and here's the reason why
Thursday, October 04, 2007
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Back in front of the idiot
Hi. Am now back at work, staring at this pc, trying to and pretending to look like doing work.
Leaving Amir behind is soooo susah. But at least i'm leaving him with mama, in the comfort of her hse, with Zetty to hold him constantly. But I miss him no doubt. Whenever ppl ask me about him, i'll show them his pic on my mobile. Then i'll spend another hour going thru his picssss on my mobile repeatedly, untill someone drop by my desk and ask about him again :)
The toughest part about coming back to work must be all the ppl asking if i breastfeed or not. I still dont know how to answer that actually although the answer is "No and i'm not proud of it". Because with 'no', comes 'why', with 'i tried', comes 'then wat happened?' with 'yes' (which i havent use), surely comes 'bagusla..bestkan..alhamdulillah..' all those which make me feel guilty for not joining the club and lying abt it in the first place. Wateva it is i'm glad i'm out of my blues to be in this frame of mind and not be depressed about it.
Well, anyway, Amir is growing up fine. In fact he's quite big comparative to other babies his age. And he hasnt been sickly ever since he was born, so i guess the milk he's taking pun not that bad at all.. hope it stays this waylah. The next step is to watch over his progress, in case he gets too big. Cos it's in his gene anyway..
We've also moved hse recently. The house is great and i instantly felt at home the moment we move in. It better be great since it has eaten up all my savings, my employees share scheme proceed, my bonus and ex gratia pay, my increment, my credit card credit balance...
We got it painted exactly how i want it.. well though the green in one of the rooms turned to be 'a bit' flourescent-ish. I got my kitchen, the design n equipment as i wished. So no more excuse, mmg kena masak from now on. It's weird u know, having and staying in ur own house.. me and Jazmi, rasa mcm falling in love all over again.. well.. very hunky dory untill Amir starts wailing for milk, amplified by the half empty house.
Leaving Amir behind is soooo susah. But at least i'm leaving him with mama, in the comfort of her hse, with Zetty to hold him constantly. But I miss him no doubt. Whenever ppl ask me about him, i'll show them his pic on my mobile. Then i'll spend another hour going thru his picssss on my mobile repeatedly, untill someone drop by my desk and ask about him again :)
The toughest part about coming back to work must be all the ppl asking if i breastfeed or not. I still dont know how to answer that actually although the answer is "No and i'm not proud of it". Because with 'no', comes 'why', with 'i tried', comes 'then wat happened?' with 'yes' (which i havent use), surely comes 'bagusla..bestkan..alhamdulillah..' all those which make me feel guilty for not joining the club and lying abt it in the first place. Wateva it is i'm glad i'm out of my blues to be in this frame of mind and not be depressed about it.
Well, anyway, Amir is growing up fine. In fact he's quite big comparative to other babies his age. And he hasnt been sickly ever since he was born, so i guess the milk he's taking pun not that bad at all.. hope it stays this waylah. The next step is to watch over his progress, in case he gets too big. Cos it's in his gene anyway..
We've also moved hse recently. The house is great and i instantly felt at home the moment we move in. It better be great since it has eaten up all my savings, my employees share scheme proceed, my bonus and ex gratia pay, my increment, my credit card credit balance...
We got it painted exactly how i want it.. well though the green in one of the rooms turned to be 'a bit' flourescent-ish. I got my kitchen, the design n equipment as i wished. So no more excuse, mmg kena masak from now on. It's weird u know, having and staying in ur own house.. me and Jazmi, rasa mcm falling in love all over again.. well.. very hunky dory untill Amir starts wailing for milk, amplified by the half empty house.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Seeing double
Rozi, my cousin Jo's wife, delivered two days ago and now she's here, joining the confinement club. : ) How cool is that?? Having a buddy to go through this agony? Takdelah agony sangat, but it's still cool to have someone going through exactly what i'm going through at the moment. Although i must say, i pity her cos she went for ceasarian, which means she's in worst condition especially given that i'm already 2 weeks ahead of her. Looking at her made me really count my lucky stars la for not having to go through that procedure..and the healing process that sucks after that.
Anyway, the little one, named Nik Airil is a very handsome little thing. Hidung mancung, japanese eyes, and small thin lips.. He's heaps different when put next to Amir.. although Amir is handsome in his own way too ;)
The person who is most overwhelmed by this arrival is of course Mama. She's been upgraded from a nurse to a matron now, since she has two babies and two 'ibu berpantang' to handle. And she's doing really really well... i thought there's nothing more tiring than being a mother.. but she proves me wrong, cos wat she's handling now is simply out of this world.
Another interesting dynamic in the house is the daddies.. While i'm not trying to mengumpat anyone, my cousin, the new father of two now gave me another reason to be really gratefull for what i have, ie my husband, that particular one. It's one thing seeing them attending to their sons together, holding them so very carefully (ie awkwardly), comparing their features, level of noise, milk consumptions blablabla.. but it's another things realising how different they attend to the moms too. i'm just happy jazmi is not hooked on playstation, does not wait till second child to learn daddy stuff n understand that hanging around close to us is already a moral support on its own.
Anyway, the little one, named Nik Airil is a very handsome little thing. Hidung mancung, japanese eyes, and small thin lips.. He's heaps different when put next to Amir.. although Amir is handsome in his own way too ;)
The person who is most overwhelmed by this arrival is of course Mama. She's been upgraded from a nurse to a matron now, since she has two babies and two 'ibu berpantang' to handle. And she's doing really really well... i thought there's nothing more tiring than being a mother.. but she proves me wrong, cos wat she's handling now is simply out of this world.
Another interesting dynamic in the house is the daddies.. While i'm not trying to mengumpat anyone, my cousin, the new father of two now gave me another reason to be really gratefull for what i have, ie my husband, that particular one. It's one thing seeing them attending to their sons together, holding them so very carefully (ie awkwardly), comparing their features, level of noise, milk consumptions blablabla.. but it's another things realising how different they attend to the moms too. i'm just happy jazmi is not hooked on playstation, does not wait till second child to learn daddy stuff n understand that hanging around close to us is already a moral support on its own.
Thursday, August 09, 2007
A whole new world
Hi world,
Yeah, i decided to blog again. My life has turned out to be more exciting now so that's why.
I'm now a mother of a chubby little boy. Gave birth to him on 23 July 2007, 9pm at UMSC.
Am now at parents house for my confinement (read : house arrest).
Many things has happened since the little one, Amir Yusoff arrived. In fact, since he was conceived, there were many things i wanted to blog about but never got around to do it.
During that 9 months period, lying on my bed berkemban with aircond full blast right after returning from work seems like the best thing on earth. Plus i got hooked on solitaire on Jazmi's pda. That was way better than blogging, which i just cant seem to agree now.
Well, Amir Yusoff. We chose the name well in advance. I really liked the name "Amir" no matter how common and how ordinary it may sound. My cousin in Kelantan was amazed that we chose that name since according to him 'Kak Ying kan org moden, mesti nama anak jenis glamer2'..hmm.. Well anyway, I was carrying Amir while on this leadership program, so he had to go through a lot with me then, hence 'Amir' (ie leader/king/head) and Yusoff is his great granpa's name, a way to win papa's heart (now a.k.a Tok Pa), although he already melted when he first saw his first grankid.... (spoil brat alert!)
Amir's a gem. He eats A LOT. But he wont breastfeed cos mama got some 'equipment issues'.. wont elaborate just yetlah. Been turning to Hetz (who is also a mom now!) and few other moms to gain support. One of the suggestion, quite unanimous one, was to talk about it as much as i want to, just to avoid depression. Well.. here I am.
Before i wrote this entry i spent few hours reading some of the old posts.. till way back to 2002.
Wow.. from an oversea student desperate for love (muahahaha), to a new exec eager to settle down (pathetic man), to a typical employee bitching abt work and ppl at work, then a wife..
and now a mom..
All I have to say is.. thanks a lot to the person who invented blogs and thank you Blogger for keeping it alive and free : )
Yeah, i decided to blog again. My life has turned out to be more exciting now so that's why.
I'm now a mother of a chubby little boy. Gave birth to him on 23 July 2007, 9pm at UMSC.
Am now at parents house for my confinement (read : house arrest).
Many things has happened since the little one, Amir Yusoff arrived. In fact, since he was conceived, there were many things i wanted to blog about but never got around to do it.
During that 9 months period, lying on my bed berkemban with aircond full blast right after returning from work seems like the best thing on earth. Plus i got hooked on solitaire on Jazmi's pda. That was way better than blogging, which i just cant seem to agree now.
Well, Amir Yusoff. We chose the name well in advance. I really liked the name "Amir" no matter how common and how ordinary it may sound. My cousin in Kelantan was amazed that we chose that name since according to him 'Kak Ying kan org moden, mesti nama anak jenis glamer2'..hmm.. Well anyway, I was carrying Amir while on this leadership program, so he had to go through a lot with me then, hence 'Amir' (ie leader/king/head) and Yusoff is his great granpa's name, a way to win papa's heart (now a.k.a Tok Pa), although he already melted when he first saw his first grankid.... (spoil brat alert!)
Amir's a gem. He eats A LOT. But he wont breastfeed cos mama got some 'equipment issues'.. wont elaborate just yetlah. Been turning to Hetz (who is also a mom now!) and few other moms to gain support. One of the suggestion, quite unanimous one, was to talk about it as much as i want to, just to avoid depression. Well.. here I am.
Before i wrote this entry i spent few hours reading some of the old posts.. till way back to 2002.
Wow.. from an oversea student desperate for love (muahahaha), to a new exec eager to settle down (pathetic man), to a typical employee bitching abt work and ppl at work, then a wife..
and now a mom..
All I have to say is.. thanks a lot to the person who invented blogs and thank you Blogger for keeping it alive and free : )
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
I've escaped safe and sane..
No excuse, didnt think of giving one either.. basically I just dont feel like blogging in a loooong while..
The reason I'm here? Cos i need to create a live update of my daily work life - a log book of my 8 hrs of professional life. What better way to do it then blogger.com.
So here I am, another blog up, another committment to fulfill (and conveniently forget..haha)
Well.. new stuff
1. I started teaching tution to primary school students on independent arrangement - although that sounds cool, i only have 2 students currently.. so there's now whooaaa factor there yetlah.. even in the $$ ..haha
2. I joined a new MLM business. The business itself is not new, but the mktg plan is slightly different, and more flexible.. so again, where there is flexibility, there's always a chance for slacking and hence, while the $$ is consistently flowing in, the rate of it , is nothing to shout aboutlah.
3. I left my old company, well not really left, but I joined a leadership training program which gives me the luxury of being attached to 3 different companies within this group for 18 mths. In other words, I'm out of there and the absurdity surrounding it. It's suppose to be an exclusive program that provides us platform to be exposed to mgmt level stuff, mingle with important ppl, doing important things, attending expensive trainings..hence preparing us to be the next generation of leaders, particularly in this grouplah. It always feel good when i'm reminded of this program aspiration (refer last sentence) cos for me, as cocky as it may sound, it's really just a change i need ... oh well, dah 2 weeks start, and i'm loving it.. well, except for the logbook part.. so malas..
4. Got a new toy. A great bargain on Motorola v3x in SHOCKING PINK!!.. Thanks sayang!
5. Yeh is now in aussie, in my uni kesayangan, staying just across the road from where i used to blog.. how i wish..hmm...
Dah.. malas dah..
Sambung later2..
The reason I'm here? Cos i need to create a live update of my daily work life - a log book of my 8 hrs of professional life. What better way to do it then blogger.com.
So here I am, another blog up, another committment to fulfill (and conveniently forget..haha)
Well.. new stuff
1. I started teaching tution to primary school students on independent arrangement - although that sounds cool, i only have 2 students currently.. so there's now whooaaa factor there yetlah.. even in the $$ ..haha
2. I joined a new MLM business. The business itself is not new, but the mktg plan is slightly different, and more flexible.. so again, where there is flexibility, there's always a chance for slacking and hence, while the $$ is consistently flowing in, the rate of it , is nothing to shout aboutlah.
3. I left my old company, well not really left, but I joined a leadership training program which gives me the luxury of being attached to 3 different companies within this group for 18 mths. In other words, I'm out of there and the absurdity surrounding it. It's suppose to be an exclusive program that provides us platform to be exposed to mgmt level stuff, mingle with important ppl, doing important things, attending expensive trainings..hence preparing us to be the next generation of leaders, particularly in this grouplah. It always feel good when i'm reminded of this program aspiration (refer last sentence) cos for me, as cocky as it may sound, it's really just a change i need ... oh well, dah 2 weeks start, and i'm loving it.. well, except for the logbook part.. so malas..
4. Got a new toy. A great bargain on Motorola v3x in SHOCKING PINK!!.. Thanks sayang!
5. Yeh is now in aussie, in my uni kesayangan, staying just across the road from where i used to blog.. how i wish..hmm...
Dah.. malas dah..
Sambung later2..
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