i really, really think i need to change the template of this site..
yeah, i've finally come to the point : bored

today i googled "blog melayu"
among the pages and pages of "blog melayu" resulted, i (realy)read two..
simply because they're easy-reads and both are in malay language which is comparable to my usage.

hmm.. maybe i should write in malay now..
or just turn bilingual..

pagi ni ofis sunyi.. obvious enough semua org dah habis keje for the month..
like i said, mcm makan gaji buta pulak.. left and right, i can only hear clicking of mouse(s).. sure semua tgh surf.. actually checked, and yup, mostly are lost in their own world(wideweb)

i really dunno wat to say now..

semalam i wrote a 4 or 5 para of stuff to post here.. sekali surver just snap "illegal operation" (memang pun!), then for the rest of the day i can only surf certain websites... geram betul..
now, i cant even remember wat that 4, 5 para is about... ehehe.. meaning it does not really matter

watson's having a warehouse sale this week, in city square.. fyi

the waja dah masuk workshop nak service before handover..

tengah2 free ni rasa macam nak buat cv pulak.. i havent any, can u belief it..
teringat RN (my mentor, godfather)
COMPLACENCY
mentang2 balikje dah ade keje, takde inisiatif langsung..
sorry to offend my bangsa, but i'm adapting well with the 'typical melayu' behaviour.. harapkan 'hak2 keistimewaan' and stuff.. never think ahead..never think of the consequences..

i can say that me and my friends are avid malay critics.. no we're not malay who critics, we critics malay..those malays on the street, just like us
i dont envision to become Dr M or any politician for that matter..
apa lagi head of any NGO..eheh.. jadi pengawas sekolah pun aku malas dulu..
siap kena panggil by headmistress..
alih2 masuk higher level, aktiflah pulak.. which exposed me to the miniature version of world politics..
it's ugly, i tell u
hence, i rather be an executive, keje dgn org.. tunggu std increment, rather than main politik sana sini, or lobby here n there for projects..
(heh, baru 4 bulan keje, bolehla cakap... excuses, excuses.. dasar melayu)

another observation
i think (most) melayu are "perfectioninst"
the bachelors want perfect wife
"aku nak yg muka bersih" (knowing very well malays complexion are not as delicate as the chinese)
"aku nak yg putih"
"aku nak yg pandai masak"
"aku nak yg ada degree"
"aku nak yg keje"
"aku nak yg pandai jaga anak"
"aku nak yg pandai jaga diri kalau aku takde"
"aku nak yg 'lasak'"
"aku nak yg manja"
"aku nak yg outspoken, intellectual"
"aku nak yg dengar cakap"
well.. though it may seem impossible, some memang nak all of the above and nnothing less..

"so, bila jumpa ni kau nak kawin la ek"
"oo.. aku tak nak pikir pasal kawin lagi.. enjoy dulu, kumpul duit nanti bini aku cuci kaki je masuk rumah"
"so, kau save berapa now?"
"bila aku nak kawin nanti aku save ah.."

perfect girl... perfect timing..
wat else can i say
but of course, it's only a (few) case(s)

"aku nak tukar keje ah"
"gi mana.?"
"..."
"dah apply?"
"tgk ah, bila company ni makin teruk, aku apply la"

"aku nak slim down ah"
"jom start esok"
"esok takleh, weekend"
"then?"
"next week kot, this week nak kluar..blablabla"
"kau target mcm mana?"
"yg penting masa wedding aku nanti, aku kurus"

"i mmg nak hantar my son study oversea..takleh la local ni.."
"u nak hantar mana?"
"depends ah scholarship mana"

semua org nak semua bende perfect
bukan melayu je
but i cant help it, through my observation.. it's getting obvious
often i witness minor conflicts between my non-malay frens and malay ones over wat can be done, and wat not..
"they" suggested business ventures..."we" shrugged it of with lots of 'tapi'..
"they" complaint about deadlines.. we say "we never met it all these while anyway"
"they" discuss about how to climb the ladder.."we" say we're getting another job
"they" got a job oversea.."we" say they pandai cakap
sometimes, i think it's just this place i am in
sometimes, it worry me sick

i'm noticing this trait in me lately...
and having a typical malay bf magnify the whole issue jugak
if we do get married, and breed, will i be mother of typical malays??

i may not be justified
it's just a thought anyway

(to all malay readers, no offence..this serve only as MY mental note.. and i have no intention of turning into another critic-with-a-blog)