a week.
so much to say on the last day of the mth. and so much to do before another long weekend.
i'm taking tuesday off, to finish off my carry fwd leave. thurs cuti lagi..

i passed my first CIMA paper!!
thank God! i was tossing n turning in bed last night thinking about it.. i was veryvery confident that i'm not gonna make the mark this time. and i'm not pulling one of those typical - ckp fail, alih2 score.. well, at least i didnt score.. just managed more like it. i was prepared for the failure. but last nite it suddenly dawn on me that if i were to fail this paper, not only i waste the exam fees and the full annual subsrciption fees (even though i start in second sem-mid yr), but i'm just back to square one. as good as those who decided not to start their courses as yet, to 'enjoy life'. life less enjoyed (as if!) and money wasted, time gone, fights with bf.. and a failure.. that made me sleepless last nite.
either that or that exxxtra creamy marinara pasta i had last nite.
God that was sinful!! i'm still thinking abt it now.. 2 weeks going on with 'minimal dinner' then suddenly that creamy pasta, full portion, so creamy even i say it's very creamy. ; )

on a more serious note
my car was hit by a bike yesterday. was a quick encounter, was in a queue at the subang-sunway roundabout and suddenly BANG!! that guy bangun, marah2 the car behind him, pick his bike, and went. the car behind changed lane and dissapeared in the massive jam at the roundabout. till now i'm still thinking how the hell he did that. that was the most skillfull hit n run ever lah. so i was left there, shaky, not knowing wat's the damage, on the phone with my dad. i was shaky and he was nagging and scolding. it's not my fault that i took that route! i was hit anyway. something happen to me. i didnt participate in anything. i'm the victim here.. hello...geramla jugak..
but knowing him too well.. it seems funny pulak.

well.. now that i'm writing abt this, just 2 weeks ago, my car was scratched - by a fruitstall nyonya!! arrgrhhh!!! i was in bangsar with jazmi on that sunday. we parked just after devi's corner and proceed to burger king. it was 3 then. a couple of hours later, we went back to get the car only to find RIGHT SMACK IN THE MIDDLE OF A PASAR MALAM!! Geramnyaa.. i was nervous as we approach my car. Like how would i be able to tell which pasar malam is set where on wat day??? and there were NO signboard anyway. a first glimpse of my car, i cried. there were boxes of mandarin oranges on the roof and there's this cute little digital weighing machine on the bonet, cute but enough to leave markings and scratches so deep that only a paint job can remedy.

well.. 2 weeks earlier.. yeh borrowed the car to bangsar (i've blacklisted bangsar till i'm emotionally stable to go there again) got in a fight with mat rempit which seems to have ability to multiply his followers within minutes of the accident. according to yeh he was the one who 'cilok-cilok' and hit yeh but to save face, he picked himself up and went to yeh and blame him for his lack of skill. he held yeh by the collar and keep on warning him not to menunjuk2. a snobbish little boy in a waja. well..cut things short, after drinks with frens yeh went back to a scratched and dented car with little f-word written all over the car - yeah, the owner tend to collect dust from time to time.

i think i shouldnt continue with all these reverse chronology. suffice to say, i spend a lot on other ppl's shit.

oh well..
mama's blood pressure has been going down since her visit to sjmc the other day. she's on medicine and leading a happier and quieter life. we're told not to mess with her, be it an extremely good news or something that is bound to irritate her. we're in 'kesederhanaan' now..and i've to use that word. i'm not to go for movies at nite. i'm back to being 12, (to think that it's half my age!) filling in details of my outing and waiting anxiously for the approval.
but i guess i'm fine like that.. as long as she's ok. afterall i guess(/hope) my bf wont dump me cos i cant go for movies at nite-which too-bad is the only time he's available for movies. and missing one or two outing with frens wont leave me as sore as i used to be. is that a sign of O.L.D?? anyway, thx lish and hetz for last nite. rasa VIP pulak.. haha..

ok.. have to go. going to call and book moviesss for the weekend. he's on holiday, so am i. all classes cancelled. no way we're gonna miss daytime movies given rare chance like this.. ehehe

if u dont see me around. Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone..

-my car suffer minimal injury, scratches and ekzos bengkok. and that pasar malam incident, we stayed in bangsar till 12 pm to get the car out, it was a veryvery long unneccesary moment for reflection for both of us.. hehe.. so ppl, avoid that spot on sunday.

so, end of part one
the merisik went smooth
che long, ayah din and ida came to help and support. oh, i called hetz at the last hour, to "just check if she'd like to come and witness the whole thing".. hehe, ok, i was freaking out!!

i can always trust my parents for small talks and little jokes here n there. that went smooth untill ida alerted that the mom is going to meet me in the room. suddenly rasa mcm cuak.. wat have i got myself into?? ahahha..yes, we had that 'anak dara sitting in the room looking pretty' ordeal.. and i was nervous and sleepy through it. the mom did sarungkan the cincin. and she did ask THE question. thank God hetz was nowhere visible (ie directly besides me) ..hehe..the family is great. i feel at ease compared to the first time meeting them. talked a lot only to the sister. i was quiet most of the time, or maybe, all the time throughout the event. the mom did give me a shock la, i didnt know she can talk that much. perhaps out of nervousness. the guys, my dad, his, the bros, and the cute bro in law (hetz, he's obviously taken) really had some conversation going on. oh, the bro immediately after him look exactly like him.. well, maybe 15kg lighter.. freaky..

all in all, everything went smooth, though a little too formal than expected. i really think we should do without the sarungkan ceremony and THE question..arrghh..malunya kalau ingat balik!!
i met him afterward, and trust me, it felt a bit different. i was shy-ish with him..hahah.. but that doest last long.. hehe

so, thanks to everybody, esp those kind words. thx hetz, for the last minute arrangement. thx papa, mama, yeh n cho for doing the shopping around, abe for the ONLY three pics of the ceremony, zetty for behaving, and ok bibik..for lots of stuff. thx dear for the lord of the rings- first installment.. heheh..

woooohooo... found it, found it..!!
i cant wait to go back and march to my parents and present them this fact
i knew i was right..
i knew they were just picking facts from air when they say it..
seriously, it does not make much difference if i were to sit upright or lie down when i'm on the phone or watching tv. it's just 6 cals/hr for God sake!
now tell me u just hate seeing me having good comfy time on my back, cos i know i look triple my size like that.
oh well.. i've got the facts.. i've got the figures!!

my nose ticks
do u know that? my nose ticks..
whenever i pat a finger on it, it'll make sound like a ticking clock. (i'm doing it now just to check)
and this is no news to some of my frens. in fact i've got one guy calling me the ticking-nose. oh well.. wat's so great about that. well, last nite, when i was watching ripley's believe it or not, i showed my bro, yeh, my believe-it-or-not ability. he shrugged me off - obviously wasnt impressed - and mocked me. i was irritated (that's natural when i'm around my bros). i was convinced he was using his 'nasal fluid' to produce the sound.. which sound, irritatingly similar to my ticks, in fact, louder. but i was wrong. i was wrong. it was no trick. his nose ticks too!! proudly both of us showed zetty our newfound unique similarity. she tried to no avail. next mama, nope. not working. have yet to check papa and the rest..
this is freaky..
y is his louder.. hmm..

it's 2 days till the CNY event. i'm a bit jittery.
papa and dearest had a talk. papa asked him about his decision, told him abt his responsibility, shared with him about their hardship when they first got married 24 yrs ago, about the Niks clan (even i need explanation on this one), about his role between his mom and me (as his wife later, insyaAllah) and last but not least, office matters.. ehehe. mama was suppose to join but down with illness that nite. her BP is on the higher end. it needs no telling that she's been working too hard. juggling a blooming trading business and a huge and spoilt family at once. i wish i could help but it's hard when she always prefer to do stuff on her own. she'll have bibik cut everything but she has to be the one who fries them, in the correct sequence, so that all of the dishes will arrive at the table with correct temp. she maintains her own book keeping be it for the hsehold or her business. she does them all with this particular sense of exclusivity. but she's well now. met her by the lake this morning, just came back from jogging wearing a huge grin. i've noticed that ever since she came back from the clinic, she's exceptionally cheery. perhaps the doc told her to be happier, sink in the spirit of the kids. she watched 'senario' with us and laugh at all the unintelligent jokes willingly yesterday.

i've also been meaning to blog about the departure of the 10 yr-old Nurul Huda, but i guess it's worth no further mention if no action is taken. for the family, i share your grief. may God bless her soul. when things like this happens, i cant help looking in the direction of my 9 yr-old zetty. i pity her. my parents was left with no choice but to tell her abt the danger she's risking out there. the safety measures. the never-alone policy. she clasped our hands tighter when we're outside now. i pity her. to be living in insecurity and suspicion at such tender age. to understand that human can hurt them as bad even if they were just cycling around, just being kids. see.. i'm emotional about this already. enuff said.

anyway, Happy Chinese New Year to all..
may it be a properous and joyous one.
may the event run smooth.
may all of us live happily ever after.

ok
today i realised that good news are meant to be shared.
and tak elok sorok2 benda baik pun.
and thus, this is not a mere publicity, or just another piece of entry to spice up the chapters of this boring ying.blogspot

his family will be visiting this CNY
for those not familiar with the 'adat merisik', dont worry, u're not the only one..
and yes, it's still being practiced by many, including my dearest's family.
hence the search for the lord of the rings recently. initially was shocked that they actually going to get me a ring (told u i'm clueless about this adat), then i was terrified that they wont be able to get it since, well, i'm in special size category but soon enough i'm beginning to appreciate the fact that i, for the first time ever, will own a ring.
(and there were no resizing or special order required - they have it in my size!!)

more than anything, beyond the ring really, it marks the beginning of a lot of things.
i'm simply so, so happy about it. ni baru merisik, if kawin, waa... cant imagine..
it feels weird though. it feels different now that we're reaching this stage. something i wish to share but dont have words for it. apa2 pun it feels good.

maybe this is an infant step in the whole big official process, esp not having specific dates for the stages to follow ..
but it's sure a huge one for me.

Look!
me n Mr Gates are from the same clan! HAHA!

Congratulations, Nik Norezreen!
Your IQ score is 124

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.

Your Intellectual Type is Facts Curator. This means you are highly intelligent and have picked up an impressive and unique collection of facts and figures over the years. You've got a remarkable vocabulary and exceptional math skills — which puts you in the same class as brainiacs like Bill Gates. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

Go get impressed!

we're 2 yrs old!!
well, maybe not, if we discount the undefined phase we were going thru, and that i was busy admiring someone else in aussie at that time.

but since it's him whom i end up calling almost every nite, even during that weird phase, sometimes to update on the development of my crush (and thus spending a substantial portion of my scholarship for the international calling card..think of all the money.. and the stuff that i can get there n not here)..and the fact that i still drool over the guard at my condo as WE drive pass the post.. i think it's safe to say that we have survived 2 yrs of hell of a great ride.

and i'm looking fwd to the manymany more yrs to come...insyaAllah
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY DEAR..
:)

i just cant help myself
a good news is always worth a mention but 3 good news is really something!
congrats shaz, hetz and myself. though it's really just the beginning, but who would have thought (it's not that impossible but remember we spend hours n hours - and jars of cookies - talking abt this in penang n brissie). us, sampai jugak to this point in life. and sampai around the same time lak tu. not bad hens!

and thx korang for helping me search for the LOTR.
nanti i'll help korang jugak, with as much anticipation n participation both of u showed last saturday..hehe..

this is by far, the best Monday ever.. : )

u know u've surfed too much/enough when
YOU FOUND YOUR EX'S WEDDING PICTURES ONLINE!!!

that was hell of a shock to me!!! though i dont really consider him an ex. not that i've much (NIL actually) going on emotionally..well, it was just a phase, but i found his wedding pics.
the last time i heard abt him was when he told me that he has found someone else, n that the mom likes her so much, n they're going to get married soon. in short-pls stay away. but that was then. i dont really remember how it was. dont even want to. it's still a joke among my close frens. and will be lah if they too see this website. hetz enjoyed it i think.ppl make mistake. he was my biggest so far. and the funniest too. madness!!

ooo..dah kawin dah dia.. tak kisah la tu. alhamdulillah. but i still cant believe i found out about it this way..through google. tapi kelakarnya la... and i'm not saying this cos i was hurt that we didnt end up together. i dont want to end up with him pun. i'm glad we didnt. veryveryvery glad. and this is no denial. but it was so klakar. looking at him in those persalinans.

God!!! yellow tuxedos?????? muahahahaha.
wat better closure do i want. it's confirmed, he wont be refered to as my ex anymore.. NEVER! hahahah

my heart sank when i read this just now. May God bless her soul. wat's up with the world nowla.. cant help thinking if it were my own blood. cant help thinking about zetty. it must be hell hard to be parents and not paranoid these days i bet.

Yea yea, dah confirm, ada orang nak dtg CNY ni!
:D

I’ve a new officemate, whom isn’t a new fren. Welcome hetz, guess our fate n path is getting too funny la kan?

I’ve got so many things in my head now. It’s one of those moments I want and will be as selfish as I can, indulging in my prob. I’m reaching dead end. My final resort, papa n mama has been consulted and yet I’m still blur. There’s no precedent case that I can refer to. I think no one understand me at the moment. I’m veryvery defensive too. It’s a road less traveled, and I’m ready to walk it. But once someone open his/her mouth, I feel weak. I feel I’m veryvery vulnerable. As much as I want to stand up for my decision, something keeps pulling me down, questioning if it IS the RIGHT decision.

Hmm..feel so alone. Even blogging doesn’t help dah. There’s so much to pour out, and so personal to be here.

I’ll be ok, I think. In fact, I am ok. Dah biasa. This thing has been bugging me like forever that I wonder how I’ll be once it’s solved, if it will ever be solved.

Anyhow, weekend was fun. Finally on Saturday pegi IKEA! Mama punya idea la ni.. cos she said it was too hot to stay in. True enuff. Getting loads of idea for my new room in the new house. Was there from noon till dah gelap, then proceed to One Utama pulak. I forgot how it’s like going (window) shopping with my parents. Mmg mencabar. Meanwhile, bought some new rags and beddings for my current room. From the subtle white cotton and pastel cushions to big bright red flowers and stripey yellow n orange flooring. Well, I made it sound gempak je. But the room really had a makeover lah. I’ve rearranged the CDs and guess wat I found?? My CD collection of 400+ mp3s I dloaded when I was in Brisbane. Simply made my day. Bought some scented candle for the room as well, was in the mood. And glad I did.

Also went to this safari pet shop in Power House (the mall connected to IKEA). Found very adorable kittens, those yg ada that ohpleasetakemehome expression. Geram betul. Zetty wanted to buy them there n then, ask to borrow my moneyla mende la.. Hahah..dia tak tau that cute little monter will cost her few rounds of duit raya to buy. But apart from the kittens, I really2 admired the caretaker. She’s very sweet and polite in the most inartificial way. If I were a guy, I would just swipe the plastic card and get the kitten, because of her. Afterall the kitten is only a mth old, need to be there till 3mths for jabs n everything, so there’ll be ample time.. But reallylah.. I admire her gila2 that I told my mom I wanna have a second look at her and strike a conversation cos I like the way she talk so much…
Now I know why I was once a suspected lesbo..

oit!!