part.

finally, finally..
a new layout for my bored eyes
cant resist the kiddos.. cute huh?

haaaaaahhh... happy happy happy!
so very puas hati

i sound too happy for the first working day of the week

i'm proud to announce that i'm, yet again, enjoying a meaningful and guilt-free relationship with food now. i had dim sum buffet lunch just now and maaaan.. was that great or wat?? colleagues are left with much satisfaction too - from the amt of food, and witnessing Nik in her true, uninhibited (feeding) nature (/capacity). finally eh?

ok, i'm definitely fasting tomorrow..

mama n papa are away on their annual honeymoon. ok i lied. but annual sounds sooo unrealistically romantic to not use huh? this time Bali. and it was a 'quickie' (i'm talking bout the trip) since papa wrongly booked for feb instead of march when they can enjoy an extended stay. oh well, but both were too merrily packing away to even care, leaving me (nasib baik with some $$) and the chipmunks to take care. dont mind really. irritating zetty is so much fun these days.

oh, mama's gonna get some wedding stuff, since it's cheap over there. when, where, wat and who's wedding is not yet determined. speaking of which, i've managed to finished around 100 boxes for ida's wed (while watching Nemo, Beauty and the Beast and Harry Potter 1 - babysitting is not as bad with the creation of DVDs)

and i've bought cloth for some new baju kurung. a pink one and err another pink one. but think i'll have to go get some more since mama said we're going with a color theme (which was yellow/beige) pulak for the wedding. y cant she just say so when i ask her BEFORE i bought the cloth. one pair of shoes for work. books for both of this semesters subjects. and a pair of blue jeans (bf helped choose the color, he thinks it's a 'ranggi' color). think i'm getting another pair of shoes and a pair of sandals soon. and soon after maybe another pair of jeans. and oh, finish SEWING the tops so i can buy more cloth to sew more tops for myself. so it's true when they say the ultimate person who can solve all your problem is yourself.. heheh.

and the buffet was cheap too!

ying have no mood nowadays
ying is switching from too busy with work to too busy netsurfing too often
ying needs a new look
as if that would help

wat have i done wrong? i've halved my lunch and dinner. concentrating on protein, minimising carbs, lotsa H20. went jogging/walking twice a week, do weight at home (as how my late coach has thought me to do), i'm taking that traditional medicine which done wonders to my body, feel rejuvenated...and it's been 3 weeks already.
but, i'm not loosing any weight. in fact i'm gaining!!
i dont care if i'm not loosing but i feel/am healthy. point is who am i kidding here. anyone with my bodystat is too far from being healthy. i'm not even comfy in my own body now. i feel restricted. some movement hurts. to think that i was that person who enjoys jogging, swimming, netballing, squashing and everything else not a long while ago. now i just cant afford too.. it's too painful to me, physically, and emotionally.
wat happened to me?????

it doesnt help bf is merrily gaining too, esp around the middle region.. but that's another story.

i dont need ppl telling me boleh, cos that i know. tell me how, walk with me, see through it with me. pls i beg. help! help! help! dont just stay there and belittle me some more hoping that ur reverse-psycho will finally work on me. i'm a strong person i know, i did it once, i can do it again. but help me pls. dont make me sound like i'm all excuse. cos i race to go back home early from work to have enough time for my work out. cos i sacrifice the ectra time of sleep so that i can get up, make my bed and do some stretches. cos i endure million times of visit to the toilet to detox myself. cos i calculate everything i eat. cos i know how much i'm burning when i lie instead of sit and hence it's not a crime to lie instead of sit.

oo no.. this is eating me up. i see my frens i feel inferior. i see my colleagues i feel inferior. i look at the mirror, i actually hate wat i see. i tried to bersyukur, at least i have a complete physical. and i have a guy that loves me, despite all the excess weight. i've a job turning into a career. i've frens n ppl saying i'm a nice person. and from my 2 days course earlier this week, i learn that i gave ppl veryvery good first impression-something which i never expect. and it takes a lot of confidence and self-love to realize all this - cos some need frens to count their lucky stars. but the moment i opened my wardrobe, or sit at the dining table, open a mag, or even meet an average weighing person, in a snap, everything just collapse. i feel weak.

is everything falling apart or am i only concentrating on stupid stuff here. hmm.. even Ms P forgot to visit me promptly this mth.

it was valentine
i stayed at home with my bros watching discovery, travel & adventure, mtv, cartoon network and some dvds during the day. finished 30 boxes of ida's wedding souvenir.

come pm, one by one left the house..
parents are already away with the little one and bibik..
bf.. naturally with classes till late nite.
in other words i was left alone at home on valentine. called hetz for help.
was lucky i still have some gfs to have a decent nite with the girls. and they too, dont give a damn abt valentines, or maybe they do but was unfortunate this yr.
so the expecting alynn, lish n hetz accompanied me.
boring lonely night turned into a delightful cook out (i forgot how i love a kitchen all to myself), dinner and chats

i guess it's the first valentines celebration for me and it was perfect.

oooooo..shit!
i forgot..
i think my 'i-wont-fall-for-the-Vday-commercialism' mindset has gone a bit too far..
i totally forgot abt Vday, well that does not matter now that i has set my mind to not celebrating it..
but forgeting the whole thing is a bit too much
esp when i have a special one to at least 'mention' abt valentines day to.
this makes me feel so un-girl.
how can i ever be a good gf with this un-girl feeling/attitude.
hah.. gilerwatever!

i'm in love with yellow bmw. i saw one this morning.. sheesh.. lawa, cute, cool giler..
and the owner HAS to be that lady i admire so much.. beautiful, smart, funny, softspoken and genuinely kind.
darn darn darn..
i hate being jealous to a nice innocent person like that!

i'm in a lousy mood offlate.
malas to update

-tgh buat souvenir for ida's wedding. abt 1000+ to prepare and i'm working on it bit by bit, with help of few others during weekend. mama n aunt prepare the room, flower girls and the dulangs.

-got white rose from him. white. never realised how pretty white rose can be.

-not celebrating valentine's

-didnt buy valentine's card yet.. hehe

-managed to keep dinner 'minimal'

-on jamu nowadays!! haha!

-jog, squash and weight train each once a week

-havent lost any weight yet

-starting a new pastime activity : sewing

have a good weekend ppl.. it's a full fat week next week.. (dont u just hate the aftermath of long weekends/hols???)

a week.
so much to say on the last day of the mth. and so much to do before another long weekend.
i'm taking tuesday off, to finish off my carry fwd leave. thurs cuti lagi..

i passed my first CIMA paper!!
thank God! i was tossing n turning in bed last night thinking about it.. i was veryvery confident that i'm not gonna make the mark this time. and i'm not pulling one of those typical - ckp fail, alih2 score.. well, at least i didnt score.. just managed more like it. i was prepared for the failure. but last nite it suddenly dawn on me that if i were to fail this paper, not only i waste the exam fees and the full annual subsrciption fees (even though i start in second sem-mid yr), but i'm just back to square one. as good as those who decided not to start their courses as yet, to 'enjoy life'. life less enjoyed (as if!) and money wasted, time gone, fights with bf.. and a failure.. that made me sleepless last nite.
either that or that exxxtra creamy marinara pasta i had last nite.
God that was sinful!! i'm still thinking abt it now.. 2 weeks going on with 'minimal dinner' then suddenly that creamy pasta, full portion, so creamy even i say it's very creamy. ; )

on a more serious note
my car was hit by a bike yesterday. was a quick encounter, was in a queue at the subang-sunway roundabout and suddenly BANG!! that guy bangun, marah2 the car behind him, pick his bike, and went. the car behind changed lane and dissapeared in the massive jam at the roundabout. till now i'm still thinking how the hell he did that. that was the most skillfull hit n run ever lah. so i was left there, shaky, not knowing wat's the damage, on the phone with my dad. i was shaky and he was nagging and scolding. it's not my fault that i took that route! i was hit anyway. something happen to me. i didnt participate in anything. i'm the victim here.. hello...geramla jugak..
but knowing him too well.. it seems funny pulak.

well.. now that i'm writing abt this, just 2 weeks ago, my car was scratched - by a fruitstall nyonya!! arrgrhhh!!! i was in bangsar with jazmi on that sunday. we parked just after devi's corner and proceed to burger king. it was 3 then. a couple of hours later, we went back to get the car only to find RIGHT SMACK IN THE MIDDLE OF A PASAR MALAM!! Geramnyaa.. i was nervous as we approach my car. Like how would i be able to tell which pasar malam is set where on wat day??? and there were NO signboard anyway. a first glimpse of my car, i cried. there were boxes of mandarin oranges on the roof and there's this cute little digital weighing machine on the bonet, cute but enough to leave markings and scratches so deep that only a paint job can remedy.

well.. 2 weeks earlier.. yeh borrowed the car to bangsar (i've blacklisted bangsar till i'm emotionally stable to go there again) got in a fight with mat rempit which seems to have ability to multiply his followers within minutes of the accident. according to yeh he was the one who 'cilok-cilok' and hit yeh but to save face, he picked himself up and went to yeh and blame him for his lack of skill. he held yeh by the collar and keep on warning him not to menunjuk2. a snobbish little boy in a waja. well..cut things short, after drinks with frens yeh went back to a scratched and dented car with little f-word written all over the car - yeah, the owner tend to collect dust from time to time.

i think i shouldnt continue with all these reverse chronology. suffice to say, i spend a lot on other ppl's shit.

oh well..
mama's blood pressure has been going down since her visit to sjmc the other day. she's on medicine and leading a happier and quieter life. we're told not to mess with her, be it an extremely good news or something that is bound to irritate her. we're in 'kesederhanaan' now..and i've to use that word. i'm not to go for movies at nite. i'm back to being 12, (to think that it's half my age!) filling in details of my outing and waiting anxiously for the approval.
but i guess i'm fine like that.. as long as she's ok. afterall i guess(/hope) my bf wont dump me cos i cant go for movies at nite-which too-bad is the only time he's available for movies. and missing one or two outing with frens wont leave me as sore as i used to be. is that a sign of O.L.D?? anyway, thx lish and hetz for last nite. rasa VIP pulak.. haha..

ok.. have to go. going to call and book moviesss for the weekend. he's on holiday, so am i. all classes cancelled. no way we're gonna miss daytime movies given rare chance like this.. ehehe

if u dont see me around. Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone..

-my car suffer minimal injury, scratches and ekzos bengkok. and that pasar malam incident, we stayed in bangsar till 12 pm to get the car out, it was a veryvery long unneccesary moment for reflection for both of us.. hehe.. so ppl, avoid that spot on sunday.

so, end of part one
the merisik went smooth
che long, ayah din and ida came to help and support. oh, i called hetz at the last hour, to "just check if she'd like to come and witness the whole thing".. hehe, ok, i was freaking out!!

i can always trust my parents for small talks and little jokes here n there. that went smooth untill ida alerted that the mom is going to meet me in the room. suddenly rasa mcm cuak.. wat have i got myself into?? ahahha..yes, we had that 'anak dara sitting in the room looking pretty' ordeal.. and i was nervous and sleepy through it. the mom did sarungkan the cincin. and she did ask THE question. thank God hetz was nowhere visible (ie directly besides me) ..hehe..the family is great. i feel at ease compared to the first time meeting them. talked a lot only to the sister. i was quiet most of the time, or maybe, all the time throughout the event. the mom did give me a shock la, i didnt know she can talk that much. perhaps out of nervousness. the guys, my dad, his, the bros, and the cute bro in law (hetz, he's obviously taken) really had some conversation going on. oh, the bro immediately after him look exactly like him.. well, maybe 15kg lighter.. freaky..

all in all, everything went smooth, though a little too formal than expected. i really think we should do without the sarungkan ceremony and THE question..arrghh..malunya kalau ingat balik!!
i met him afterward, and trust me, it felt a bit different. i was shy-ish with him..hahah.. but that doest last long.. hehe

so, thanks to everybody, esp those kind words. thx hetz, for the last minute arrangement. thx papa, mama, yeh n cho for doing the shopping around, abe for the ONLY three pics of the ceremony, zetty for behaving, and ok bibik..for lots of stuff. thx dear for the lord of the rings- first installment.. heheh..

woooohooo... found it, found it..!!
i cant wait to go back and march to my parents and present them this fact
i knew i was right..
i knew they were just picking facts from air when they say it..
seriously, it does not make much difference if i were to sit upright or lie down when i'm on the phone or watching tv. it's just 6 cals/hr for God sake!
now tell me u just hate seeing me having good comfy time on my back, cos i know i look triple my size like that.
oh well.. i've got the facts.. i've got the figures!!

my nose ticks
do u know that? my nose ticks..
whenever i pat a finger on it, it'll make sound like a ticking clock. (i'm doing it now just to check)
and this is no news to some of my frens. in fact i've got one guy calling me the ticking-nose. oh well.. wat's so great about that. well, last nite, when i was watching ripley's believe it or not, i showed my bro, yeh, my believe-it-or-not ability. he shrugged me off - obviously wasnt impressed - and mocked me. i was irritated (that's natural when i'm around my bros). i was convinced he was using his 'nasal fluid' to produce the sound.. which sound, irritatingly similar to my ticks, in fact, louder. but i was wrong. i was wrong. it was no trick. his nose ticks too!! proudly both of us showed zetty our newfound unique similarity. she tried to no avail. next mama, nope. not working. have yet to check papa and the rest..
this is freaky..
y is his louder.. hmm..

it's 2 days till the CNY event. i'm a bit jittery.
papa and dearest had a talk. papa asked him about his decision, told him abt his responsibility, shared with him about their hardship when they first got married 24 yrs ago, about the Niks clan (even i need explanation on this one), about his role between his mom and me (as his wife later, insyaAllah) and last but not least, office matters.. ehehe. mama was suppose to join but down with illness that nite. her BP is on the higher end. it needs no telling that she's been working too hard. juggling a blooming trading business and a huge and spoilt family at once. i wish i could help but it's hard when she always prefer to do stuff on her own. she'll have bibik cut everything but she has to be the one who fries them, in the correct sequence, so that all of the dishes will arrive at the table with correct temp. she maintains her own book keeping be it for the hsehold or her business. she does them all with this particular sense of exclusivity. but she's well now. met her by the lake this morning, just came back from jogging wearing a huge grin. i've noticed that ever since she came back from the clinic, she's exceptionally cheery. perhaps the doc told her to be happier, sink in the spirit of the kids. she watched 'senario' with us and laugh at all the unintelligent jokes willingly yesterday.

i've also been meaning to blog about the departure of the 10 yr-old Nurul Huda, but i guess it's worth no further mention if no action is taken. for the family, i share your grief. may God bless her soul. when things like this happens, i cant help looking in the direction of my 9 yr-old zetty. i pity her. my parents was left with no choice but to tell her abt the danger she's risking out there. the safety measures. the never-alone policy. she clasped our hands tighter when we're outside now. i pity her. to be living in insecurity and suspicion at such tender age. to understand that human can hurt them as bad even if they were just cycling around, just being kids. see.. i'm emotional about this already. enuff said.

anyway, Happy Chinese New Year to all..
may it be a properous and joyous one.
may the event run smooth.
may all of us live happily ever after.

ok
today i realised that good news are meant to be shared.
and tak elok sorok2 benda baik pun.
and thus, this is not a mere publicity, or just another piece of entry to spice up the chapters of this boring ying.blogspot

his family will be visiting this CNY
for those not familiar with the 'adat merisik', dont worry, u're not the only one..
and yes, it's still being practiced by many, including my dearest's family.
hence the search for the lord of the rings recently. initially was shocked that they actually going to get me a ring (told u i'm clueless about this adat), then i was terrified that they wont be able to get it since, well, i'm in special size category but soon enough i'm beginning to appreciate the fact that i, for the first time ever, will own a ring.
(and there were no resizing or special order required - they have it in my size!!)

more than anything, beyond the ring really, it marks the beginning of a lot of things.
i'm simply so, so happy about it. ni baru merisik, if kawin, waa... cant imagine..
it feels weird though. it feels different now that we're reaching this stage. something i wish to share but dont have words for it. apa2 pun it feels good.

maybe this is an infant step in the whole big official process, esp not having specific dates for the stages to follow ..
but it's sure a huge one for me.

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