I was just about to start discussing about shares… opening a CDS account and main share (within my limited means of course) with my fellow colleagues when one guy just look at me “Don’t .. you’re a girl”.I was dumbfounded.. is this another sexist remark I’ve just heard..
You’re a girl, Nik. You have money, u spend it.. Let your husband worry about all these kind of things.
I was dumbstrucked again.. I dunno why, the statement gave me instant sadness (ache, more like it)..I wasn’t sad because I was told NOT to meddle in these investment thingy .. as if his opinion counts..I was sad because I really2 want to just do that… use my money for something else, and let the old guy worry abt this.. but I know I cant
Cos as much as I want it, I want ‘us’ to happen, quick too
(happen = marry)
I had a fight with him last night..For the first time.. I feel the relationship is stale.. It’s not that I don’t look forward going out with him anymore,
it’s not that the butterflies in my stomach have died.,
it’s not that I don’t long for a conversation with him after a day at the office (or anywhere)..
But I feel that somehow time will catch up and there’ll be a point where I have had enough of just going out on a stroll in the mall..and overlook the real reason of being with him afterall..(which is not just about doing exciting stuff)
I want to go on a holiday with him, damn it!
I want to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner with him.
I want to wake up next to him.
I want to be doing anything, at any time, as I wish, if he wish.. and not think of the consequences..or strategize how to go about asking permission for it.. Do u know wat I mean?And please, I’m not talking about sex (only..hehe)..
I guess i'm beginning to truly understand why Islam promotes marriage as soon as you've reach puberty (baligh)..
Cos at the age of 23, i wont feel complete unless i am married..(and i'm not saying just to him)..in fact, i madly wanna get married..
i guess all these propaganda about having to get well prepared to get married are all delay tactics.. it's a matter or current consumption versus future consumption..
wat am i talking about..???
ntah... nanti2 lah sambung balik, nak blah dah ni
ta!
have a good weekend!