dear ying..

posted a long entry just now only to learn that it didnt appear..
will probably post later..if i have the time and mood.. if i have the mood..

anyhow, a song from John Mayer

Not Myself

suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
there are times
I lose my worried mind

would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else

suppose I said
colors change for no good reason
words will go
from poetry to prose

would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else

and I
in time
will come around
I always do
for you

suppose I said
you’re my saving grace
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else

i'm thinking twice..really
you know it matters an extra bit when it's the person you really care
it matters an extra a lot when the person is dear to you
dear person, i hope you comprehend
dear God, help, please...

amin