i havent been in my best mood lately
and i dont know why.. ask dear boyfriend and he would probably give u the details..
i'm just not normal these days.. maybe, as usual... too much thinking..

i feel i have changed a lot since i came back from australia..
the funny thing is, i dont think i've changed much when i was there..
maybe having finally engaged in a 'serious' relationship and working did some turn around for me
i dont feel i'm as happy-go-lucky as i used to be
i think i spent more time alone.. (well..i'm still adjusting myself to my old housemates-my family)
i'm very kedekut with money these days.. my definition of entertainment is just sooo boring (stay at home.. read newspapers..go out with boyfren.. sleep)
i dont find fun in cooking, drawing, television, chatting and homemaking anymore
call those activities lame.. but they use to cheer me up.. make me look forward to weekends like crazy! now.. i look forward to weekend just because i wanna stay in, eat a lot with frens, and talk (on the phone) to my bf during the day, not just nite..
it scares me the other day when i feel i prefer not to see him as often..
it scares me even more when i dont even feel like attending to any calls, or important conversation.. all i wanna do is lay on my bed with zetty and hear her stories..
i'm becoming old
i'm old

i hope this is temporary insanity, cos i cant blame it on PMS this time..unless it's fortnightly now..

but to think of it.. so wat if i'm not like i used to be anymore.. so wat if the above paragraphs conclude my life as total patheticness..eheh .. so wat?
i can do anything with my life.. anything and live however i which to live it.. as long as i dont bother others..

hmm... now, i think i've to wait till 5.30 to be able to do that..
office work is abundance these days.. not only i've responsibilities on my own now.. more and more of my superiors and collegues are finding me 'handy'..

maybe wat i need is a break
maybe