dear ying

i'm mean
woke up 5 to 8 and was still reluctant to leave the bed
made than unexpected innitiative to call zel to inform i'll be late..
told her i'll meet her at 9 instead..
picked up the towel.. landed on the bed.. again.. at least for the next hour..!
reached the library only at 9.30..
zel, as usual is only to happy to greet with a smile..rasa 'alaa...' la pulak

so we've handed in our assignment
no more Marketing Plan updates from now on.. history..period..
i dunno how to begin to describe my feelings now that it's over..so i better not start... legalah.. apa lagi

met firdaus n fariz just now..
which reminds me i need to go cut my hair this week..
maybe tomorrow.. my bday treat..
maybe not..

shah mailed last few days,
he'll be arriving 31st oct.. that's thursday next week..
i like the sound of his mail..
'When are you coming back for good??? Buzz me then we'll go for coffee/dinner...cousin cousin for real kay...'
for real kay...hmm..makes me wonder..
anyway, i'm looking forward to it too.. going back malaysia, going out with cousins..
seriously, i think we have passed that awkward stage.. for real kay.. ehehe
it's gonna be cool.. like how i've enjoyed doing foolish childish stuff with jo when we were younger (well, that's definitely over, now that he's someone's husband..ohmy..HUSBAND..geez)..
maybe shah can my companion among my relatives, to appreciate more ermm.. 'adult stuff' .. (read: watching movies, theatres, coffee..concert)
yeah, it'll be cool.. we've got some chemistry between us anyway
me, him, cousins... no pressure from anybody..
things may turn out to be more than that later, who knows.. everyone, including myself would be more than willing to allow it.. really

it's weird..
when i was typing that last paragraph.. all i could think about is jazmi
already, i feel ilike i'm commiting a sin..
it's hard when u've been with a saint.. u will measure up everything to wat he has done, or doing..
i hope i'm not hurting anyone.. no matter how many 'takpe' he has mentioned.. it's definitely not takpe to me..
trylah.. maybe the distance makes things complicated..
maybe when i'm back to msia, we'll just take each other for granted anyway.good frens and that's it
finger crossed

liz's on the way here, called just now
bilik bersepah!!!!
better go now then..

she's here!