Selamat Hari Raya to all!!!
I'm back from Kota Bharu.. earlier than scheduled cos papa decided so.. ehehe
well raya this year is expectedly so un-meriah. partly because my uncle whose house we stayed in is away in Mekah and my granma is semi bedridden. malam raya pun sunyi sgt, me n brothers tgk tv, papa baca paper, mama kemas2 dapur sikit, tok we just hang around (ahahah)..
the next day raya me n mama played host, so we didnt go anywhere, papa pulak jalan2 to his sisters' places, bawak his sons gilir, cos they were too busy stucked to rtm tv programmes (mati2 ingat astro dah ada..darn!!)
and as usual, i got my asthma, mmg sah, someone told me once if it's repetitive n i dont seem to be suffering it anywhere else, then i maybe 'tak diterima di bumi kelantan'...ooo.. scary eh? apa2lah

dah balik awal ni dunno wat to do, kl is still deserted, or at least subang la. frens are not back yet. dearest tgh best shopping vcd ciplak up north lagi. papa mama went out for lunch without notice. my bro dah kluar, the other 3 still in kelantan, naik flight.
went out with win just now, kejap, borak2 on life.. ahaha.. he must be on the way to kk by now.. oh no, it's just an hour since i got back.. time moves soooo slowly..
masa2 ni lah rasa mcm tak cukup kawan.. hmm...
and masa2 ni lah teringat the pile of work at the office..
lucky thing i lend my keys to my colleague hari tu.. else who knows, i'll be in the office on a saturday, 4th syawal, cos i've no better things to do.
tido dah overdose dah. smalam 10 hours journey tak tido langsung, teman driver n layan vcd, 3 vcds altogether. gilos
ni kalau bosan lagi rasa mcm nak gi tgk movie sorang2
masa2 ni teringat brisbane, probably dah queue beli ticket dah now.. cos it's brisbane..but now in msia, semua benda mcm impossible..
ingat nak sambung shopping, hari tu just before balik kg went with jazmi on a shopping spree.. someone dah tukar kerja, nak tukar wardrobe, so spent gila2 jugak hari tu, but since we're rushing against time, planned to continue the spree after raya. alah, nanti dia dah start class.. (erk..teringat my screwed up exam kejap..urrrghh!!)

promised cho to bake some choc chips cookies.. tapi malas, turnover cepat sgt, siap satu tray habis satu tray.. buat penat je..(adeke??!!)

oklah.. merapu je..
selamat hari raya to all
maaf zahir batin.. for wateva said, or written here.. or in fact terbuat n termakan, n all the ters..
absorpla all the kemeriahan hari raya while u still can even though that means tido berlonggok2 in the living room or a week without astro.
cos once u lose it.. u'll feel really old. heh!
chiow!

what's worst than having to withstand the urge to go to the toilet in the middle of a devastatingly gilab*b*punyasusahexam which cannot be described with words?

not finding a toilet even after half n hour searching afterwards

ok, wat's worst than that?

finding your car bumper dented n scratched, with the front light dislocated, and the plate broken

guess it's not my day
ok, first thing first, it was my first day of the real experience of post grad study, and i must say i am stunt. gila susah. let's put aside the fact that i didnt study enough for the exam, as usual, like everyone will say about their preparations, no matter if they come out of it a distinction holder, or a true failure....the paper was tough. i'm beginning to appreciate comments i heard about CIMA qualification sometime ago. IT IS NOT A DEGREE EQUIVALENT QUALIFICATION, even though it is stated so in many colleges' guides. oh well.. either it is or it isnt, it does not matter, wat matter now is i may need to fork out $300+ to re-sit the paper next time. i'm not a classic pessimist, but i just cant seem to gather myself and pretend to be confident that i'll pass it (and to think that the passing mark is a mere 30%...d'oh!!). i wasnt shaking, as usual, whenever i run out of time in exam, i was singing in my head.. ahahah.. i was singing!!! it feels like doing one of those mock exam papers. Afterall no lecturers, no frens to compare ur achievement n madness with, so no nothing there. it doesnt even feel like the real thing. it as just me, sitting with a hallfull of strangers, fidgeting at figures which brings no meaning to me at all. Halfway through the paper, i actually checked the quation cover page, just to confirm that i was sitting for the right paper.. eheheh.. and yeah, handfull walked out hardly an hour after the 3hours exam starts. but, like always, more than a handfull of those typical account geeks starts discussing about the goodwill, provision, minority interest and wat not...
i pretend not to hear, i was in desperate search for a toilet anyway.
only to find one half n hour later, after driving from faculty to faculty..
why must the uni be so strangers unfrenly
all the toilets were situated behind those swipe card doors..
i just wanna pee dammit!!
IT'S JUST NOT MY DAY .. i bet other non-uni related ppl found the toilet without a sweat

my car?
yes, someone kiss something with my car, either that or some car kissed my car.. bengang betul. i was very sure that it wasnt me, cos i've just belek2 n washed it. afteral it must have been something major jugakla to cause the lampu to be inverted mcm tu. stakat gesel2, tak kisah lagi.. haiyyoo... ni la... nak tuduh, tak baik, but bengek jugak, now on top of the exam re-sit, kena kluar duit lagi

so wat did i resort to?
retail therapy. bought one floral skirt (??!!). yeah i went cuckoo and got it without second thought. nak pakai dgn apa, nak pakai gi mana? that's a different story. bought hair dye, nak kaler rambut raya..ahaha..bought something for bf cos i was being so nasty for the past few days, or weeks - me having exam n bf at the same time is an ugly picture.. thk God i was not attractive enough to generate a list of bfs during schooltime.. not that i'm attractive now..kalau tak, habisla aku, lepas spm, dok rumah, tolong mak.. study ntah kemana.. menggatal je tau..
allow me.. it feels like i'll have a fair share of today after all these shit by blogging like nobody business..

hmm..wat else is new..
i'm frustrated with my ramadhan, terawikh boleh kira yg buat drpd tak, mama dah khatam.. papa pun almost kot.. and me.. : (
yeh is back from perth, either for good, or not.. but it's nice having a full house once again. the house is ultimately hilariuos now, and we dont have enough chair to dine together at once. and that's a good sign.
except if it was him who cause the scrathes n dents on my car.. then that's a different story.

hah, here comes the accused (for now)..
going to interrogate
ta!

yesterday cuti,
went to see the new house. the skeleton of it lah..
so can imagine how to put my furniture n stuff..
my room is smaller than expected, but i just love the big windows, overlooking wat's suppose to be the yard (and zetty's playhouse/wading pool..cheh!!).
the toilet is all to myself
i still cant get over the fact that the other windows open to the porch..bosannya..
ah well.. the only way to go if i want a room + toilet to myself
apa2 pun, looking fwd to this
mama has given the green light for me to pick up my fav stuff from the current living room for my room later
which means the broad, low, orange couch is definitely going to be mine, mine, mine..
coupled with a considerably not-small tv, and astro which i plan to get later
and lap top
and my OWN toilet
and the huge windows..
ahh.. i'm so looking fwd to moving out.

though i'll miss the bird's eye view of subang jaya from my little corner of the 16th floor condo..
and the breeze..
and the fact that i can walk around naked in that room without drawing the curtain.. hmm... even though i never tried ( i know of the existence of binoculars, well,just in case)

oh well
cant have all u want in this world huh?

must be weird 'living on land' again
i can wash my car whenever i want..hmm..
but i wont be able to tell the traffic anymore..wont know if the federal highway is the best route, or otherwise
wont be able to celebrate new yr watching all not-on-tv fireworks displays in klang valley while sipping coffee at my balcony..

i cant get the 'on top of the world' feeling no matter how early i wake up in the morning anymore..

worst.. i'm at the same level with all those buzzing vehicles, in fact my room'll be next to at least 4 of them.
oh well, hot air rises.. smokes n fumes too i guess

covered all chapters of the syllabus. covered some past yrs papers, say abt 20% already.
and all i could think about is to go soft or bright for that my room-to-be..
typical..

Mission accomplished!
Cooked for the family that day, ada dish yg impressive ada yg hampeh
but puas hati, from starter to desert, cooked extra for sahur as well..

Another mission, maybe wont be accomplished pun.. my course papers..
God, i've never been so bored with a subject like this before...
i just couldnt even fasten my eyes on the folder, let alone the papers inside, the facts, figures, questions, solutions..
arrrrghhhhhh!!!!!

i finally know how to go to MOH KL.. yey!
went out with win to MOH, sempat picked him up on the way, after having the whole dept give their tips and easiest versions of the way there. picked up a PO, and sempat check out the officer for my dear fren. nice girl indeed, through our phone call dealings, and in person. passed win her office number, ;) i dont care if it's unethical, it's just helping a fren anyway. was on the way back then realised that i'll only reach for the lunch break, so made a u-turn to midvalley and browsed around with my musafir friend, hehe..
left just nice to reach before the official lunch hour finish but was caught up in a massive traffic, so here i am, 20 minutes late, blogging instead of doing work.

fact is there's no work today, or so i thought.
balik2, another pile of stuff was on my desk.. hmmpphh..
just when i was in a mood to sink into the last few chapters of my course...
but since now there's something to do, i guess studying during office hour is a equivalent to stealing la.. stealing time

tomorrow weekend..yessss...
again, will be down with books, while bf work
plan to cook for the family on Sunday.. tak taula lagi.. if we're eating out better still, but just thought i should contribute, and afterall, mama hasnt been her 100% since start Ramadhan. And, let's admit. i miss cooking. I miss cracking my head up thinking wat to prepare for berbuka. i miss playing mama in the kitchen. i miss having the sense of power of making things as sweet, sour, hot, salty to the bits that suit my liking. i miss that good-feeling i get for being able to take care of myself. i miss being independant.
it's the same feeling i get when i personaly, thoroughly shampoo, clean n dust my car inside out.
which reminds me that it doesnt cost me anything and i should get around to doing it cos my dearest need a shower badly.

now when i think of it,
i'm a bit uneasy when i see a mess in my room and know that bibik will take care of it before i even know it.
i cant even control my own mess and how long it should be there!!..

ok, i'm crazy

oh, before i forget, last nite went to sheesh mahal, subang jaya, for the most anticipated north indian n pakistani cuisine. i must say i wasnt dissapointed. the spread were good. and the constant replenishment of more hot food with a little wait in between just adds on to the anxiousness.. ahaha
but the dissapointment was me. i just couldnt do buffet anymore. to those present last nite, i know i perform well last nite but u guys know i can do better rite?

oklah ppl
have a pleasant one this week.

is this possible
i've a crush on the guard at my condo
it's nothing major, but it's a crush
bf doesnt know yet. i bet it's entertaining for him to find out.
and he might agree that this person has a look worth having a crush for.
my obsession with specky ppl.
and that 4 eyes well built culprit has to wave n say hello whenever my car pass by...*sigh
weekend fever must have done something to me..
i'm confessing my crush on some bangla guard at my condo.
but handsome ok...
and when he starts frowning at those cars without stickers.. hmm... klakar..klakar
let me not start on this indian technician at my office.. hahhah
sorrylah hetz, aku dah cross over to your region.. hahahhaha

puasa dah byk hari, ngaji stuck kat 1st juzuk.. haiyyaa..terawikh... hmmpphh..teruknyalah aku ni..hari tu excited sgt about ramadhan
but CIMA course progressing well
as usual, rasanya just in time je cover everything.. and cover means read.. just read
bila la nak sedar...
from spm to a level to degree to pro course????
but this time it involves obvious money, ie not scholarship, not govt, not parents'.. MINE!
that should be a strong motivation factor..
pressure2...