apesal jadi macam ni? i thought i was the only one feeling distance. you pun rasa jugak ek? rasa lain kan. rasa macam tak lama je ni. ada rasa monotonous tak? ada rasa bosan tak? do u feel lonely sometimes? do u feel my absence sometimes? do you fell your absence? is this going to work out ke tak? i dare not question cos the possibilities seems to be marked by a small probability je. is it my pms again? no, u pun rasa the same ek? are we in deep trouble? wat's the problem now if it's not other ppl? it's us ek? it's definitely us ek? u rasa ni dah lama ke? lama jugak? is it just time, or had we enuff of each other? do i still miss u? do u still love me? apesal aa??

i nak u habiskan degree, devote urself to ur studies and all. i want u to work hard. i'm proud whenever u work late and enjoy it. i want u to go back to ur family as much as possible. i dont want to ever disturb ur wednesday nite with the boys. tapi apesal i mcm selfish. i nak more of ur time. it pains me when i'm stucked at home or have my girls outing because i have no other choice. i bukan tak suka kluar with my girlfrens je. i enjoyed it thoroughly. but when i've no choice but only keluar dgn diorang, it sucks, no matter how enjoyable the outing is. kadang2 rasa mcm takde bf. ada bf just to call and ask dah makan ke belum and say i love u occasionally. it's not like i'm having a bf in uk or spore. i have u right here, 15 mins drive away from my house. i have u here, a local phone call away. yet i cant have u.

i thought i can always be comfy thinking it's another series of my crap. but now, u feel the same way too.. so it's true. we're in trouble.