it's SATURDAY again, and i'm nervous about it..
this may sound a bit absurd but i think i might have weekend-phobia? anyone wanna prescribe me the scientific name?
weekend-phobia = discomfort experienced throughout a weekend due to (huge) possibility that one will be stuck at home, doing nothing, not by his/her choice and not having excuses such as 'my frens are working' and 'i dont have any car to go out'.

i only found 2 remedies at this point
1. go online and read other ppl's journal...(hoping that i'll find 'worse situations')
2. spend time with my bros which normally refer to 'lepak bodoh'
but then, if it's a really bad saturday, even my younger bros will be out with the lot.. swarming the malls, cinemas.. hanging out..
hmm... doesnt sound that interesting afterall huh?
i guess this saturday is one of those really terrible one, yeh's talking with his fren in the background..."KLCC XGame jom.. jumpa kau kat KJ setengah jam.. call mir.. blablablaa.."
cho is already out.. to his tution class which last 2 hours but normally means a whole day out..
papa n mama's out with zetty, they're going to the hillhome later..
abe is still at home.. all dressed up.. looks like i'll be alone with bibik.. again..

hmm.. actually, do i really mind?
maybe not
maybe

ok.. on another note.. i've resolved to a self formulated diet plan... actually a slightly different lifestyle..
decided that if i'm going to stay sedentary like this.. i might as well be dead.
i did a full research on diet plans, calories count, exercises and stuff yesterday, even went thru the motivation parts too.. ehehe..
oh well... better make full use of my internet usage huh?
will this work out? i dunno... even if it's not.. at least im leading a better life..
the rate is very2 slow.. like a pound a week?.. nothing like the one that all those slimming centre shout lah..
aahh... wateva.. i'm not being hard on myself i hope.. actually i think this is being 'kind'
what aggravate this?
a simple math.. if i've gained around 5 kilos since i arrived a month a go (yes, i did!)... it wouldnt take that long before it requires a crane to move me from my room to the toilet next door.. a bit exagerated? maybe.. ehehe
afterall, i kept thinking... if i were to have a good start to my working life, might as well start off with a good first impression.. and even if there's vast individuals out there who strongly disagree with this.. i still believe ur physical appearances still says a lot about ur self management.. hence..
and apart from the working life..
if i were to embark on a new beginning.. ie get married .. say in 2 or 3 years time.. i should start getting ready for it now.. shouldnt i?
getting ready means, securing a good job, buy my own car.. tak menyusahkan my husband, learn the necessary skills.. and look nice..
now look nice.. this is all these efforts fit in.. i know i know, i want that person to like me for who i am and not how i look like n all .. but if i care about him enuff.. i would wanna look my best for him.. so, even there's no him now.. looking ur best doesnt happen in a blink, does it?..
heheh..
weird.. typing all that makes me feel good already.. hmmmpph..

i think i'm going to change this layout again
who's that telling me to get a life??
this is my life..