been a while huh?
well.. been at work.. been at work till veryvery late..
i'm trapped in that evil world already..
sheeshh... the hard fact is that the rest of the gang arent as busy..well at least they are ONLY during office hours..
the story's like this.. i was made to stay back till 8.30pm two days ago... they made me stay till 8.30.. but wat really matter was that the workload nailed me down to that seat in the office till almost midnite..MIDNITE..
i know i shouldnt be complaining much.. i mean once in a while, we all have to stay back for work..right? hmm.. but.. being a newcomer, and not having much competency in important decision making.. dont u think.. i should be among the ones excused that night..the fact that i learnt most of my frens are fast asleep when i was still juggling the figures really irritates me..
basically it's this fact that bothers me.. i dont mind the work.. well..i'm of this principle than one should always complete a job one has started... so there i was, preparing the profit n loss for this giant co.... and learning tons from it.. well..i dont like accounting but hey, i've learn it for 4 years.. so.. a bit more value add wont hurt.
macam aku ni bersungguh sangatla pulak..
pleaselaa.. we're all getting the same pay and we all have contracts that say "Working hours : 8.30 - 5.30"
but that night, i kept reminding myself that this is a GREAT experience.. (they're already asking me to consider to stay here permanently > NO WAY!!)

hmm.. wat's been happening other than work..
eemmm
hmm..
errr...
NOTHING!
sheesshhh!!
i cant believe it's already thursday actually..
i havent plan my weekend yet..err.. when i've this 48 hours not answerable, or legally responsible anyone.. better make the best use of it la kan?
last week i went out with hetz, lynn, ben n jazmi.. ronda2 in het'z car.. poor car.. seriously..
then went to see lish pack..or say byebyela... oh.. the rest of the gang have left for aussie this week..were greeted by aunty aminah's (very) late nite supper..
sunday went joggin n breakfast with jazmi.. and then sleep through the rest of the day...

so this weekend?
possibly gi tgk kete.. papa has been bugging me about getting a car.. probably saturday go tgkla kot
other than that, i've sworn to healthy living.. which includes jogging on every sat n sunday with tersayang..
ahahahha... all of u can stop reading now.. i think i'm getting to the part where i'll be describing what i feel, how i feel about him,again.. ehehee
speaking of which, u guys whould check out what this guy has install for us this time..

*finally my archivea are back!!

i foresee an unproductive day today
to start with, i had only one hour of sleep...i spent most of my p.m. talking to jazmi last nite..
suddenly there was this sudden outbusrst of curiosity.. it was like our very first time getting to know each other.. then the ice breaking was followed by a confrontation session which i less prefer.. though it ends to our benefits.

now, i'm starting to feel dizzy..
due to the lack of sleep and due to certain contents of the conversation last nite.. which i should not disclose.. ehehe

oh yeah, finally told mama that i'll be going to his co's anual dinner. i guess it's fine.. since she didnt say anything.. especially when i say it's just next door - holiday villa
she asked me a few questions about him.. well.. i was freaking out.. as well as delighted.
i'm sure there'll be more questions later as i know for sure we'll have more outings..(made a promise to go jog every weekend with him-he did agree that i look a bit more 'comel' these days..not good, not good)

oklah.. later2

it has been a week
a good week i must say
though i'm always exhausted by the end of each day..

last weekend was fun.
win was in town for a couple of days. went out for dinner at mamak's on valentines, then midnite movie after that. he was suppose to treat me a good hearty dinner that nite but then i was too stupid to hold my hunger.. balik rumah, terus makan nasik.. so in the end...as always...win ate alone n i watch. ehehe..
i guess win was really expecting to treat me, well.. after all those reminders from me.. so he got us a large pop corn for the movie instead.. of course, i gobbled down most of them... caramel pop corn is soo nice, warm n CHEAP here... something u cant get in brisbane. win bought me sheila on seven's latest cd.. well.. i still prefer the earlier two better.

saturday was cool too.. was at lish's for the bbq... best gila.. though i must say i wasnt consuming at my best capacity (define best?)
banyak gila food and i wish we can stay up and eat all nite long.. ish ish ish. in fact we (hetz, lynn n i) did spend a nite there.. having girl talk with the aid of a book tittled 'The Woman Body - Owner's Manual'
let me just leave it there..

jazmi is 'back'
i dunno wat i did.. i dunno why i did it..
but it feels fantastic having him back around..
we met quite a few times, brought him to one of the seven's gatherings.. everyone seems to think he is COMEL and nice.. it's quite flattering to know they think he's nice.. but then COMEL... that's a threat..ehehe!
it feels so natural.. despite wat has happened..
this time, i dont think i should really say anything anymore.. i'll take it day by day..
as always, i cant promise him future..i cant really promise him anything now..
it may sound pathetic, or cruel.. or just dishonest an unromantic.. but i just cant afford to make a promise i cant keep.. not with him especially
i dont think i should dwell on my feelings for jazmi here.. but he really means a lot to me.. he still gives me the tingles.. and yeah, all the electric stuff whenever we brush each other ...(this is beginning to sound like a pre-teen diary)

i really, really like him.
oh Lord, pls bless us..

today has been a tiring day..
and i had a late nite last nite.. so i'm currently in a terrible state..
today, first ever meeting.. gilababi.. they were damn right when they told me that the 'lady sitting in the manager room' is a singa betina..
today i saw how a small female creature like her belittle a peer, a very nice lady in her 40s, an old n experiences man, 2 youngblooded males, a chattable guy with an excellent PR..and a huge man double her size. And these people are committed staff.. working late hours.. even sacrificing lunch sometimes. i guess it shows.. behind these 4 walls of corporate organisation.. anything can happen.. as long as u have the power.

it sets me thinking.. does it not pay if she were to be a little bit nicer? would her staff be too complacent if she were to give them some respect? cant she meet her dateline without shouting around..
well.. maybe she is justified in her action.. to a certain level that is..

but i still believe there are lots of ways in doing things..
anything can happen as long as u have the power (and maybe a little empathy)

ok..balik raya.. yeay yeay!!!
*it's 6.15 pm and these ppl are still glued to their desks..- NOT ME I GUESS!!!..esok raya woii!!

hi... pretending i'm doing work.. but really was just surfing around
kerja banyak lagi but it can never be completed today.. so wat the heck..
afterall met my supervisor just now and he was impressed with the assignment development.. i didnt expect it.. thought i was behind time already..
my department is still alive... more than half are still around... but i bet more than half is really doing wat i am doing now..

tonite cammy's birthday
we'll be bringing her out to hartamas i guess..
really look forward to it.. though i'm a bit tired to start with
but this Monday's treating me kind.. well, the first part of the morning was spent creating account, meeting HR in bukit raja..

i think i'll just stop here..
did a lenghty one last saturday but then cant be posted... geram betul
anyhow.. i'll see wat i can do..

i think the last sentence in my last entry didnt make it.. ehehe..
anyway, was just about to go to sleep... then realised that my handphone clock setting is still in brisbane local time.. hence i woke up to take my bath, shampoo my hair, perform my subuh prayer.. at 4.30 am this morning.. ehehe.. yeah... and after all that i resort to another 2 hours of sleep..(of course, after realising i was waaaaaayy ahead of time to start the day..)

so i came here to check if my setting is still in nice ol ozzie timing.. yes.. it is..
oh welll.. i dont think it matters much.. but..the hell.. changed it anyway..
i'm officially in malaysia now.

early nite for this working adult.. ha-ha

today marks the beginning of my slavery...
it also means i'm starting a whole new chapter of my life.. turning over a new leaf, flipping a new page.. a walk into a different status bracket altogether..
today i started work.

well.. nothing much took place today except for the normal induction, intorduction, overview thingy..
started off the day in wisma pantai.. was introduced to the Group structure and all.. cannot help feeling emotionaly about the size of the structure now..Renong has shrunk.. and that's nothing new to the nation.. including me.. but having witness it there on the slides.. it somehow confirms my denial of the destruction of wat once was a glorious corporate empire lead by Tan Sri Halim Saad..
i guess now it's just history.. and i'm stucked here.. ehehe.... no, that was not a complaint.. not on my first day at least.. ehehe

after very generous tea break and lunch (well..of course there's Q&A session in between) we proceed to MC0BA, the headquarters for U-M Ren0ng Group.. see.. this is one thing i hate.. i dont like the name U-M Renong.. i dont know y.. but this is not suppose to be the way.. (yeah right.. hoping that Tan Sri would treat me or something if he come across this blog) anyway, this is where i'll be for the next 6 months...we then report to our department, mine being the group finance.. which does not have ample space/desk left for us.. so i got myself a room... yes a room, with a computer and all... right next to the GM's room.. how's that for a start?? no, but really.. i dont know how i'm going to make way into that room tomorrow.. isnt it weird?? even my seniors are sitting outside at the desks.. and they dont even have partitions... and me n my batch.. have a cubicle each.. if not a room...
this is not going to be easy... hmm...

later i was brought to bukit raja to P.. where i'll be for the next err.. 3 years or so..
they introduced me to almost all the staff.. which (i think) is not much of a hassle since many are still away for the CNY celebration.. including the person i'll be reporting to. i found my familair senior there.. having worked with him before.. it's quite pleasant to see him again and be working next to him for the next years.. well.. i think..i managed to get a glimpse of my work station there.. very humble.. just the way it should be.. ehehe

all in all.. today was fun.. really.. new faces.. new expectations..
prospect wise... hmm... maybe not so encouraging...yet i found one interesting person somewhere in the corner of P.. but by the look of things.. he could always be married.. oh wow... and since i dont really know who read this shit.. let me not disclose any detail as yet.. since.. i dont wanna spoil my career (heh!) just because of some first sight possibility.. wat am i crapping about??
well..looking forwardla to go back.. meet new prospect from day to day.. found many in wisma pantai.. and they actually smile back when i bumped into a

just got back from selesa hillhomes..
went to genting yesterday and actually climbed bukit tinggi (well..by carlah) to see that watevatopicana place.. to our dismay, it rained in time for our arrival at the ticket gate.. since it's a bit pointless to pay $18 to experience japanese tea house, feed the rabbits and walk around the tropics in a drizzle.. we made our way back to selesa and head back home..
i was in a shopping mood today... well, i do NEED a pair of black shoes for office wear.. and more baju kurung. i came to realize that there are ready-made baju kurung in my size these days.. malaysian market is becoming sensitive afterall.. sensitive enough that (i assume) all the shops closed on CNY. eheh.. wateva.. definitely going out tomorrow..

GENTING HIGHLAND NIGHTMARE
genting highland - boring.. and it has become yet another Land of the Mat Rempits.. seriously.. they were in herdsss i tell u. paling irritating when they were shouting about.. making stupid jokes.. racist comments.. they really know how to get on my nerves... imagine having a loud guy making jokes about those screaming on the rides while shouting this on top of his voice "DO U REALLY SCARED??" well..not once i tell u.. it went on for the whole 45 minutes.. and yes.. even my chinese-looking younger brother insisted on 'taking action' on the guy when he passed racist comments at a bunch of indian guys go-carting near by.. "Eeee... gelapnya dunia.. bodoh.. dtg jauh2 main kereta bangang pakai enjin mesin rumput ni!"
i was like... the hell??? but of course.. my bro didnt do anything.. at least not with me being there..
worst.. paid $29 for the outdoor theme park pass and only managed to go on one ride, since the rest are closed due to bad weather.. i just cant understand why they keep on selling tickets when there are no rides available.. yes, the discalimer in the ticket says that they are not liable for the weather changes, but how can we actually tell that it's all nice n sunny out there when we're not allowed to go out unless we're with tickets.. and yes.. they are still selling outdoor tickets when the whole park is dead due to bad weather.. and there are still clueless buyers queueing for the tickets...
.. oohh.. by the way.. the 45 minutes queueing.. ended after the attendant told us that the ride is close.. huh???? i remembered starting to queue at the point where it says "30 minutes from here" and halfway from the sign to the other end of the queue (yes.. and that took 45 minutes) they tell us to disperse.. if i never curse here before, this would be the most justified time.. but it's all over
malas la nak pikir

other than genting highland, selesa hillhome stay was pretty ok.. it was a refreshing change and i havent been there for years..

oohh!.. i'm starting work this coming wednesday!
we'll be reporting on 5th of Feb 2003.. and hetz will soon leave for her masters.. good on ya mate!..
learned that i'll be attached to pharmaniaga in bukit raja.. which is well out of the way to kl..
oh well... not that i really mind.. but i guess i need to get myself my own car afterall.. with some help from papa.. let me say.. borrowingsla.. since dah mention that i dont want him to help with the downpayment pun kalau boleh.. i dont want to bit my tongue n swallow my words. but then again, i will only start in pharmaniaga after 6 months in renong bhd. i can still car pool with ben n suhaimi to renong berhad.. so that gives me 6 months to save for the downpayment..
hmmm.. been reading 'Rich dad, Poor dad' by Robert Kiyosaki lately.. hence all this.. ehehe

anyway, got to go mandilah
going out with hetz n jazlan later.. jazlan n his sis's family are here from spore for a week i think.. hetz must be busy...
aaaa.a.aaa.....next week win balik.. or maybe the week after..
really keen... but a week or 2 more doesnt make any more different...
he was suppose to pick me up when i arrived from brisbane the other day!.. ehehe... yeah.. i dont forget easily, do i?

oraito
happy chinese new year!.. wat year is it again??? i'm just one lame ignorant monkey