Happy Mother's Day
Selamat Maulidur Rasul
Happy Wesak
i'm in a terrible mood to blog actually but here i am..
celebrated mother's day by sacrificing 3 hours of my weekend grocery shopping and in the kitchen later..
cooked dinner for the whole family.. black pepper steak, baked potatoes with corned beef, vege blablabla..
tok we was here too... jo n wife dropped by and so i insist they stay for dinner too..
even jazmi joined in the celebration..
the only non-relative, invited by papa.. wat does it imply? hmm..
turned down the job offer i got the other day..
my instinct told me to do so..
went to my permanent company to see the senior gm.. he's a nice fella and we chatted a bit.. then i was shown my place.. which i'll occupy august onwards..
cant wait.. at the same time feel a bit nervous..
been jogging every other day since wednesday, except for today.. was not feeling well this morning, still is actually.. i'll elaborate later
opened our 'joint' account..
is nothing grand about it but it's worthy to note
now me and him will commit a certain sum each month.. no a big deal for me.. but i thought it is something for him to do.. cos the account is under my name.. he insisted it anyway..
ida, my cousin was 'dirisik' last wednesday..
her bf's parents came to seesee talktalk..
wedding plans are underway..
next, all eyes on me..
now,
having conflict with him ..
it's the same topic..nothing new, nothing exciting
it's sunday, the last day of my 5 days holidays.. and we went separate ways filling up the day..
i am so, so sad..
i wish there's words to describe wat i feel now..
it's not just one of those premature, ngada2 whining..
i am not PMSing for heaven's sake
i'm numb.. i can say i dont feel anything for the relationship now..
all i've been doing for the last 48 hours is sleep and cry..
yeah, been trying to reach out to all my dear frens, but i started at win..stopped at hetz..
i did cry while talking to win.. tried hard to hold back.. to no avail.. but of course.. i swallowed my tears cos it's not easy to swallow my pride..not with him.. not these days..
blurted everything out to hetz.. lega.. at least for a few second..
then nangis lagi.. mcm bangang!
anyway thx hetz..
at the moment i just feel berminyak, berlemak and tak guna..