i've typed a whole lenghty entry yesterday, was in good mood.

a whole lenghty one with lots of links and all.. yes, me, linking.

we'll see if i've the mood to re-do it all over again. considering this is my last day here.. ehehe.. time is not a factor.

yesterday, i was in a jolly2 good mood. maybe sbb second last day before i leave this 100yrs old building (i'm kidding-abt the figure-not the leaving part)

yesterday nite main squash with dearest. had a great great time, and a deep deep sleep followed. best gila, it's been a while.
he's an ok playerla, considering it's only his second time. catch up quite fast. oklah, he beat me up, MARGINALLY. lawan tokey betul. but even he admit, i got better stamina ;)
overall, he's an enjoyable partner to play (squash) with. maybe because he is jazmi.

i had my first appraisal yesterday. scored fairly well, far above my expectation (maybe cos my expectation is low..hehe..safer that way). In fact, a coleague said it was above average, ehehe..
suka hati, suka hati!

due to plenty of time in hand yesterday, i did a bit of browsing around.

found interesting places, interesting happening from my interestingly, ordinary links list.

firstly, went to aiz's and was furios over this 'chat' excerpts. i dont feel it's justified to take the sms guy as an example to portray that guys too, are as irrational as most typical women. i know that's not the main point, not the only point, but one guy does not constitute a population. to date, i havent read the comment section, in fear it would stir me again.. ehehe.. see, as i said earlier, i may not represent the women's population, but if reading a blog can make me furious, are u sure u wanna give the rights of "aku ceraikan dikau" in my hands? nevermind, thks but no thks.
anyhow, i'm sure there's a valid and strong enough reason to it, afterall, islam is a perfect way of life. at the moment, i'd stick with the "we're emotional, damn it" as an explanation. heh!

to tj , i'd say , bravo girl!
i think i'm gonna be addicted to her blog as how i am addicted to akademi fantasia, at least for a while. bestnya ada crush... terkenang zaman2 berani dulu

reading her stories, i learnt
- i'm not the only brave one (tak reti malu...no offense tj) in my species. there are other bold girls out there too.
- tj's a malay, or a non-malay with a very malay name.
- there are worse case of 'err...emmm..' phone conversation, i had it not so badlah afterall.. ehehe
-jazmi n i never went thru this. it's just "i like u" and "ok!" Tadaaa!!

terkenang zaman2 berani dulu.. ehehe

case 1 : a goody2 guy in a-level college
method : conveyed thru a fren, a good fren of his on the day of my grad, the last day. reminded that it was just a confession, not a proposal.
result : none, as expected. but greeted with a nice "i'm so flattered a girl like her likes me"..
conclusion : sweet! i became a seriel 'confessor'

case 2 : a 28 yr-old, 6 footer chatting fren-i was 17 then
method : casually called him to tell, "hey, i used to like u" a few days before his marriage to a girl she always fussed abt. "used" does not mean my heart were beating normally
results : " why didnt u tell me earlier, we could have work something out then, i was also blablabla..we should keep in contact"
conclusion : wrong move, never confess to a guy with wedding jitters, though he still calls a few mths after "wat is it abt me that attracted u?".
a HUGE turn off.
dunno where he is now, heard that he's a papa now.. cool.

case 3 : a dear fren
method : the standard " i've got something to tell" before he dropped me home.
results : none expected. "it's mutual". nothing happened pun.. the frenship's better after that. we can joke abt it and all.
conclusion : i've secured a great fren. no matter wat i say, he's here to stay..should be, by now ehehe..

case 4 : a fren in uni
method : told him face to face, on a nice sunday afternoon, after dropping hints after hints, unintentionally.
results : none. everything was/is as normal as before
conclusion : even if he leans on ur shoulder most of the time, even if he tells u all the stories abt his past n family, even if he chat with u till late, most of the days, even if he responded well to all ur hints, even if he always pay for ur movie tickets n coffees when u're out in a group, even if he's like ur shadow in a netball game (?), even if he calls u with name no other call/can bare to call u, even if he always tell u he needs a special gf that understands him nownownow, even if he admits that u understand him well, it does not mean he wants u more than just a fren. ouch! it was a heartache jugakla, but it was ok. glad i went thru it.. ehehe..

waa.... klakarnya
to think that i'm finally with a guy that actually made the first move. fuhh.. leganya..

ehehe

ta!

office tgh party, biscuits, sandwich n all... suka ke aku nak blah ni?