I'm speaking London man!

Thanks Zero, i'm still here.

Ahh.. where do i start. It's Sunday afternoon, the most conducive time for a nap, and i'm here in the office. Just got back from business trip to London. Actually was back since Tuesday but since I started work onWednesday itself, never got the chance to overcome my jetlag yet.. so i'll just say 'i just got back' till i've fully recovered. Anyway, it feels good saying it.. "i just got back from buss trip to London" ahaha.. kampung gila!

My life these pass few weeks has been quite happeningla jugak, but totally unbloggable. In other words, it's been work, work and work. The happening part of it is.. i like it. Ever since the dept started on this international project, mcm2 happened. And we're talking abt myriad of extreme emotions. Kadang2 rasa macam masochist pulak. Lagi byk kerja, the more ridiculous the instruction is, the more excited i get (not sexually though, sorry to dissapoint). Well, maybe it's just me la, so emotionally connected with my work.. org lain biasa je kot. It's exhausting no doubt and somewhat it has changed my life a bit (i gained few kilos) but at least it gives me sense of worth. Hehe.. am i sick or wat?

But then sometimes rasa mcm loser pun ada. Cant help feeling like a dissapointment to many. The other day, papa n mama's anniversary cum zetty's bday.. and i was stuck at the office.. and yes, it was sunday. Of course mama n papa tak kisah, as if i'm much help around the kitchen pun.. but then arriving home when it's already full with guests is somehow very saddening jugakla.. even tho takde sapa comment apa pun. Hari tu at Alynn's baby's cukur jambul pun, i made a grand entry, straight from work, late, oily-faced and all... pastu for an hr or so stone je.. sbb exhausted.

And last Friday. it was dearest's bday. Initially thought we wont be celebrating together sbb i was suppose to be holidaying in Bangkok and him in hometown. Alih2 boss gave me assignment to London and cancelled my leave (hence trip to Bangkok) just like that. So he came back in time for dinner together last Friday. But stupid me got stuck at the office. This time i was really stuck and it wasnt the sheer pleasure of sense of worth bull anymore. Dahla on the way back madwoman nak tumpang. Told her i've got guest waiting at home. She asked sapa your guest? wat the fffff kan??? None of your buss b****. Then dgn selambanya she said, "takpelah then, WE can leave now". On the way i called dearest asked him to wait for another 5 mins, ade last minute issue at the office (referring to the madwoman who takes forever to pack up). Letak phone, the madwoman yg very clearly was attentively listening to my conversation, said, "Hantar i kat rumah terus boleh?" Till now i'm still wondering y the hell did i not say NO. If your husband doesnt want to pick his lazy bum to fetch u, is it my problem to ensure you're sent safe to ur doorstep??? Ok, slight diversion.. but the bday dinner which was suppose to be something special, since 1. it's the only thing we celebrate and 2.we havent seen each other lama dah jugak turned out to be us habiskan lauk yg bibik masak kat rumah and having coffee while watching kill bill 2 later. Well, he wasnt complaining, though he said "masa bujang ni la nak kerja lewat2 kan?", but i felt a huge pang of guilt. Almost angry at myself. But since the dinner pun impromptu je and he just got back from Kedah, the homey alternative wasnt such a bad thing la. But had we made bookings n he's all dressed up for the occasion, i would have killed myself dah.

So, that's me updated.
Still pathetic, still self centered, just busier je.

Oh the London trip. mcm dah basi nak cerita. but this kedekut company (or boss) made me go on Sat nite and come back on Mon eve. Being first timer in London.. and on a solo trip.. i was told that it was a crazy thing to do. Well, like i said, i'm still recuperating.
Dahla less than a week before went to Spore buat carton check before shipping = 8 hrs in spore warehouse sweating it out with a bunch of naked warehouse guys..uurghh!!
Anyway, wat hurt most is not my bio clock, but the fact that i missed the Bangkok trip!
But made it very clear to boss that he just wasted my RM300 flight ticket due to last minute (aka bad) planning.
Perhaps, we're looking at another oversea trip before yr end.. : )
Jakunnya aku...