it's the last day of the year 2003
my morning started off not too well..

just had a meeting, a solemn one,
i've never felt this before, but now i feel the sense of belonging in this dept, maybe not the co as a whole. but this dept, and the fact that all eyes are on us to battle the last hurdle towards meeting the buss plan.. eheh..
boss dismissed the meeting with a bitter note, and no one moved.. everybody has this blank stare, some looked even sad. perhaps most were thinking about their bonus, which may not come into existence this yr.
i felt sad too, to a certain level.
cos we did try our best but work, or life, is like that. there are unforseen shit along the way.
emotional pulak satu office ni..
that goes to show that we care a great deal about our job (well, it could solely be the remuneration factor), and i know there's some very dedicated soul around here.

so, end of 2003
no plans for countdown
feel like staying at home watching movie with dearest. hope he has no obejction to that. afterall it would be my last chance to watch the klang valley firework displays from the balcony. and this time, i want someone special to join. last nite,history,almost repeat itself. let tonight be a new beginning. and a good one.

2003 is a marvellous yr, generally, i think my job, my relationship and once again, back to staying under one roof with parents has changed me a great deal. i think i've aged in all aspects this yr. well, at least that's wat i think.


relationship
i fell in love over and over again this yr, i felt sick of it a few times along the way, and i feel happy generally. (hey, i'm being honest!). both met parents, relatives n frens of each other this yr. understand the true meaning of tolerance and give-n-take. realised that this relationship can make me feel 43 and 3 yrs old at the same time.

career
started my job in feb, settled in permanent co in august, got pretty much comfy with bosses and colleagues in only about last mth. got few recognition, very2 few shortcoming. very grateful. it's a cool start i must say. also enrolled into a pro course.

financial
started off as a carless wealthy independant girl. then my 4 wheel sweetheart came, and things turn around. but rpoud to say managed to live within my means. managed to debit something to my savings account each mth, get myself something new each mth, give some to mama each mth, treat family to a meal once a month, spoil bf with a good hearty meal once a month, pay my own car (and all the taik2 maintainence that cost me more than a mth gaji for this whole yr), fuel, hpphone bill, room phone bill, baju raya (well one or two), new office wardrobe, my first make up set, a saloon quality shampoo that cost a bomb, unnecessarily expensive odd-size shoes, shoes for bro.

for a girl from a fortunate background, who's been in job for less than 12 mths, i think i'm relatively independant now.

spiritual
i'm bad. i'm worse this yr. God give me strength. Jauhkan aku dr benda2 yg melekakan. Amin.

health
from a daily jogger to a full time fat producer. need i say more? yes, added 20 kg happily along the way. shrinked my wardrobe to quarter it's original size.

fashion n vanity
returned to boring jeans and tshirt. grew my hair shoulder lenght, wear it up 95% of the time. started with the cleanser-toner-moisturiser regime. begin wearing compact powder n blusher on daily basis. wear mascara n (liquid) eye liner on special day. still wear knee length skirt, only one i can still fit. begins understanding the reasons for sandals and forgot the comfort of snickers. very faithful to baju kurung for the office.

now, i've no resolution for the new yr. i dont think i should make any.
but i sure have one wish.
only one wish.
.......
amin.