dear ying,

today is 1st Ramadhan..
and as usual.. i missed out.. urrghh... bencinya..yeah.. blame it on my precise bio clock!
missed the first terawikh.. missed the first day of fasting..
anyhow.. decided to go on as if i'm fasting today even though didnt sahur anything last night.. well, easy to say when i woke up at 1pm today hehehe...
didnt feel a hint of hunger.. but drank lots of water though.. alah.. dah memang takleh puasa..

as far as my studying schedule goes.. still timely..
covered more than half of the accounting stuff already..

oh yeah.. was browsing for professional courses..found that CIMA is not that bad afterall.. at least it's mgmt accouting to start with..
and learnt that i got exemption for the first 2 levels.. cool or wat? duhh.. having done(doing) commerce..of courselah
so another 11 subjects to go..if i'm not mistaken..
maybe 3 papers per sitting.. 2 sittings a year.. hmm..so how would that work out.. 2 years and i'm Nik Norezreen Nik Adnan (ACMA)..
ahahaha.... start dah berangan..
one thing very attractive about CIMA is, upon it's completion, there's only one more stage to CFA.. my too-good-to-be-true vision..
wateva it is, finals.. less than a week's time..
first thing first ying..

yesterday's been weird..
called jazmi and end up in a very2 long conversation..
urghhh.. planned to sleep early and wake up early and look wat happen..
i'm in deep shit.. i made him cry again.. well vice versa.. but yeah.. i made the big huge J cry!
he wants to see papa.. and he is serious all these while.. despite his 'i'm fine with everything' attitude..
told him it's not him that i'm doubtful about ..it's.. yes.. it's me.. hi!
i dont think it'll be that hard for me to chew if it's just an ordinary 'meet the parent' thing..
but it's him..jazmi..
i know i have very reasonable parents, and i dont think they would immediately reject the idea of the meet.. but it's to scary for me to think of the outcome of the meeting...
he says, he just wanna see him.. wanna see them.. wateva the meeting is about is really up to my parents' reaction...
just now i was online with papa.. and again, as usual he was provoking me about this marriage thingy..yes, one impatient old man he is..
was telling him about my research on pro courses.. and he responded well to it..
except for ..' so apart from all these planning you have.. bila nak kawin?'
aaaahhh....i'm 22 for God's sake!
i wish i can say when.. no.. hold on.. at least i can say with who..
he was like.. takkan takde..
i was reaaally near to asking him about meeting jazmi..
decided it was a wrong idea... wrong timing..
maybe i'll finish my exam first..
then wait for the result..
then i should tell them..
jazmi wanna see you..
i just want them to be comfortable around each other (too much to ask for ying?)
at least i can include jazmi into my guests list for any occasion..
that's fine enough..
ok..just wait till i'm done with wateva i'm doing now..ok?

in a pretty messed up mood today..
thought i'll go pay my bills.. they're due today anyway..
go buy some sweetcorns.. buat bubur jagung.. non nak.. and bring some over to the kakak's lair..ehehe
but then again.. was in a pretty messed up mood..
maybe tomorrow..

been surfing others' websites..
came across few interesting ones today...
hmm.. bila nak buat sendiri punya ni..
i've got ideas for it already.. but not the time to implement it..
after exam...
everythinglah after exam.. ehehehe..
among those i visited, came across one.. alone in kl with parents far away..
weird.. macam2 org ek in this world...
in japan enjoying the (japanese chicks) view..
in the uk enjoying Dr Pepper.. i assume it's a softdrink and it exists..
in malaysia, missing family in beijing
in brisbane, bogged up in his room nurturing pimples at the age of 22.. God knows wat he's doing .. (i shoudnt give a shit then..)
in brisbane, digesting journals thinking of the joy of being in msia in 2 mths time, when he just got here 3 mths back..
in brisbane, talking about her hsemates in her journals as if she got nothing better to do when really, her exam is starting on the 15th..
and yes, that's me..
and i shall go now..