dear ying

been a while huh?

my sleeping pattern is killing me..
and the assignment workload is not helping either
didnt manage to shed that kilo off last week
been a while since last jog..
more than a week since i last call home
a week since i last call any of my frens..
bank accountsss read ..err.. very2 close to ZERO

so what have i been up to?
i really dunnolah..
i guess somewhere between the spectrum of writing a program to price an option (yes..sounds very sophisticated for a normal being like me, that's y i'm still stuck on it) and discussion about post natal syndrome and horoscope compatibality.
more like.. i dunno wat i've been wasting my last 96 hours on..

i guess the only achievement worth mentioning this week is - haircut
yes, got a haircut last friday without much contemplation, which is very unusual..
and maybe, that thai dinner last sunday nite.. my since dunnowhen cravings.. nasib baik dapat

wat else did i do..
bought my Ramadhan halal meat.. kilos n kilos..
went for tennis with the kakaks.. which is another cool thing for the week.. (the only .. maybe)
'collected' another batch of online frens.. to accompany me through my assignment works..(sounds rude.. but ying gotta do what ying gotta do n always do)
watched Joan of Arc.. full... partially alone.. wooooohooooo....congrats ying... u have reached the next level of tv concentration.. at a perfect time.. (2 weeks from my finals exam)
speaking of exam.. yes, in 2 weeks time..
nope, hasnt started anything yet.. not even the revision schedule (macam ikut pun.. it's just a psychology thing for me)
went to see tutors just now.. (dunno y)
they are quite flexible next week.. bless me!

hmm..
wat else..

shah'll be arriving on Thursday
dont really give a shit anymore..
he's on holiday.. and me struggling through my revision week..
have to meet him anyhow..
mama sent some stuff thru him.. $ for next month.. aarrghh.. i hate being financially weak..sick like this..

really2 miss home
cant wait to go back to my room, with that 16th floor area view of Subang n Sunway..n Puchong..
my family.. adik2.. (dreamt about them again last nite) ..Arman and the gang..

but even the thought of going back worries me..
am i going to pile back those kilos i've shed? by choice mmgla tak..
nak gi jogging with who? thinking of Jazmi.. shrugging off the thought..
cari kerja.. new ppl.. new environment.. all to be faced alone.. no novan, no hetz..
shah.. i think the worst is already over.. i think

everythingla worry me these days..
sometimes i forgot i've submitted some of my assignments ..and that i should worry about them no more..
i'm worried i dont drink enuff water..
worried that those time spent sleeping should really be use to do somehting else.. (and i only sleep after 5am)
think i'm losing it la.. 2 weeks away from my final exam final semester.. good on ya ying!

currently listening to ABBA "Take a Chance on Me"
feels like a 3 yr old again.. i wish i could go back to those days
when dancing topless to my favourite ABBA numbers are considered cute
and papa's books n calculator is something that i should never ever touch

cool song by the way...

guess good point to kick off - assignments!

take a chance take a chance take a chance..
but u know i've got ..so much that i wanna do..
lalalalal..take a chance.. take a chance..