dear ying,
just checked my result..
I'VE GRADUATED!!!!..PASSED ALL PAPERS!!!!
in sydney now..
will update later...
maybe from perth tomorrow..or later
proud of you!
cool..
oh ying..u've done well!.. : )
Saturday, November 30, 2002
Monday, November 25, 2002
dear ying,
where do i start?
ok..
exam's finally over.. all four papers down and (i hope) no more to go, ever, anymore.. (at least not here in pursuit for Bachelor of Comm)
results will be out on 2nd Dec.. which is a dread since it'll be in the middle of my holidays in Perth... after a week of Sydney...in a way.. not much of a holidays before thatlah..
last paper -marketing, was ok.. ok considering i was bedridden and slept almost 3/4 of the day before.. ok considering i never buy the textbook and only managed to borrow one 3 days before the paper
i'm a bit concerned about my accounting paper.. the first one.. which i screwed up.. really well
in this state.. moment.. one can only pray
anyhow anyway..
going to sydney this tuesday..
lish and wee yen will still be around then..
not looking forward to a hectic go places and see things schedule ..just hang out with frens.. and shopping... that's it..
i've been there twice already.. maybe havent seen it all... but after a while everything everywhere just look the same.. maybe a bit bigger there.. gloomier in melbourne.. cleaner in brisbane.. bottomline, they all shut down at 5..nothing equals malaysia (now, that's a stupid one...duhh!)
after sydney i'll be off to perth with hetz.. shaz wont be joining this time
more looking forward to this part of the trip actually since i've never been to perth and being with ben and nabil would spell.. hanging out.. lepak... to the max...(assuming all goes well on the 2nd)
afterall i think i'll be financially drained out after sydney..
hetz and i was suppose to get something for ben and nabil yesterday but i think it skipped our mind.. since we were too busy thinking of wat to order at the Sizzlers..
yeah..the Sizzlers..
we, hetz, me, non, along, doc and abg jo went to berbuka there last night..
it has a good spread of buffet.. well.. the only one i've been to here anyway.. which caters vegetarian as well.. and has affordable seafood menu on its list..
so off we went and i gobbled down the whole seafood platter ++.. yes..++... it's buffet right??
before that me, hetz n non was in city.. from noon really...
wondering around looking for nothing specific other than a dress for my little sister..
ok.. so i end up with a dress for her..(it's Ladybird's.. but it has that aussie summer dress kinda look.. oklah kot.. afterall it's on 20%discount..she'll love me for sure)
a jacket/blazer(?) and a shirt for me.. couldnt resist.. since they were on 50% discount - smart buy huh? ..(cheapskate..cheapskate..)
wat else..
ok.. a day before the kakaks had a berbuka puasa thing ..
almost all malaysian muslims were invited and we had good feast ..really really good overloaded one and of course..photo session.. malaysians wont be malaysians without photo sessions at such event.. at least not here. hetz might go develop the picture today and we'll have it scan and send to berita harian or utusan.. salam perantau...waaa.... and i'm in it?? (still couldnt believe i'm an oversea student.. and finishing soon.. maybe sebab the off late nasik with ayam masak merah .. dalca .. ayam masak lemak cili api and sambal belacan doesnt help to retain the aussie ambience...)
wat else..
called jazmi.. had a talk..
just dont want to think and say anything about it now..
today i planned to pack my stuff.. leave at lizz's house for shipment..
then pack my stuff for my sydney perth trip..
basuh baju.. dah.. but belum jemur..
hmm.. wat else..
yeahhh..colour my hair..
i think i wanna do some extra bit of groominglah today..
after all hetz will be putting a nite here..maybe shaz too and there's 4 episodes of sex in the city..back to back..
just set the right mood..
along already left the buliding.. going back to malaysia tomorrow..sheesh..
me..in about 4 weeks time..
cant wait.. but at the same time a bit worried..
papa is budging about professional course dah..
and jazmi..
and win will be away..
aaa..talked to win the other day.. he was amazingly.. ALIVE.. or.. should i say lively..
got disconnected at a very important note.. nevermind.. will be back soon..
made him come and pick my up..
his kancil is no longer with him...so there might be a transport problem.. the way i see it.. it could be better.. since he will (must) somehow get his sis/his sis's sis in law(??) bigger car to pick me up..like usual... for those who dont know me .. i can fit into kancil.. it's just the mere possibility of my bags and stuff being too big (yeah right!!)
eh..gi jemur kain la..
i can go on forever..
now that i'm back
ok have fun ying!
where do i start?
ok..
exam's finally over.. all four papers down and (i hope) no more to go, ever, anymore.. (at least not here in pursuit for Bachelor of Comm)
results will be out on 2nd Dec.. which is a dread since it'll be in the middle of my holidays in Perth... after a week of Sydney...in a way.. not much of a holidays before thatlah..
last paper -marketing, was ok.. ok considering i was bedridden and slept almost 3/4 of the day before.. ok considering i never buy the textbook and only managed to borrow one 3 days before the paper
i'm a bit concerned about my accounting paper.. the first one.. which i screwed up.. really well
in this state.. moment.. one can only pray
anyhow anyway..
going to sydney this tuesday..
lish and wee yen will still be around then..
not looking forward to a hectic go places and see things schedule ..just hang out with frens.. and shopping... that's it..
i've been there twice already.. maybe havent seen it all... but after a while everything everywhere just look the same.. maybe a bit bigger there.. gloomier in melbourne.. cleaner in brisbane.. bottomline, they all shut down at 5..nothing equals malaysia (now, that's a stupid one...duhh!)
after sydney i'll be off to perth with hetz.. shaz wont be joining this time
more looking forward to this part of the trip actually since i've never been to perth and being with ben and nabil would spell.. hanging out.. lepak... to the max...(assuming all goes well on the 2nd)
afterall i think i'll be financially drained out after sydney..
hetz and i was suppose to get something for ben and nabil yesterday but i think it skipped our mind.. since we were too busy thinking of wat to order at the Sizzlers..
yeah..the Sizzlers..
we, hetz, me, non, along, doc and abg jo went to berbuka there last night..
it has a good spread of buffet.. well.. the only one i've been to here anyway.. which caters vegetarian as well.. and has affordable seafood menu on its list..
so off we went and i gobbled down the whole seafood platter ++.. yes..++... it's buffet right??
before that me, hetz n non was in city.. from noon really...
wondering around looking for nothing specific other than a dress for my little sister..
ok.. so i end up with a dress for her..(it's Ladybird's.. but it has that aussie summer dress kinda look.. oklah kot.. afterall it's on 20%discount..she'll love me for sure)
a jacket/blazer(?) and a shirt for me.. couldnt resist.. since they were on 50% discount - smart buy huh? ..(cheapskate..cheapskate..)
wat else..
ok.. a day before the kakaks had a berbuka puasa thing ..
almost all malaysian muslims were invited and we had good feast ..really really good overloaded one and of course..photo session.. malaysians wont be malaysians without photo sessions at such event.. at least not here. hetz might go develop the picture today and we'll have it scan and send to berita harian or utusan.. salam perantau...waaa.... and i'm in it?? (still couldnt believe i'm an oversea student.. and finishing soon.. maybe sebab the off late nasik with ayam masak merah .. dalca .. ayam masak lemak cili api and sambal belacan doesnt help to retain the aussie ambience...)
wat else..
called jazmi.. had a talk..
just dont want to think and say anything about it now..
today i planned to pack my stuff.. leave at lizz's house for shipment..
then pack my stuff for my sydney perth trip..
basuh baju.. dah.. but belum jemur..
hmm.. wat else..
yeahhh..colour my hair..
i think i wanna do some extra bit of groominglah today..
after all hetz will be putting a nite here..maybe shaz too and there's 4 episodes of sex in the city..back to back..
just set the right mood..
along already left the buliding.. going back to malaysia tomorrow..sheesh..
me..in about 4 weeks time..
cant wait.. but at the same time a bit worried..
papa is budging about professional course dah..
and jazmi..
and win will be away..
aaa..talked to win the other day.. he was amazingly.. ALIVE.. or.. should i say lively..
got disconnected at a very important note.. nevermind.. will be back soon..
made him come and pick my up..
his kancil is no longer with him...so there might be a transport problem.. the way i see it.. it could be better.. since he will (must) somehow get his sis/his sis's sis in law(??) bigger car to pick me up..like usual... for those who dont know me .. i can fit into kancil.. it's just the mere possibility of my bags and stuff being too big (yeah right!!)
eh..gi jemur kain la..
i can go on forever..
now that i'm back
ok have fun ying!
Thursday, November 21, 2002
hi ying..
fever- getting worse..
but
DUIT DAH MASUKKK!!! finally..alhamdulillah
2601 punya paper tadi ok lah jugak..
ntah.. bolehla kot.. dalam2 tak larat ni
maybe tomorrow if i feel worse i might just not fast.. forgot the fact that those who're sick are excused..
but bila pikir kena ganti... ah malas la.. bukan kebulur n terjelepuk lagi pun
just now i slept from 11am to 4 pm.. missed Zohor..selamba..
maybe that's y i feel worse now kot..
anyhow.. almost time to break fast..
masak bubur just now.. really takde selera but if layan tido je i guess things might get worst.. room really messy.. nak mandi just now.. but once kena air just now, my body felt ngilu semacam.. maybe after dinner.. when refresh.. take hot shower..
wateva.. need to go
fever- getting worse..
but
DUIT DAH MASUKKK!!! finally..alhamdulillah
2601 punya paper tadi ok lah jugak..
ntah.. bolehla kot.. dalam2 tak larat ni
maybe tomorrow if i feel worse i might just not fast.. forgot the fact that those who're sick are excused..
but bila pikir kena ganti... ah malas la.. bukan kebulur n terjelepuk lagi pun
just now i slept from 11am to 4 pm.. missed Zohor..selamba..
maybe that's y i feel worse now kot..
anyhow.. almost time to break fast..
masak bubur just now.. really takde selera but if layan tido je i guess things might get worst.. room really messy.. nak mandi just now.. but once kena air just now, my body felt ngilu semacam.. maybe after dinner.. when refresh.. take hot shower..
wateva.. need to go
hi ying..
fever- getting worse..
but
DUIT DAH MASUKKK!!! finally..alhamdulillah
2601 punya paper tadi ok lah jugak..
ntah.. bolehla kot.. dalam2 tak larat ni
maybe tomorrow if i feel worse i might just not fast.. forgot the fact that those who're sick are excused..
but bila pikir kena ganti... ah malas la.. bukan kebulur n terjelepuk lagi pun
just now i slept from 11am to 4 pm.. missed Zohor..selamba..
maybe that's y i feel worse now kot..
anyhow.. almost time to break fast..
masak bubur just now.. really takde selera but if layan tido je i guess things might get worst.. room really messy.. nak mandi just now.. but once kena air just now, my body felt ngilu semacam.. maybe after dinner.. when refresh.. take hot shower..
wateva.. need to go
fever- getting worse..
but
DUIT DAH MASUKKK!!! finally..alhamdulillah
2601 punya paper tadi ok lah jugak..
ntah.. bolehla kot.. dalam2 tak larat ni
maybe tomorrow if i feel worse i might just not fast.. forgot the fact that those who're sick are excused..
but bila pikir kena ganti... ah malas la.. bukan kebulur n terjelepuk lagi pun
just now i slept from 11am to 4 pm.. missed Zohor..selamba..
maybe that's y i feel worse now kot..
anyhow.. almost time to break fast..
masak bubur just now.. really takde selera but if layan tido je i guess things might get worst.. room really messy.. nak mandi just now.. but once kena air just now, my body felt ngilu semacam.. maybe after dinner.. when refresh.. take hot shower..
wateva.. need to go
Wednesday, November 20, 2002
hi ying,
still feverish.. stayed in bed most of the time today.. but finished 'reading' my 2601 textbook anyhow..
went to uni later in the afternoon to bank in my collection of $2 coins.. worth $180... oh Ying..you've done it again!..ehehe
then went to post office to confirm the package postage.. kena bayar insurance on top of the charge.. and no documentation fees.. oklah kot..
went to student centre to enquire about my graduation forms which hasnt arrived, they issued me one immediately..checked the gown hire.. sheeshh.... beratus jugak.. though we'll be refunded.. but it's not in total.. takpelah.. once a lifetime anyway..
room is in total mess..but just couldnt be bothered.. too tired and too occupied with my last minute studying.. perhaps later, when i'm done with my papers.. and before sydney that is
tonight i'll just read the summary notes and go to bed early..
have to call papa before that to ask him to wake me up tomorrow since paper is at 8.. again
maybe call jazmi after that.. he sounds worried about my fever.. biasala.. usually other ppl are more worried than i am.. to date, i havent taken a single panadol.. still ok.. just ate 2 oranges and drank glasses of fresh juice.. hope the dosage of vitamin C helps.. i'm not making things hard for me but i simply hate medicine.. panadols doesnt do the job for me anymore.. ponstant makes me a lazy bum.. 2 of them and i'm off to paradise..on bed. besides i'll be extremely ketar and just cannot concentrate.just cant afford it now.
my body's very warm but my feet and palms are cold.. and it's just a normal nite..
maybe when i'm done with my studying, makan jelah the ubat..then tido.. should call shaz n hetz to wake me up..in case..
hmm.. wat else..
faiz mailed asking for my address.. for raya card.. i guess i'll be receiving onelah then.. woohoo... record...
tak aci ah.. non dah dapat dua.. maybe he should get himself a christmas tree to hang those cards.. bila lagi nak berlagak orang putih..
eheh.. yeah right..!
cheers!
still feverish.. stayed in bed most of the time today.. but finished 'reading' my 2601 textbook anyhow..
went to uni later in the afternoon to bank in my collection of $2 coins.. worth $180... oh Ying..you've done it again!..ehehe
then went to post office to confirm the package postage.. kena bayar insurance on top of the charge.. and no documentation fees.. oklah kot..
went to student centre to enquire about my graduation forms which hasnt arrived, they issued me one immediately..checked the gown hire.. sheeshh.... beratus jugak.. though we'll be refunded.. but it's not in total.. takpelah.. once a lifetime anyway..
room is in total mess..but just couldnt be bothered.. too tired and too occupied with my last minute studying.. perhaps later, when i'm done with my papers.. and before sydney that is
tonight i'll just read the summary notes and go to bed early..
have to call papa before that to ask him to wake me up tomorrow since paper is at 8.. again
maybe call jazmi after that.. he sounds worried about my fever.. biasala.. usually other ppl are more worried than i am.. to date, i havent taken a single panadol.. still ok.. just ate 2 oranges and drank glasses of fresh juice.. hope the dosage of vitamin C helps.. i'm not making things hard for me but i simply hate medicine.. panadols doesnt do the job for me anymore.. ponstant makes me a lazy bum.. 2 of them and i'm off to paradise..on bed. besides i'll be extremely ketar and just cannot concentrate.just cant afford it now.
my body's very warm but my feet and palms are cold.. and it's just a normal nite..
maybe when i'm done with my studying, makan jelah the ubat..then tido.. should call shaz n hetz to wake me up..in case..
hmm.. wat else..
faiz mailed asking for my address.. for raya card.. i guess i'll be receiving onelah then.. woohoo... record...
tak aci ah.. non dah dapat dua.. maybe he should get himself a christmas tree to hang those cards.. bila lagi nak berlagak orang putih..
eheh.. yeah right..!
cheers!
Tuesday, November 19, 2002
Dear Ying,
back after a long break.. (long ke?)
finance paper down.. two more to go..
been having problem sleeping lately..
am having fever now
been thinking a lot about me-jazmi.. wat a perfect time i chose to think about stuff like this..examexamexam..
been spending a lot on phone calls too..
jazmi, as usual.. refuse to talk about it..
'balik dulu.. we talk here later.. u exam dulu..'
that's wat he said.. which i think isnt a good idea..
once jumpa.. err..susahla..i dunno.. it'll be hard..
it has always been like that.. ee geramnya.. exam dulu.. tido dulu.. takyah pikir.. we talk later.. tido dulu.. i'm ok about everything.. blablabla..
am determined not to call for a while (not defining 'a while' here).. maybe that'll give him ample time to invite himself to think... and actually wanna talk about it
ah.. dah dah
went to the house agent just now.. submitted the paper.. logde my intention to leave form.. settle!
now.. khuzai n hetz are having friction over the room.. ish.. dunnolah how..
along, have to paid $900 gitu2 je.. because he's leaving early.. ish kesiannya..
(lagi kesian when he said he meant to belanja us.. before he leave.. but now.. maybe tak sure lagi..d'ohh!)
i intend to belanja non n along jugak.. one final round tgk movie using my concession card.. but along has to pack and move by Sunday.. and there's that bukak puasa thing on saturday at lizz's..
we planned to go to the sizzler's.. the only buffet serving that we can afford.. and not bad either..
alah.. later2.. mintak along blanja kat msia pun ok jugak kan..
and if i were to treat them in msia pun.. save cost woo...
just now apart from gi the agent, went to indorroo..
helped along belikan some girlie stuff for his sis.. girlie stuff-lipsticks n the likes.. which are even too girlie for me.. nasib baik jumpa..
sempat browse around to look for zetty's dress... found few.. cute ones... reasonable..
this saturdaylah probably..
told along nak pesan through him already
hmm..wat else..
disconnect my internet already.. scheduled for disconnection for my house phone..
called vodaphone to plan for disconnection 6 mths from now..
going to call irwan about the phone.. else.. along nak..(or so he says la..)
going to call ansar, nak bagi the books..
who else huh? sold the fridge to kuzai.. tv hetz nak.. meja heater non nak..
almost settle la..
shipment..probably post je.. just need to finalise a few details je
shah mailed..
tak jadi gi london.. they;re going europe tour instead..
lucky schmuggg!!
hmm..oklah kot.. later2..
i think need to take medicinela.. demam is getting worse i guess..
kerusi non pun dah panas ni .. eheehe :)
catch u later!
ta!
back after a long break.. (long ke?)
finance paper down.. two more to go..
been having problem sleeping lately..
am having fever now
been thinking a lot about me-jazmi.. wat a perfect time i chose to think about stuff like this..examexamexam..
been spending a lot on phone calls too..
jazmi, as usual.. refuse to talk about it..
'balik dulu.. we talk here later.. u exam dulu..'
that's wat he said.. which i think isnt a good idea..
once jumpa.. err..susahla..i dunno.. it'll be hard..
it has always been like that.. ee geramnya.. exam dulu.. tido dulu.. takyah pikir.. we talk later.. tido dulu.. i'm ok about everything.. blablabla..
am determined not to call for a while (not defining 'a while' here).. maybe that'll give him ample time to invite himself to think... and actually wanna talk about it
ah.. dah dah
went to the house agent just now.. submitted the paper.. logde my intention to leave form.. settle!
now.. khuzai n hetz are having friction over the room.. ish.. dunnolah how..
along, have to paid $900 gitu2 je.. because he's leaving early.. ish kesiannya..
(lagi kesian when he said he meant to belanja us.. before he leave.. but now.. maybe tak sure lagi..d'ohh!)
i intend to belanja non n along jugak.. one final round tgk movie using my concession card.. but along has to pack and move by Sunday.. and there's that bukak puasa thing on saturday at lizz's..
we planned to go to the sizzler's.. the only buffet serving that we can afford.. and not bad either..
alah.. later2.. mintak along blanja kat msia pun ok jugak kan..
and if i were to treat them in msia pun.. save cost woo...
just now apart from gi the agent, went to indorroo..
helped along belikan some girlie stuff for his sis.. girlie stuff-lipsticks n the likes.. which are even too girlie for me.. nasib baik jumpa..
sempat browse around to look for zetty's dress... found few.. cute ones... reasonable..
this saturdaylah probably..
told along nak pesan through him already
hmm..wat else..
disconnect my internet already.. scheduled for disconnection for my house phone..
called vodaphone to plan for disconnection 6 mths from now..
going to call irwan about the phone.. else.. along nak..(or so he says la..)
going to call ansar, nak bagi the books..
who else huh? sold the fridge to kuzai.. tv hetz nak.. meja heater non nak..
almost settle la..
shipment..probably post je.. just need to finalise a few details je
shah mailed..
tak jadi gi london.. they;re going europe tour instead..
lucky schmuggg!!
hmm..oklah kot.. later2..
i think need to take medicinela.. demam is getting worse i guess..
kerusi non pun dah panas ni .. eheehe :)
catch u later!
ta!
Friday, November 15, 2002
Dear Ying..
exam sucks.. big time..
and it's my time management this time.. panic last minute..
but topics covered semalam ngan along, alhamdulillah la jugak..
(those topics carry the lowest marks by the way.. to my dismay..sheeshh!)
anyway.. through my mental calculation just now.. i think it should be ok..
wateva it is i havent used my quota of 3s yet.. insyaAllah..
(isshhh... but still was bengang with the first quest that carried the most marks but was left to the last minutes thinking it was easy and at the end was left almost 50% unattempted due to panic..)
sabar ying.. dah lepas..
and alhamdulillah.. the fact that cover some nitty gritty part with along semalam helps jugaklah today..
so my pc is still not ok..
but i guess i cannot layan sangat kot..
next paper will be finance.. urghh.. berat otak dgr the word.. 'finance'..
got a lot to write (when i dont have the chance to) but dunno wat to say (now that i'm already here)
i guess later2 la..
just brain drain now..
oo.. wish me luck in changing my sleep patern..
since my next 3 papers will be at 8 am in the freaking morning..
sleeping at 4 everyday is suicide..
internet connection almost time out..
so i guess i shall be out of here...
out of here!
-i feel like an alien here..miss my Boy..
exam sucks.. big time..
and it's my time management this time.. panic last minute..
but topics covered semalam ngan along, alhamdulillah la jugak..
(those topics carry the lowest marks by the way.. to my dismay..sheeshh!)
anyway.. through my mental calculation just now.. i think it should be ok..
wateva it is i havent used my quota of 3s yet.. insyaAllah..
(isshhh... but still was bengang with the first quest that carried the most marks but was left to the last minutes thinking it was easy and at the end was left almost 50% unattempted due to panic..)
sabar ying.. dah lepas..
and alhamdulillah.. the fact that cover some nitty gritty part with along semalam helps jugaklah today..
so my pc is still not ok..
but i guess i cannot layan sangat kot..
next paper will be finance.. urghh.. berat otak dgr the word.. 'finance'..
got a lot to write (when i dont have the chance to) but dunno wat to say (now that i'm already here)
i guess later2 la..
just brain drain now..
oo.. wish me luck in changing my sleep patern..
since my next 3 papers will be at 8 am in the freaking morning..
sleeping at 4 everyday is suicide..
internet connection almost time out..
so i guess i shall be out of here...
out of here!
-i feel like an alien here..miss my Boy..
Thursday, November 14, 2002
Dear Ying,
blogging from non's pc again.. while he's cooking dinner for us.. kanak2 ade exam esok.. THX non..
Boy is back in the bag.. kemas all the speaker n printers as well..
baru ingat nak amik gambar my work station with my Boy there..
hari ni dah wrap up everything.. sedih sangat masa kemas2.. when everything is done.. oklah..maybe not so bad... at least i have some spare space on the desk..(yeah right..consoling).. then i realised.. no music!!!... all i can hear is the loud chinese slang outside.. thx to my 'international' housemates..
buat muka kesian kat non and along.. along lend his cd player.. bolehla.. it ont replace boy for sure.. but.. at least..
kalau nak amik gambar, later2 la.. saje, buat kenangan ..
i cannot bare looking at Boy on my study desk.. lifeless..
'Boy' dah try to fix Boy..
pun takleh..
he said Boy tak coma..demam je..
but kena betulkan the CDRom drive tu dulu.. ish..
balik nantila..
maybe betulla apa along cakap.. kena stop namakan my fav stuff 'Boy'..mcm suwey je..(wateva that means...hmm..)
yelah.. my printer.. my gold fish.. semua nama boy and semua errk..
i guess i've just have to bare with it.. for a month!!!!
still feeling upset.. will be till it's ok..
anyway, if u guys wanna insight of wat i feel now..
rasa mcm baru break dgn bf.... seriously..
feel incomplete n tak senang duduk.. lost.. one big whole in my life.. haa...
like your life system/routine is left to its very minimal..
cant wait to go to sydney..
anyway, shaz's here to sama2 do the touch up for acc...konon touch up.. study gitugitu ade hati nak touch up..
lots to do for tomorrow's paper..biasala.. (nasib baik gak..)
ok..kena pasang blenderla pulak.. alahai non..
ta!
blogging from non's pc again.. while he's cooking dinner for us.. kanak2 ade exam esok.. THX non..
Boy is back in the bag.. kemas all the speaker n printers as well..
baru ingat nak amik gambar my work station with my Boy there..
hari ni dah wrap up everything.. sedih sangat masa kemas2.. when everything is done.. oklah..maybe not so bad... at least i have some spare space on the desk..(yeah right..consoling).. then i realised.. no music!!!... all i can hear is the loud chinese slang outside.. thx to my 'international' housemates..
buat muka kesian kat non and along.. along lend his cd player.. bolehla.. it ont replace boy for sure.. but.. at least..
kalau nak amik gambar, later2 la.. saje, buat kenangan ..
i cannot bare looking at Boy on my study desk.. lifeless..
'Boy' dah try to fix Boy..
pun takleh..
he said Boy tak coma..demam je..
but kena betulkan the CDRom drive tu dulu.. ish..
balik nantila..
maybe betulla apa along cakap.. kena stop namakan my fav stuff 'Boy'..mcm suwey je..(wateva that means...hmm..)
yelah.. my printer.. my gold fish.. semua nama boy and semua errk..
i guess i've just have to bare with it.. for a month!!!!
still feeling upset.. will be till it's ok..
anyway, if u guys wanna insight of wat i feel now..
rasa mcm baru break dgn bf.... seriously..
feel incomplete n tak senang duduk.. lost.. one big whole in my life.. haa...
like your life system/routine is left to its very minimal..
cant wait to go to sydney..
anyway, shaz's here to sama2 do the touch up for acc...konon touch up.. study gitugitu ade hati nak touch up..
lots to do for tomorrow's paper..biasala.. (nasib baik gak..)
ok..kena pasang blenderla pulak.. alahai non..
ta!
dear ying
blogging from non's computer..
my Boy is in a comatose state now..
i am sad.. but not much time for whining.. since exam is tomorrow.. and the hantu gua is finally out of his gua,asking some questions.. freaking me out as expected..
shaz will be coming in a shrt while
havent bathed and need to kemas bilik kejap..
tension maut with my (notebook) fate..
just called Asus.. they dont cover software warranty..
darn darn darn!!!!
received techincal support from msian and spore to no avail..
papa has given me the green light to do wateva i want/can with it..
even if it's not covereb by warranty..
i guess he understands where the notebook stands in my life heirarchy..,
anyway, got to go..
another attempt to selamatkan Boy..
with Boy the hnatu gua to help my Boy.. mintak2 bolehlaa...
anyway,
thanks a lot Jazlan and Adi.. even though the tech support tak fruitfull.. it somehow gave me some moral n emo support as well.. (yes, i am that affected.. the whole dream last nite was about my pc...)
never expected your guys called..
now i understand.. computer2 ni is such great passion to many kan??
speaking of which..along mintak tgk the computer.. another attempt as i said..
i'm almost determine to bungkus je pc tu dah..
nak balik dah..
ok,ok
got to run..
ta!
adi...jazlan.. jazmi.. thx again...
blogging from non's computer..
my Boy is in a comatose state now..
i am sad.. but not much time for whining.. since exam is tomorrow.. and the hantu gua is finally out of his gua,asking some questions.. freaking me out as expected..
shaz will be coming in a shrt while
havent bathed and need to kemas bilik kejap..
tension maut with my (notebook) fate..
just called Asus.. they dont cover software warranty..
darn darn darn!!!!
received techincal support from msian and spore to no avail..
papa has given me the green light to do wateva i want/can with it..
even if it's not covereb by warranty..
i guess he understands where the notebook stands in my life heirarchy..,
anyway, got to go..
another attempt to selamatkan Boy..
with Boy the hnatu gua to help my Boy.. mintak2 bolehlaa...
anyway,
thanks a lot Jazlan and Adi.. even though the tech support tak fruitfull.. it somehow gave me some moral n emo support as well.. (yes, i am that affected.. the whole dream last nite was about my pc...)
never expected your guys called..
now i understand.. computer2 ni is such great passion to many kan??
speaking of which..along mintak tgk the computer.. another attempt as i said..
i'm almost determine to bungkus je pc tu dah..
nak balik dah..
ok,ok
got to run..
ta!
adi...jazlan.. jazmi.. thx again...
Wednesday, November 13, 2002
hi ying,
came across a few journals which have been abandoned for days, weeks... since the authors are busy with exams and assignments..
well.. totally the opposite is happening here...
as the exam inch closer i find this blog is the most interesting place to be..(exclusively applicable to me only, i'm sure)
tak kisah la.. as long as study jalan.. if this helps ..y not..
speaking of study..
this 'minah study' (pls refer adi) has finally managed to put aside her acc notes for a while.. for a very short while actually..
finally khatam jugak.. but not too confident with the real pracs..takpelah..later later..
now tgh 'indulge' in finance.. which suddenly makes more sense after few days of accounts, journals, balance sheets and profitloss statements..
after 4 months belajar this thing baru tau wat is binomial, expectation pricing and black scholes.. seriously..despite the fact that the lecturer has been mentioning it trillion times..
ok, enuff, enuff.. minah study konon... if i were one.. then i wouldnt be mentioning every bit that i've accomplished.. it'll be a routine of some kind..ni nampak sgt ah.. habis satu topik.riuh sekampung..
ehehe..so shaz, cool it (heard from hetz that u were intimidated by these ramblings.. seriously.. u know me better)
besides studying (cheyyyy!!) i was busy browsing around other journals today (yeah yeah.. wat else is new)
came across cool ones.. (cool ones : many ideas, own identity)
though i sense pretense in some.. almost like mentioning stuff for read sake, rather than write sake.. (forget it)
YB lalat, budak mana ntah, another budak mana ntah
i dunno.. maybe it was just a cruel accusation.. u go see for yourself then..
i think maybe later i'd put a list of links that i think is cool to me.. honest ones.. and those poser ones.. saje.. pastu habis aku kena tabur!! saje.. it's exam season.. this kind of shit should be permitted.
but, to think of it..
is mine any good in the first place..
tak kisah la.. bukan nak masuk those 'best web' contest or.. best journal.. wateva..
never, never occur to me..
dont even have a hit counter pun..
and not planning to have one either..
hmm..wat else..(starting to sound like shah.. yes.. it can get irritating if that's ur overuse phrase)
tadi makan pasta.. and will be having the same thing for sahur..
along n non makan sub n sandwich..
waaa... sakan bukak puasa kat oversea.. yeah right
i bet we'll be back to nasik in no time..
rasa nak makan cucur udangla pulak..
hmmm....i guess tomorrow u'll see me walking to coles for udang.. and tepung.. n chives.. n chilli..
ala...byk songeh la pulak.. ni malas ni..
thought just wanna finish my 'stock' and not buy anything dah... but ying got to do (buy n cook) wat ying want to do (eat)
havent Isya' yet ni.. terawikh lagila kan..
finished 1st juz just now..
macam terkorban je malam ni.. isyak dah la kot.. ehehe.. err..apedaa..
irwan called just now.. borak2 kosong..
which reminds me i need to send in my choice of company placement..
err.. how ah?? really clueless.. consulted papa to no avail.. he said semua company renong tak guna dah.. oh thanks for the help pa!
will mail dr ikmal tomorrow.. just to 'casually' ask about the cos.. perhaps that'll shed some light..
but looking at situation now..if dapat in any of the co... that'll be good enough..
seriously not looking fwd to cari kerja.. wish renong have some vacancy for the few of us.. at least 5 yrs guaranteed.. and it'll look nice on my resume later.. wateva is happening to renong.. at least ppl has recognised its name..
plus.. really dont want to get start of in papa's co immediately.. let it be somewhere for me to settle down forever.. meanwhile.. gauge experience elsewhere..
afterall i guess it's too risky to get involved now.. the co is still young and the whole family is depending on the same source.. papa, mama..abe..
eh ...laaa..
dah 2.30 am..
was thinking about calling jazmi.. hasnt called him for err.. 3 days.. maybe after my self interrogation that day.. (ok drop it)
and tak semayang lagi.. sahur lagi..
ish.. luckily i noticed now..
since i can go on typing forever.. and miss my isya' n sahur while at it..
hahah.. that'll b a story to tell ..
oklah..
ying has left
came across a few journals which have been abandoned for days, weeks... since the authors are busy with exams and assignments..
well.. totally the opposite is happening here...
as the exam inch closer i find this blog is the most interesting place to be..(exclusively applicable to me only, i'm sure)
tak kisah la.. as long as study jalan.. if this helps ..y not..
speaking of study..
this 'minah study' (pls refer adi) has finally managed to put aside her acc notes for a while.. for a very short while actually..
finally khatam jugak.. but not too confident with the real pracs..takpelah..later later..
now tgh 'indulge' in finance.. which suddenly makes more sense after few days of accounts, journals, balance sheets and profitloss statements..
after 4 months belajar this thing baru tau wat is binomial, expectation pricing and black scholes.. seriously..despite the fact that the lecturer has been mentioning it trillion times..
ok, enuff, enuff.. minah study konon... if i were one.. then i wouldnt be mentioning every bit that i've accomplished.. it'll be a routine of some kind..ni nampak sgt ah.. habis satu topik.riuh sekampung..
ehehe..so shaz, cool it (heard from hetz that u were intimidated by these ramblings.. seriously.. u know me better)
besides studying (cheyyyy!!) i was busy browsing around other journals today (yeah yeah.. wat else is new)
came across cool ones.. (cool ones : many ideas, own identity)
though i sense pretense in some.. almost like mentioning stuff for read sake, rather than write sake.. (forget it)
YB lalat, budak mana ntah, another budak mana ntah
i dunno.. maybe it was just a cruel accusation.. u go see for yourself then..
i think maybe later i'd put a list of links that i think is cool to me.. honest ones.. and those poser ones.. saje.. pastu habis aku kena tabur!! saje.. it's exam season.. this kind of shit should be permitted.
but, to think of it..
is mine any good in the first place..
tak kisah la.. bukan nak masuk those 'best web' contest or.. best journal.. wateva..
never, never occur to me..
dont even have a hit counter pun..
and not planning to have one either..
hmm..wat else..(starting to sound like shah.. yes.. it can get irritating if that's ur overuse phrase)
tadi makan pasta.. and will be having the same thing for sahur..
along n non makan sub n sandwich..
waaa... sakan bukak puasa kat oversea.. yeah right
i bet we'll be back to nasik in no time..
rasa nak makan cucur udangla pulak..
hmmm....i guess tomorrow u'll see me walking to coles for udang.. and tepung.. n chives.. n chilli..
ala...byk songeh la pulak.. ni malas ni..
thought just wanna finish my 'stock' and not buy anything dah... but ying got to do (buy n cook) wat ying want to do (eat)
havent Isya' yet ni.. terawikh lagila kan..
finished 1st juz just now..
macam terkorban je malam ni.. isyak dah la kot.. ehehe.. err..apedaa..
irwan called just now.. borak2 kosong..
which reminds me i need to send in my choice of company placement..
err.. how ah?? really clueless.. consulted papa to no avail.. he said semua company renong tak guna dah.. oh thanks for the help pa!
will mail dr ikmal tomorrow.. just to 'casually' ask about the cos.. perhaps that'll shed some light..
but looking at situation now..if dapat in any of the co... that'll be good enough..
seriously not looking fwd to cari kerja.. wish renong have some vacancy for the few of us.. at least 5 yrs guaranteed.. and it'll look nice on my resume later.. wateva is happening to renong.. at least ppl has recognised its name..
plus.. really dont want to get start of in papa's co immediately.. let it be somewhere for me to settle down forever.. meanwhile.. gauge experience elsewhere..
afterall i guess it's too risky to get involved now.. the co is still young and the whole family is depending on the same source.. papa, mama..abe..
eh ...laaa..
dah 2.30 am..
was thinking about calling jazmi.. hasnt called him for err.. 3 days.. maybe after my self interrogation that day.. (ok drop it)
and tak semayang lagi.. sahur lagi..
ish.. luckily i noticed now..
since i can go on typing forever.. and miss my isya' n sahur while at it..
hahah.. that'll b a story to tell ..
oklah..
ying has left
Tuesday, November 12, 2002
hi ying..
another great day i must say..
though it's just 5.19pm.. i can sense it'll be a very fruitful n cool day
the weather to start with... is just very beautiful..
almost like a scene in a movie or something..
mild wind.. cool temparature.. birds chirping.. and sun..just enough to warm the day.. birds chirping.. and the smell of fresh grass.. (really..not exagerating)
*sigh.. wish my family's here..
now bila ingat balik msia.. the fumes n all... nasib baik stay at 16th floor..somehow, psychologically feel it's cleaner up there.. could b the total reverse actually..
ish.. internet connection almost time out dah..
will update later, after berbuka..
berbuka..
wat to eat aa? maybe pasta la today...the sauces byk lagi.. cream ke bolognaise??
kalau pikir now, semua nak..
ish.. oklah..
see u later..
ta!
another great day i must say..
though it's just 5.19pm.. i can sense it'll be a very fruitful n cool day
the weather to start with... is just very beautiful..
almost like a scene in a movie or something..
mild wind.. cool temparature.. birds chirping.. and sun..just enough to warm the day.. birds chirping.. and the smell of fresh grass.. (really..not exagerating)
*sigh.. wish my family's here..
now bila ingat balik msia.. the fumes n all... nasib baik stay at 16th floor..somehow, psychologically feel it's cleaner up there.. could b the total reverse actually..
ish.. internet connection almost time out dah..
will update later, after berbuka..
berbuka..
wat to eat aa? maybe pasta la today...the sauces byk lagi.. cream ke bolognaise??
kalau pikir now, semua nak..
ish.. oklah..
see u later..
ta!
Monday, November 11, 2002
dear ying..
it's 1.37 am.. and i'm hungry..
another hour baru makan la kot..
still going thru my JV notes.. done with the text book.. next lecture note.. then the tutes..
i'm quite sure the tutes will only be tomorrow..
hmm.. nak makan apa for sahur?
was thinking bread again.. ke maggi.. malas ah maggi ni.. kang kembung lagi.. maggi to me = angin..
goreng telur, baked beans... roti..
hmm.. ok gak kot..
ok.. settle..
hmm.. nak call jazmi ke tak?
maybe i'll give him a call kejap..
been meaning to call farez.. but always remember a little too late..
hope he'll do ok in his next paper..
dear God.. bless his effort.. i'm sure he has put his best..
tadi call khuzai.. his bday today..
he sounds a bit down.. or maybe just tired..
today has been great..
it rained.. yes.. as i wish..
finally defrosted my fridge.. after it successfully built a huge block of ice in the freezer compartment (with all my ayam n daging in it)
tomorrow maybe i'll do a bit of cleaning up... buang mana patut..
maybe tak jadi go to uni afterall.. since i think i'll start early tomorrow.. sbb heaps to cover..
probably go to coles later.. if shaz not coming to study that JV part.. does not matter.. no rush pun..
4 episodes of sex in the city..back to back .. can be a bit too much..
was yawning through the last one..
but yeah.. it was something.. better than any movie i've watched for the past few weeks..
yeah.. that includes Talented Mr Ripley.. which manage to change my perception about Mr Matt...
alah..it's just his character in that film.. meaning he played it well la kot.. sbb it almost make me pull down his poster off my bedroom wall..
maybe i'll just pull it down anyway.. ntah.. malu ah tgk dia n dia tgk balik.. (wat the??)
susah susah.. ngan org tak hensem mcm tu pun boleh prasaan prasaan mcm ni..
half way through 1st juzuk..
sayu jugak semayang terawikh sorang2 tadi.. ntah.. it was THAT feeling again... sayu semacam... tak kisah ah bukak puasa maggi ke..roti ke.. but if semayang terawikh sorang2.. terus rasa lain mcm.. tak best punya lain mcm...
hmm.. takpelah ying... nak balik dah..
oklah..
better go now..
banyak nak cover lagi ni..
tak habis yg ni.. takleh continue finance..(looking fwd to this one actualy)
Thank God for the great day
nite
it's 1.37 am.. and i'm hungry..
another hour baru makan la kot..
still going thru my JV notes.. done with the text book.. next lecture note.. then the tutes..
i'm quite sure the tutes will only be tomorrow..
hmm.. nak makan apa for sahur?
was thinking bread again.. ke maggi.. malas ah maggi ni.. kang kembung lagi.. maggi to me = angin..
goreng telur, baked beans... roti..
hmm.. ok gak kot..
ok.. settle..
hmm.. nak call jazmi ke tak?
maybe i'll give him a call kejap..
been meaning to call farez.. but always remember a little too late..
hope he'll do ok in his next paper..
dear God.. bless his effort.. i'm sure he has put his best..
tadi call khuzai.. his bday today..
he sounds a bit down.. or maybe just tired..
today has been great..
it rained.. yes.. as i wish..
finally defrosted my fridge.. after it successfully built a huge block of ice in the freezer compartment (with all my ayam n daging in it)
tomorrow maybe i'll do a bit of cleaning up... buang mana patut..
maybe tak jadi go to uni afterall.. since i think i'll start early tomorrow.. sbb heaps to cover..
probably go to coles later.. if shaz not coming to study that JV part.. does not matter.. no rush pun..
4 episodes of sex in the city..back to back .. can be a bit too much..
was yawning through the last one..
but yeah.. it was something.. better than any movie i've watched for the past few weeks..
yeah.. that includes Talented Mr Ripley.. which manage to change my perception about Mr Matt...
alah..it's just his character in that film.. meaning he played it well la kot.. sbb it almost make me pull down his poster off my bedroom wall..
maybe i'll just pull it down anyway.. ntah.. malu ah tgk dia n dia tgk balik.. (wat the??)
susah susah.. ngan org tak hensem mcm tu pun boleh prasaan prasaan mcm ni..
half way through 1st juzuk..
sayu jugak semayang terawikh sorang2 tadi.. ntah.. it was THAT feeling again... sayu semacam... tak kisah ah bukak puasa maggi ke..roti ke.. but if semayang terawikh sorang2.. terus rasa lain mcm.. tak best punya lain mcm...
hmm.. takpelah ying... nak balik dah..
oklah..
better go now..
banyak nak cover lagi ni..
tak habis yg ni.. takleh continue finance..(looking fwd to this one actualy)
Thank God for the great day
nite
dear ying...
woke up at 11.30am..
despite going to bed only at 6am this morning..
going thru the JV chapter now..
should finish before berbuka..
since determined to finally start terawikh and Quran today..
plus there's 4 x Sex in the City tonight..
i dont think i can do much as far as academic is concern tonite..
emmm.. almost 4pm already
nak makan apa ek?
was thinking of that thousand years old chicken fillet in the fridge..
marinate with bbq sauce, grill..makan ngan roti.. best gak ek..
melted cheese n mushroom.. think i still have some mushroom left..
teringat swiss mushroom burger king.. bukan suka sgt pun... but biasala.. bila takde baru nak..(humanly enough..that goes for everything in life)
aaa... bolehla kot, ok.. menu settle.. err.. automatically feeling hungry now..
havent write to farez yet..
better do it today..
tomorrow if weather ok.. thinking of going to uni.. jumpa tutor to clarify some stuff.. quite a list.. takpe.. jumpa sekaligus..
then can go borrow that mktg book.. and send the aerogram to farez..
if weather permits
speaking of weather..
today is really cool.. tak panas sgt.. very windy.. cerah yet a bit gloomy..
a little bit of everything..
i hope it rain tonight.. lama tak rasa bestnya hujan malam...
currently listening to sergio mendes.. dloaded quite a collection..
balik msia nak beli cd writer ah..
yup..first thing to do sampai2 je malaysia.. besides nasik lemak mamak n satay
send Boy (introduce:mydearestnotebook) for thorough service.. maybe upgrade sikit..(nak mende lagi ni??)
you've done well Boy!!
if there's one boy i will ever be sure of loving n living with for the rest of my life.. this is it.. THE Boy! (ok..let's not go into this)
papa's online.. tegur jap ah
which reminds me.. cash is running low (ee..shame on u)
oh yeah..had series of dreams about belanjaing various frens of mine..
something i enjoy doing.. yet only feasible in malaysia..
insyaAllah
ok.. JV continued..
ta!
woke up at 11.30am..
despite going to bed only at 6am this morning..
going thru the JV chapter now..
should finish before berbuka..
since determined to finally start terawikh and Quran today..
plus there's 4 x Sex in the City tonight..
i dont think i can do much as far as academic is concern tonite..
emmm.. almost 4pm already
nak makan apa ek?
was thinking of that thousand years old chicken fillet in the fridge..
marinate with bbq sauce, grill..makan ngan roti.. best gak ek..
melted cheese n mushroom.. think i still have some mushroom left..
teringat swiss mushroom burger king.. bukan suka sgt pun... but biasala.. bila takde baru nak..(humanly enough..that goes for everything in life)
aaa... bolehla kot, ok.. menu settle.. err.. automatically feeling hungry now..
havent write to farez yet..
better do it today..
tomorrow if weather ok.. thinking of going to uni.. jumpa tutor to clarify some stuff.. quite a list.. takpe.. jumpa sekaligus..
then can go borrow that mktg book.. and send the aerogram to farez..
if weather permits
speaking of weather..
today is really cool.. tak panas sgt.. very windy.. cerah yet a bit gloomy..
a little bit of everything..
i hope it rain tonight.. lama tak rasa bestnya hujan malam...
currently listening to sergio mendes.. dloaded quite a collection..
balik msia nak beli cd writer ah..
yup..first thing to do sampai2 je malaysia.. besides nasik lemak mamak n satay
send Boy (introduce:mydearestnotebook) for thorough service.. maybe upgrade sikit..(nak mende lagi ni??)
you've done well Boy!!
if there's one boy i will ever be sure of loving n living with for the rest of my life.. this is it.. THE Boy! (ok..let's not go into this)
papa's online.. tegur jap ah
which reminds me.. cash is running low (ee..shame on u)
oh yeah..had series of dreams about belanjaing various frens of mine..
something i enjoy doing.. yet only feasible in malaysia..
insyaAllah
ok.. JV continued..
ta!
WARNING : VERY LONG ENTRY WITH NO SENSE AT ALL. DO CONSIDER LEAVING
hi ying..
baru lepas sahur..
ate last nite's dinner..
had dinner with along, non n hetz.. non's bday.. 27.. happy bday warden!
cooked telur bungkus, n sayur goreng.. n non cooked his ayam kicap..
oklah.. kenyang.. puas hati
then later we brought him bday cake.. nyanyi.. makan..(lagi)
went to city.. as planned.. with hetz
been a very good girl..
all i got for myself is that printer cartridge.. and that's it..
from 12-5.. loitering around city.. MYER centre.. wintergarden.. tried this.. tried that..
window shopping sewindow shoppingnya...
God it's hot today..
(wonder wat's waiting in the world hereafter...err...)
revision updates.. none..
well started on JV.. but dont think can finish it tonite..
wateva it is.. by tomorrow should be done with accounting..
since barely half way through with finance..
and it's finance that i'm more concerned about..
monday JV
tues chapt 7 & 8 finance..
wed chapt 9
thurs acc review..
fri paper..
then on can start doing my finc extra quest..COOL..
planning jelah ni..
it's 3.43 am ..suppose to be studying if not sleeping.. but here i am, doing neither..and nothing
hetz putting a nite here.. and she has put her nite quite soundly already
feel weird..(nothing new)
suddenly feel bad about jazmi n me..
somehow feel i should really consider stuff seriously..(well... as if i'm playing games here)
am i really in love with him...or is it just the idea of having him around that i'm in love with..
am i just hanging by till a better person comes around..
JAHATNYAA..
am i really in love with him? though things happened in just a blink of time.. i know i'm not fooling around with him..
cos it was not all bed of roses anyway.. susah nak plan kluar since he doesnt drive.. he works late at times.. which limits our phonecalls n outings too..
i dont think i'm taking advantage of him in terms of material.. we take turns paying bills.. he never get me any expensive gift pun.. and i spend on him sikit jugak..
we were very dependent on each other.. yet mutually exclusive.. phonecalls are a must but none wont kill.. (?..hmm)
how do i know if i love him.. or is it just like any other 'likes' that i've experienced..
well.. till now.. he's the last person i think abt before dozing off..
and the first when i wake up..
whenever something significant happen (no matter wat degree of significance.. more like evrything)
i want him to be the first to know..
this is getting a bit.. err.. karat.. but when i think of my 'little yings'.. i thought of 'jazmi juniors' as well.. (trying to put this as subtle as possible)
when i was away holidaying.. besides family.. i wish he was around ..
it sucks whenever at the beach.. how he loves the beach.. wanna house tepi laut and all.. how i wanna have him around then..
i never stop dreaming of him..
no matter how i tremble whenever i received shah's mail..
or how affected i am by 'the fren' whom i claim i like so much.. jazmi jugak that appear in my dream at night..
been trying to ignore it.. but now it doesnt take much effort to realise that he's 'with me' everyday..
his name is almost in each entry in this journal anyway.. couldnt be more obviouslah!
if it was infatuation, it should be over by now.. obsession? should kill me by now..
why after almost 9 months.. i am worried about it now..
why not when i was replying shah's emailssss
y not when i was so absorbed in my admiration towards mr (i thought) perfect..
maybe sebab wat has happen kot.. mailed shah, talked to him..went out with him.. pressure from papa n mama.. from everyone back home.. still.. tak terbukak hati..
i thought..would it be any different if he was taller.. bigger.. maybe not.. it's him that i'm not attracted to .. not his height or wateva..ntah..i couldnt imagine waking up next to him for the rest of my life.. i can maybe.. but eee.. wat an empty life.. dont get me wrong .. he's ok.. but i'm not..ehhe.. wat else can i say anyway..
now, if win was that shah's height... dah different story jugak kot..(i might not even be stuck here blurting this confusion out..eheheh..let's not include another variable here), so it wasnt really his height..
so.. it's him.. and when compared (wat a word to use) with jazmi.. he is better off in many sense.. family background-familiar n keen...academic-similar...look-he has better look..have to admit..the kind that i'd go for.. (maybe i was wrong afterall..).. job security-confirm... hartabendawangringgit-goes without saying...
then pesal i'm stuck thinking about jazmi when this shah dah ade everything i need..
maybe wants n needs differ here..
maybe i'm not in love with shah full stop.. and i am with jazmi..(?) ..
is it that simple? cannot be..
then there's this mr almost perfect..which has denied me in a perfect way... couldnt ask for better.. : )
been telling jazmi about him.. to his approval.. and keen inquiries..
but then, when i felt bad about this perfect guy telling me about pursuing his perfect girl.. it occurs to me that i might be hurting jazmi the same way..if not worse..
which made me feel even worse.. felt that i've no business complaining about how hurt i am by this guy when i am doing the same thing to jazmi.. whom i claim to still care a lot about ( i really do)
well... i could have been as insensitive as my dearest and didnt realise this.. but i did..
is that a justification for the strong word l.o.v.e? i dont think so.. i dunno wat i'm trying to say here..
i know..
once one starts having doubts about his/her feelings..
then maybe it's not it..
but if it's love.. then are we not allowed to question/doubt it just for the sake of reality check..?
really confused..
and dont want to go on closing one eye to this matter anymore..
i know.. makin lama.. makin teruk.. if it ends on a bitter note..
my instinct says.. this is not meant to be.. leave him before u hurt him even more
my heart says.. u very much so like him an extra lot bit.. and u know that
i say.. i need to sleep.. (another day of 'sleeping on it' wont cause much difference i guess)
good nite..
and the sun is rising outside..
p/s: shaz, hetz... (and those who know my batang hidung)..if u're reading.. u're not.. OK?cool..
hi ying..
baru lepas sahur..
ate last nite's dinner..
had dinner with along, non n hetz.. non's bday.. 27.. happy bday warden!
cooked telur bungkus, n sayur goreng.. n non cooked his ayam kicap..
oklah.. kenyang.. puas hati
then later we brought him bday cake.. nyanyi.. makan..(lagi)
went to city.. as planned.. with hetz
been a very good girl..
all i got for myself is that printer cartridge.. and that's it..
from 12-5.. loitering around city.. MYER centre.. wintergarden.. tried this.. tried that..
window shopping sewindow shoppingnya...
God it's hot today..
(wonder wat's waiting in the world hereafter...err...)
revision updates.. none..
well started on JV.. but dont think can finish it tonite..
wateva it is.. by tomorrow should be done with accounting..
since barely half way through with finance..
and it's finance that i'm more concerned about..
monday JV
tues chapt 7 & 8 finance..
wed chapt 9
thurs acc review..
fri paper..
then on can start doing my finc extra quest..COOL..
planning jelah ni..
it's 3.43 am ..suppose to be studying if not sleeping.. but here i am, doing neither..and nothing
hetz putting a nite here.. and she has put her nite quite soundly already
feel weird..(nothing new)
suddenly feel bad about jazmi n me..
somehow feel i should really consider stuff seriously..(well... as if i'm playing games here)
am i really in love with him...or is it just the idea of having him around that i'm in love with..
am i just hanging by till a better person comes around..
JAHATNYAA..
am i really in love with him? though things happened in just a blink of time.. i know i'm not fooling around with him..
cos it was not all bed of roses anyway.. susah nak plan kluar since he doesnt drive.. he works late at times.. which limits our phonecalls n outings too..
i dont think i'm taking advantage of him in terms of material.. we take turns paying bills.. he never get me any expensive gift pun.. and i spend on him sikit jugak..
we were very dependent on each other.. yet mutually exclusive.. phonecalls are a must but none wont kill.. (?..hmm)
how do i know if i love him.. or is it just like any other 'likes' that i've experienced..
well.. till now.. he's the last person i think abt before dozing off..
and the first when i wake up..
whenever something significant happen (no matter wat degree of significance.. more like evrything)
i want him to be the first to know..
this is getting a bit.. err.. karat.. but when i think of my 'little yings'.. i thought of 'jazmi juniors' as well.. (trying to put this as subtle as possible)
when i was away holidaying.. besides family.. i wish he was around ..
it sucks whenever at the beach.. how he loves the beach.. wanna house tepi laut and all.. how i wanna have him around then..
i never stop dreaming of him..
no matter how i tremble whenever i received shah's mail..
or how affected i am by 'the fren' whom i claim i like so much.. jazmi jugak that appear in my dream at night..
been trying to ignore it.. but now it doesnt take much effort to realise that he's 'with me' everyday..
his name is almost in each entry in this journal anyway.. couldnt be more obviouslah!
if it was infatuation, it should be over by now.. obsession? should kill me by now..
why after almost 9 months.. i am worried about it now..
why not when i was replying shah's emailssss
y not when i was so absorbed in my admiration towards mr (i thought) perfect..
maybe sebab wat has happen kot.. mailed shah, talked to him..went out with him.. pressure from papa n mama.. from everyone back home.. still.. tak terbukak hati..
i thought..would it be any different if he was taller.. bigger.. maybe not.. it's him that i'm not attracted to .. not his height or wateva..ntah..i couldnt imagine waking up next to him for the rest of my life.. i can maybe.. but eee.. wat an empty life.. dont get me wrong .. he's ok.. but i'm not..ehhe.. wat else can i say anyway..
now, if win was that shah's height... dah different story jugak kot..(i might not even be stuck here blurting this confusion out..eheheh..let's not include another variable here), so it wasnt really his height..
so.. it's him.. and when compared (wat a word to use) with jazmi.. he is better off in many sense.. family background-familiar n keen...academic-similar...look-he has better look..have to admit..the kind that i'd go for.. (maybe i was wrong afterall..).. job security-confirm... hartabendawangringgit-goes without saying...
then pesal i'm stuck thinking about jazmi when this shah dah ade everything i need..
maybe wants n needs differ here..
maybe i'm not in love with shah full stop.. and i am with jazmi..(?) ..
is it that simple? cannot be..
then there's this mr almost perfect..which has denied me in a perfect way... couldnt ask for better.. : )
been telling jazmi about him.. to his approval.. and keen inquiries..
but then, when i felt bad about this perfect guy telling me about pursuing his perfect girl.. it occurs to me that i might be hurting jazmi the same way..if not worse..
which made me feel even worse.. felt that i've no business complaining about how hurt i am by this guy when i am doing the same thing to jazmi.. whom i claim to still care a lot about ( i really do)
well... i could have been as insensitive as my dearest and didnt realise this.. but i did..
is that a justification for the strong word l.o.v.e? i dont think so.. i dunno wat i'm trying to say here..
i know..
once one starts having doubts about his/her feelings..
then maybe it's not it..
but if it's love.. then are we not allowed to question/doubt it just for the sake of reality check..?
really confused..
and dont want to go on closing one eye to this matter anymore..
i know.. makin lama.. makin teruk.. if it ends on a bitter note..
my instinct says.. this is not meant to be.. leave him before u hurt him even more
my heart says.. u very much so like him an extra lot bit.. and u know that
i say.. i need to sleep.. (another day of 'sleeping on it' wont cause much difference i guess)
good nite..
and the sun is rising outside..
p/s: shaz, hetz... (and those who know my batang hidung)..if u're reading.. u're not.. OK?cool..
Saturday, November 09, 2002
hi ying
feeling very 'sticky' now..
perhaps the weather... nak mandi jap lagi..
but brian's showering..
later la..
nak study tak masuk dah..
feeling very weird today..
perhaps sbb i was 'forced' to break fast at 5.50 on my first day of fasting.. darn!!
since i'm aware some are reading this.. i shall not go into details.. (but it's my journal for heaven's sake..lantaklah)
anyhow.. cooked some mee hoon just now.. sama sibuk dgn non n along yg puasa..
saje.. action mesti ada..
downloaded few verses of Quran and some zikir..
seriously reminded of KYS.. missed fasting there actually.. at least it's better than here..
the break fast.. ramai2.. meriah gak la.. then sahur with hundreds of zombies..
i will NEVER forget the trick they (dining hall people) use to wake us up.. let me say, thank God i'm still alive after those wake up calls..
they took the word 'kejutkan' too seriously i guess..
qiamulail is another memorable activity... with special menu (read: sate) as sahur..
actually.. i've quite a diverse fond memories of the fasting month..
anyway..FINALLY paham jugak this equity chapter.. or so i think..
havent done the tutorials yet though..maybe after shower..
i think gonna start on JV tonite..
i really think i should go to city tomorrow..
was doing some mental calculation while showering just now..( i must admit, shower time is my most productive and analytical time)
allowance will only be in on 17th..or so they say..
a week to that.. and i'm left with..
err... reallyreally minimal.. allocated some for my phonecalls.. i think this phone expense is really eating me uplaa..
tak kisah la.. no regrets.. think company would do me more good than food these days..
that's y thinking of going to city tomorrow..since i can go on off peak saver.. well.. it makes a differencelah!
note: need to buy printer cartridge.. print tute solutions n lecture notes.. yes...when it's just a week b4 exam..
how do u actually live on $10..?
i wonder, having read adi's journal..
till now i havent experienced anything that bad.. close though..when i was left with -$24.50 in my account last semester.. but my allowance arrived 2 days after that..
does that count?? i think it does.. it's quite a story to tell.. 'i used to live on a negative bank balance..'
something similar is about to happen soon i guess..
but this time, thanks to my collection of $2 coins.. i can buy a pair..or 2 of that typical adidas loafers if i want.. with wat i've collected..
was actually planning to buy something for keepsake using that money..
just to remind me how diligent i was in refraining myself from using those small cute $2 coins..
well..it pays i guess..
but now.. i guess it'll have to be used to pay my rent.. tension betul..baru nak sentimental with myself..
if Renong's punctual..then i'm finela.. but err.. not putting much hope on them..stdlaa..
eh..pelik!..
i'm feeling hungry.. at at 6.30..only 6 hrs..
is this justified??
reallyla.. my stomach is howling n growling already... err... tak logik nak makan now.. mcm esok puasa pun..
or should i just sahur n try my luck again tomorrow..
but takkan nak sahur now..
life is tough n complicated : )
esok bday non..
dunno wat to do/give
y must everyone's bday fall during the exam season..
well.. y should i question..ehehe...
oklah..mandi la kot..
then call jazmi jap..
then sambung JV...
or sambung JV dulu..
then call J..
sambung dulu aa..
then baru call J..
kang tak tercontrol lak timing..
mandi dulu ying..mandi dulu..
then makan..ehehe
(who's that??)
feeling very 'sticky' now..
perhaps the weather... nak mandi jap lagi..
but brian's showering..
later la..
nak study tak masuk dah..
feeling very weird today..
perhaps sbb i was 'forced' to break fast at 5.50 on my first day of fasting.. darn!!
since i'm aware some are reading this.. i shall not go into details.. (but it's my journal for heaven's sake..lantaklah)
anyhow.. cooked some mee hoon just now.. sama sibuk dgn non n along yg puasa..
saje.. action mesti ada..
downloaded few verses of Quran and some zikir..
seriously reminded of KYS.. missed fasting there actually.. at least it's better than here..
the break fast.. ramai2.. meriah gak la.. then sahur with hundreds of zombies..
i will NEVER forget the trick they (dining hall people) use to wake us up.. let me say, thank God i'm still alive after those wake up calls..
they took the word 'kejutkan' too seriously i guess..
qiamulail is another memorable activity... with special menu (read: sate) as sahur..
actually.. i've quite a diverse fond memories of the fasting month..
anyway..FINALLY paham jugak this equity chapter.. or so i think..
havent done the tutorials yet though..maybe after shower..
i think gonna start on JV tonite..
i really think i should go to city tomorrow..
was doing some mental calculation while showering just now..( i must admit, shower time is my most productive and analytical time)
allowance will only be in on 17th..or so they say..
a week to that.. and i'm left with..
err... reallyreally minimal.. allocated some for my phonecalls.. i think this phone expense is really eating me uplaa..
tak kisah la.. no regrets.. think company would do me more good than food these days..
that's y thinking of going to city tomorrow..since i can go on off peak saver.. well.. it makes a differencelah!
note: need to buy printer cartridge.. print tute solutions n lecture notes.. yes...when it's just a week b4 exam..
how do u actually live on $10..?
i wonder, having read adi's journal..
till now i havent experienced anything that bad.. close though..when i was left with -$24.50 in my account last semester.. but my allowance arrived 2 days after that..
does that count?? i think it does.. it's quite a story to tell.. 'i used to live on a negative bank balance..'
something similar is about to happen soon i guess..
but this time, thanks to my collection of $2 coins.. i can buy a pair..or 2 of that typical adidas loafers if i want.. with wat i've collected..
was actually planning to buy something for keepsake using that money..
just to remind me how diligent i was in refraining myself from using those small cute $2 coins..
well..it pays i guess..
but now.. i guess it'll have to be used to pay my rent.. tension betul..baru nak sentimental with myself..
if Renong's punctual..then i'm finela.. but err.. not putting much hope on them..stdlaa..
eh..pelik!..
i'm feeling hungry.. at at 6.30..only 6 hrs..
is this justified??
reallyla.. my stomach is howling n growling already... err... tak logik nak makan now.. mcm esok puasa pun..
or should i just sahur n try my luck again tomorrow..
but takkan nak sahur now..
life is tough n complicated : )
esok bday non..
dunno wat to do/give
y must everyone's bday fall during the exam season..
well.. y should i question..ehehe...
oklah..mandi la kot..
then call jazmi jap..
then sambung JV...
or sambung JV dulu..
then call J..
sambung dulu aa..
then baru call J..
kang tak tercontrol lak timing..
mandi dulu ying..mandi dulu..
then makan..ehehe
(who's that??)
hi ying
just got back from lizz's place..
yes, after 48 hours of tak memalukan diri..
went thereto study really..well managed to cover 1.5 topics.. ok dah lah tu..
accompanied by 2 hindi movies, 1 malay movie.. and 1 english movie..how's that??
banyak plates of nasik, n salmon, n 2 hrs of tennis.. 17 hours of sleep.. and countless hours of browsing through msian entertainment magazines and gossiping about much-missed (yeah right) msian local talents (talents???)
sounds like fun.. all that in 48 hours..
and now, i'm back in this lonely room..
which doesnt feel all that lonely... after 48 hours of camping in front of the tv in someone's living room..
i treasure my solitude afterall..
and at these times i can just sit n do nothing in this room and feel good about it..
weird me..
non ajak masak berbuka..
tgh malas sebenarnya ni.. meat n stuff still abundance..
but too lazy to cook..
sorrylah non, next time ah... when i feel like cooking.. which is usually when i'm bored of studying..(veryvery soon)
thought i'll just have something light tonite..
yeah... first day of puasa n thinking of something light..
no harm.. 'plenty in storage' anyway.. need to dispose some (most) pun actuallynya..
got to finish that equity bit by tonite..
and possibly start the JV part before sahur..
boleh kot.. if tak boleh, cannot go to city tomorrow..
feel like doing damage to my bank account, which is already in a very severe condition..
but really need to start buying stuff for balik anyway.. yeah yeah.. excuse.. nak escape study cakap jelah..
i think better go start now.. that equity part..getting on my nerves i tell u! eheh..
seriously, my language is deteriorating.. but who cares.. takde org lain baca pun.. and if ada... if tak paham.. well..this is not to be understood anyway..
eh but ada..
thx for visiting Adi
urs is not bad at all... though penguasaan bahasa kita berbeza2(what the???).. yg penting mesej dapat diketengahkan.. dalam ertikata lain mesej itu sampai (swear i'm posessed by someting now..didnt write this)... sampai kat mana.. ntah! : )
kan betul.. the only perfect place to be is close to your family.. dok msia sorang2 pun tak best gak kan?
just one correction though.. my housemates are cool.. takde yg kedekut.. the 'selfish' term was really misapplied by someone else..<
anyway, pleasant day ying..
nganjing!!
just got back from lizz's place..
yes, after 48 hours of tak memalukan diri..
went thereto study really..well managed to cover 1.5 topics.. ok dah lah tu..
accompanied by 2 hindi movies, 1 malay movie.. and 1 english movie..how's that??
banyak plates of nasik, n salmon, n 2 hrs of tennis.. 17 hours of sleep.. and countless hours of browsing through msian entertainment magazines and gossiping about much-missed (yeah right) msian local talents (talents???)
sounds like fun.. all that in 48 hours..
and now, i'm back in this lonely room..
which doesnt feel all that lonely... after 48 hours of camping in front of the tv in someone's living room..
i treasure my solitude afterall..
and at these times i can just sit n do nothing in this room and feel good about it..
weird me..
non ajak masak berbuka..
tgh malas sebenarnya ni.. meat n stuff still abundance..
but too lazy to cook..
sorrylah non, next time ah... when i feel like cooking.. which is usually when i'm bored of studying..(veryvery soon)
thought i'll just have something light tonite..
yeah... first day of puasa n thinking of something light..
no harm.. 'plenty in storage' anyway.. need to dispose some (most) pun actuallynya..
got to finish that equity bit by tonite..
and possibly start the JV part before sahur..
boleh kot.. if tak boleh, cannot go to city tomorrow..
feel like doing damage to my bank account, which is already in a very severe condition..
but really need to start buying stuff for balik anyway.. yeah yeah.. excuse.. nak escape study cakap jelah..
i think better go start now.. that equity part..getting on my nerves i tell u! eheh..
seriously, my language is deteriorating.. but who cares.. takde org lain baca pun.. and if ada... if tak paham.. well..this is not to be understood anyway..
eh but ada..
thx for visiting Adi
urs is not bad at all... though penguasaan bahasa kita berbeza2(what the???).. yg penting mesej dapat diketengahkan.. dalam ertikata lain mesej itu sampai (swear i'm posessed by someting now..didnt write this)... sampai kat mana.. ntah! : )
kan betul.. the only perfect place to be is close to your family.. dok msia sorang2 pun tak best gak kan?
just one correction though.. my housemates are cool.. takde yg kedekut.. the 'selfish' term was really misapplied by someone else..<
anyway, pleasant day ying..
nganjing!!
Thursday, November 07, 2002
hi ying
baru lepas masak bubur jagung..
going to lizz's house in a bit.. bawak some for them, as planned earlier..
berbudi bahasa la ni..
just a token, going to lepak there since i cannot do any studying in my own room.. no matter how big it is..how comfortable, convenient and cool.. i can easily get bored..
so..thought going to their house would be a good idea.. lizz will be very busy with her thesis.. kak ros n kak yus.. should be occupied with their own stuff..more like.. a library with a friendlier environment..
woke up late today..did wake up at 7...but shut the alarm clock n happily continue my slumber.. selambe..
woke up again at 1pm.. how's that, solid 12 hours of sleep..
currently feeling realy guilty..but not enough to set me on my studying moodlah..
went to coles, paid my bills (finally!)
did my laundry.. kemas my bilik..
see..everything in perfect order dah.. and i'm here preparing for my escapism to lizz's
tensionnya..
read everybody else's journal.. stories about sahur..bukak puasa...
even jazmi pun cerita about how they plan to cook for sahur.. ayam masak merah la.. sawi ikan masinla... and they call that sahur..(?!)
and i'm stuck here.. having subway for my lunch..not that i'm complaining..(yelah tu) but.. where's ramadhan for me??
yesterday, non n along keluar masak.. but masing2 with masing2's food.. and silence..
guess that's the price u've to pay for choosing to stay in 'selfish' (term applied by someone) boarding house like this..
oh well.. at least i can plan my own diet for this puasa month..
and macamla all these while we were terawkhing ramai2...
er..one thing about this fasting month.. wat happen to my bahasa??
i wonder how is is at home this year..
Yeh must be having tough time.. SPM lagi tu...
away from home..
when the school is almost empty..
i remembered those days..
at least it was not fasting month..
i dunno wat is it about terawikh.. really tears factorylah for me..
something about hearing Quran recital.. make me feel wanna be as close as possible to home..
last year i didnt manage to celebrate ramadhan with them but it didnt feel this bad..
maybe this year rasa mcm dok oversea kot..
with international housemates.. and malaysian housemates whom i see once in a .. while..
it feels lonely here..
teringat puasa at home..
the entree is almost like some ppl's main course..
then maghrib..where my bros would be pushing and shoving each other to amik air semayang.. no one wants to leave the table.. till papa give us 'the look'
if we're thoughtfull enough to take air semayang before berbuka.. we'll be the proudest person there... since we dont have to actually leave the table when the food baru je nak cecah perut..
before maghrib berjemaah was 'enforced' ..ehehe.. we would either race to perform the prayers first, individually.. or (more often than not) wait till everyone's done with maghrib..kira fight la ni.. sapa last.. but it's kind of hard to win when everyone is waiting for everyone else..
those were the days.. me n my bros..
after maghrib, we'll have the main course..
then.. dessert..
then tv..eheheh... not for long though.. since papa will announce the terawikh soon..
not until last few years.. tv is a definite no-no before 10pm during ramadhan..
those who received phone calls before 10 will also received those annoyed (and annoying) stare...
my bros will never let this opportunity.. siap mengeleng2 lagi masing.. like it's the biggest sin in lifelah..
it was never said nor written..but this rule is understood.. and i made my frens understand them too..ehehe
terawikh is another funfilled activitied between me n my bros..eheheh
either when we're terawikhing at home or at masjid..
at home.. they'll play this game.. sapa bangun paling lambat without kena marah dgn imam (after every salam)
they're kids then.. but woouldnt be surprised if they're still doing it..
then they'll play pukul2 cubit2 when papa dah angkat takbir..
the trick is to pukul a person then cepat2 angkat takbir so that he cannot balas..
even mama cannot say anything to this... watching from saf belakang, she would always say.. bila la nak besar budak2 ni..
terawikh at masjid means exchanging notes..
they would eye on girls and watch her every move.. and note when she misses her terawikh...
and when they see potential guys..they'll report to me..
cool or wat...
but of course they be ' takleh la kak ying..dia ni tak pernah miss terawikh..baik sgt utk kak ying..'
OUCHH!!
same thing occurs at pasar ramadhan..
the best thing is come end of puasa month..
when we are each allocated sum of money to buy baju.. masing2 mula la..
and like it or not.. i'll automatically be their image consultant..
aahhh..miss them so much!!
so damn bloody much..
shall write to farez later.. his exam is.. ..errkk...tomorrow!!!
shit.. i havent any credit.. mcm mana nak call.. arghhh...kan.. miss sgt..then tak ingat pun..haiyaa..kakyingkakying..
eh.. gtg la..
bubur jagung tu dah nak sejuk..
better go now..
ok ying..
u take care
ta!
baru lepas masak bubur jagung..
going to lizz's house in a bit.. bawak some for them, as planned earlier..
berbudi bahasa la ni..
just a token, going to lepak there since i cannot do any studying in my own room.. no matter how big it is..how comfortable, convenient and cool.. i can easily get bored..
so..thought going to their house would be a good idea.. lizz will be very busy with her thesis.. kak ros n kak yus.. should be occupied with their own stuff..more like.. a library with a friendlier environment..
woke up late today..did wake up at 7...but shut the alarm clock n happily continue my slumber.. selambe..
woke up again at 1pm.. how's that, solid 12 hours of sleep..
currently feeling realy guilty..but not enough to set me on my studying moodlah..
went to coles, paid my bills (finally!)
did my laundry.. kemas my bilik..
see..everything in perfect order dah.. and i'm here preparing for my escapism to lizz's
tensionnya..
read everybody else's journal.. stories about sahur..bukak puasa...
even jazmi pun cerita about how they plan to cook for sahur.. ayam masak merah la.. sawi ikan masinla... and they call that sahur..(?!)
and i'm stuck here.. having subway for my lunch..not that i'm complaining..(yelah tu) but.. where's ramadhan for me??
yesterday, non n along keluar masak.. but masing2 with masing2's food.. and silence..
guess that's the price u've to pay for choosing to stay in 'selfish' (term applied by someone) boarding house like this..
oh well.. at least i can plan my own diet for this puasa month..
and macamla all these while we were terawkhing ramai2...
er..one thing about this fasting month.. wat happen to my bahasa??
i wonder how is is at home this year..
Yeh must be having tough time.. SPM lagi tu...
away from home..
when the school is almost empty..
i remembered those days..
at least it was not fasting month..
i dunno wat is it about terawikh.. really tears factorylah for me..
something about hearing Quran recital.. make me feel wanna be as close as possible to home..
last year i didnt manage to celebrate ramadhan with them but it didnt feel this bad..
maybe this year rasa mcm dok oversea kot..
with international housemates.. and malaysian housemates whom i see once in a .. while..
it feels lonely here..
teringat puasa at home..
the entree is almost like some ppl's main course..
then maghrib..where my bros would be pushing and shoving each other to amik air semayang.. no one wants to leave the table.. till papa give us 'the look'
if we're thoughtfull enough to take air semayang before berbuka.. we'll be the proudest person there... since we dont have to actually leave the table when the food baru je nak cecah perut..
before maghrib berjemaah was 'enforced' ..ehehe.. we would either race to perform the prayers first, individually.. or (more often than not) wait till everyone's done with maghrib..kira fight la ni.. sapa last.. but it's kind of hard to win when everyone is waiting for everyone else..
those were the days.. me n my bros..
after maghrib, we'll have the main course..
then.. dessert..
then tv..eheheh... not for long though.. since papa will announce the terawikh soon..
not until last few years.. tv is a definite no-no before 10pm during ramadhan..
those who received phone calls before 10 will also received those annoyed (and annoying) stare...
my bros will never let this opportunity.. siap mengeleng2 lagi masing.. like it's the biggest sin in lifelah..
it was never said nor written..but this rule is understood.. and i made my frens understand them too..ehehe
terawikh is another funfilled activitied between me n my bros..eheheh
either when we're terawikhing at home or at masjid..
at home.. they'll play this game.. sapa bangun paling lambat without kena marah dgn imam (after every salam)
they're kids then.. but woouldnt be surprised if they're still doing it..
then they'll play pukul2 cubit2 when papa dah angkat takbir..
the trick is to pukul a person then cepat2 angkat takbir so that he cannot balas..
even mama cannot say anything to this... watching from saf belakang, she would always say.. bila la nak besar budak2 ni..
terawikh at masjid means exchanging notes..
they would eye on girls and watch her every move.. and note when she misses her terawikh...
and when they see potential guys..they'll report to me..
cool or wat...
but of course they be ' takleh la kak ying..dia ni tak pernah miss terawikh..baik sgt utk kak ying..'
OUCHH!!
same thing occurs at pasar ramadhan..
the best thing is come end of puasa month..
when we are each allocated sum of money to buy baju.. masing2 mula la..
and like it or not.. i'll automatically be their image consultant..
aahhh..miss them so much!!
so damn bloody much..
shall write to farez later.. his exam is.. ..errkk...tomorrow!!!
shit.. i havent any credit.. mcm mana nak call.. arghhh...kan.. miss sgt..then tak ingat pun..haiyaa..kakyingkakying..
eh.. gtg la..
bubur jagung tu dah nak sejuk..
better go now..
ok ying..
u take care
ta!
Wednesday, November 06, 2002
hi ying
just thought this is worth jotting down..
weird how a total stranger can make my day.. and it's 10.45pm
dunno who he is.. and i guess he dont have a clue who i am anyway..
but he made my day..
i didnt even realised about it till he mailed me.. maybe cos i never expect anyone to read it except for a few.. very few.. can still count using one side of the hand..ehehe..
and planning to just keep it that way..
anyway, thanks adi..
the feeling's mutual..
back to translating foreign accountss...
accounting is booooringgg...
just thought this is worth jotting down..
weird how a total stranger can make my day.. and it's 10.45pm
dunno who he is.. and i guess he dont have a clue who i am anyway..
but he made my day..
i didnt even realised about it till he mailed me.. maybe cos i never expect anyone to read it except for a few.. very few.. can still count using one side of the hand..ehehe..
and planning to just keep it that way..
anyway, thanks adi..
the feeling's mutual..
back to translating foreign accountss...
accounting is booooringgg...
dear ying,
today is 1st Ramadhan..
and as usual.. i missed out.. urrghh... bencinya..yeah.. blame it on my precise bio clock!
missed the first terawikh.. missed the first day of fasting..
anyhow.. decided to go on as if i'm fasting today even though didnt sahur anything last night.. well, easy to say when i woke up at 1pm today hehehe...
didnt feel a hint of hunger.. but drank lots of water though.. alah.. dah memang takleh puasa..
as far as my studying schedule goes.. still timely..
covered more than half of the accounting stuff already..
oh yeah.. was browsing for professional courses..found that CIMA is not that bad afterall.. at least it's mgmt accouting to start with..
and learnt that i got exemption for the first 2 levels.. cool or wat? duhh.. having done(doing) commerce..of courselah
so another 11 subjects to go..if i'm not mistaken..
maybe 3 papers per sitting.. 2 sittings a year.. hmm..so how would that work out.. 2 years and i'm Nik Norezreen Nik Adnan (ACMA)..
ahahaha.... start dah berangan..
one thing very attractive about CIMA is, upon it's completion, there's only one more stage to CFA.. my too-good-to-be-true vision..
wateva it is, finals.. less than a week's time..
first thing first ying..
yesterday's been weird..
called jazmi and end up in a very2 long conversation..
urghhh.. planned to sleep early and wake up early and look wat happen..
i'm in deep shit.. i made him cry again.. well vice versa.. but yeah.. i made the big huge J cry!
he wants to see papa.. and he is serious all these while.. despite his 'i'm fine with everything' attitude..
told him it's not him that i'm doubtful about ..it's.. yes.. it's me.. hi!
i dont think it'll be that hard for me to chew if it's just an ordinary 'meet the parent' thing..
but it's him..jazmi..
i know i have very reasonable parents, and i dont think they would immediately reject the idea of the meet.. but it's to scary for me to think of the outcome of the meeting...
he says, he just wanna see him.. wanna see them.. wateva the meeting is about is really up to my parents' reaction...
just now i was online with papa.. and again, as usual he was provoking me about this marriage thingy..yes, one impatient old man he is..
was telling him about my research on pro courses.. and he responded well to it..
except for ..' so apart from all these planning you have.. bila nak kawin?'
aaaahhh....i'm 22 for God's sake!
i wish i can say when.. no.. hold on.. at least i can say with who..
he was like.. takkan takde..
i was reaaally near to asking him about meeting jazmi..
decided it was a wrong idea... wrong timing..
maybe i'll finish my exam first..
then wait for the result..
then i should tell them..
jazmi wanna see you..
i just want them to be comfortable around each other (too much to ask for ying?)
at least i can include jazmi into my guests list for any occasion..
that's fine enough..
ok..just wait till i'm done with wateva i'm doing now..ok?
in a pretty messed up mood today..
thought i'll go pay my bills.. they're due today anyway..
go buy some sweetcorns.. buat bubur jagung.. non nak.. and bring some over to the kakak's lair..ehehe
but then again.. was in a pretty messed up mood..
maybe tomorrow..
been surfing others' websites..
came across few interesting ones today...
hmm.. bila nak buat sendiri punya ni..
i've got ideas for it already.. but not the time to implement it..
after exam...
everythinglah after exam.. ehehehe..
among those i visited, came across one.. alone in kl with parents far away..
weird.. macam2 org ek in this world...
in japan enjoying the (japanese chicks) view..
in the uk enjoying Dr Pepper.. i assume it's a softdrink and it exists..
in malaysia, missing family in beijing
in brisbane, bogged up in his room nurturing pimples at the age of 22.. God knows wat he's doing .. (i shoudnt give a shit then..)
in brisbane, digesting journals thinking of the joy of being in msia in 2 mths time, when he just got here 3 mths back..
in brisbane, talking about her hsemates in her journals as if she got nothing better to do when really, her exam is starting on the 15th..
and yes, that's me..
and i shall go now..
today is 1st Ramadhan..
and as usual.. i missed out.. urrghh... bencinya..yeah.. blame it on my precise bio clock!
missed the first terawikh.. missed the first day of fasting..
anyhow.. decided to go on as if i'm fasting today even though didnt sahur anything last night.. well, easy to say when i woke up at 1pm today hehehe...
didnt feel a hint of hunger.. but drank lots of water though.. alah.. dah memang takleh puasa..
as far as my studying schedule goes.. still timely..
covered more than half of the accounting stuff already..
oh yeah.. was browsing for professional courses..found that CIMA is not that bad afterall.. at least it's mgmt accouting to start with..
and learnt that i got exemption for the first 2 levels.. cool or wat? duhh.. having done(doing) commerce..of courselah
so another 11 subjects to go..if i'm not mistaken..
maybe 3 papers per sitting.. 2 sittings a year.. hmm..so how would that work out.. 2 years and i'm Nik Norezreen Nik Adnan (ACMA)..
ahahaha.... start dah berangan..
one thing very attractive about CIMA is, upon it's completion, there's only one more stage to CFA.. my too-good-to-be-true vision..
wateva it is, finals.. less than a week's time..
first thing first ying..
yesterday's been weird..
called jazmi and end up in a very2 long conversation..
urghhh.. planned to sleep early and wake up early and look wat happen..
i'm in deep shit.. i made him cry again.. well vice versa.. but yeah.. i made the big huge J cry!
he wants to see papa.. and he is serious all these while.. despite his 'i'm fine with everything' attitude..
told him it's not him that i'm doubtful about ..it's.. yes.. it's me.. hi!
i dont think it'll be that hard for me to chew if it's just an ordinary 'meet the parent' thing..
but it's him..jazmi..
i know i have very reasonable parents, and i dont think they would immediately reject the idea of the meet.. but it's to scary for me to think of the outcome of the meeting...
he says, he just wanna see him.. wanna see them.. wateva the meeting is about is really up to my parents' reaction...
just now i was online with papa.. and again, as usual he was provoking me about this marriage thingy..yes, one impatient old man he is..
was telling him about my research on pro courses.. and he responded well to it..
except for ..' so apart from all these planning you have.. bila nak kawin?'
aaaahhh....i'm 22 for God's sake!
i wish i can say when.. no.. hold on.. at least i can say with who..
he was like.. takkan takde..
i was reaaally near to asking him about meeting jazmi..
decided it was a wrong idea... wrong timing..
maybe i'll finish my exam first..
then wait for the result..
then i should tell them..
jazmi wanna see you..
i just want them to be comfortable around each other (too much to ask for ying?)
at least i can include jazmi into my guests list for any occasion..
that's fine enough..
ok..just wait till i'm done with wateva i'm doing now..ok?
in a pretty messed up mood today..
thought i'll go pay my bills.. they're due today anyway..
go buy some sweetcorns.. buat bubur jagung.. non nak.. and bring some over to the kakak's lair..ehehe
but then again.. was in a pretty messed up mood..
maybe tomorrow..
been surfing others' websites..
came across few interesting ones today...
hmm.. bila nak buat sendiri punya ni..
i've got ideas for it already.. but not the time to implement it..
after exam...
everythinglah after exam.. ehehehe..
among those i visited, came across one.. alone in kl with parents far away..
weird.. macam2 org ek in this world...
in japan enjoying the (japanese chicks) view..
in the uk enjoying Dr Pepper.. i assume it's a softdrink and it exists..
in malaysia, missing family in beijing
in brisbane, bogged up in his room nurturing pimples at the age of 22.. God knows wat he's doing .. (i shoudnt give a shit then..)
in brisbane, digesting journals thinking of the joy of being in msia in 2 mths time, when he just got here 3 mths back..
in brisbane, talking about her hsemates in her journals as if she got nothing better to do when really, her exam is starting on the 15th..
and yes, that's me..
and i shall go now..
Monday, November 04, 2002
dear ying..
covered topics that i'm suppose to cover today.. kira timelylah ni..
havent showered yet.. maybe later and then touch a bit on tomorrow's topics..
went to pay the flight ticket to msia just now..
felt lega dah..
called my house agent, and made arrangement for the inspections.. to vacate the room..
sheesh.. i'm leaving.. already.. finally..
i dunno which is more appropriate.. leaving already... leaving finally..
1.5 years..
i like it here.. it's just the distance, away from my family, that i hate..
seriously love the lifestyle here.. if only i can have my family staying here with me..
and if only the shops close late nite..
if only..
nothing's perfect..
no place is either..
was thinking about my stuff..
i dunno if i can do without any shipment.. some to khairy.. some to mama n papa.. some with me..
somehow rasa sedih about leaving..
somehow very glad my studies are over..
tomorrow i shall go to uni to borrow that mktg book
and pay my bills..
yeah, commitee dinner tomorrow nite..
ahhh... CSI miss!!
and tomorrow dah start terawikh..
last year tak khatam.. just a bit over half je sempat..
this year.. insyaAllah nak khatam..
hopefullyla..with trips to Sydney and Perth..err...ehehe..
budget tadi.. is seriously broke..
first week of the month and broke.. how??
balik malaysia lagi bagus..
ok..really need to shower now..
nite.. ta!
covered topics that i'm suppose to cover today.. kira timelylah ni..
havent showered yet.. maybe later and then touch a bit on tomorrow's topics..
went to pay the flight ticket to msia just now..
felt lega dah..
called my house agent, and made arrangement for the inspections.. to vacate the room..
sheesh.. i'm leaving.. already.. finally..
i dunno which is more appropriate.. leaving already... leaving finally..
1.5 years..
i like it here.. it's just the distance, away from my family, that i hate..
seriously love the lifestyle here.. if only i can have my family staying here with me..
and if only the shops close late nite..
if only..
nothing's perfect..
no place is either..
was thinking about my stuff..
i dunno if i can do without any shipment.. some to khairy.. some to mama n papa.. some with me..
somehow rasa sedih about leaving..
somehow very glad my studies are over..
tomorrow i shall go to uni to borrow that mktg book
and pay my bills..
yeah, commitee dinner tomorrow nite..
ahhh... CSI miss!!
and tomorrow dah start terawikh..
last year tak khatam.. just a bit over half je sempat..
this year.. insyaAllah nak khatam..
hopefullyla..with trips to Sydney and Perth..err...ehehe..
budget tadi.. is seriously broke..
first week of the month and broke.. how??
balik malaysia lagi bagus..
ok..really need to shower now..
nite.. ta!
Sunday, November 03, 2002
Dear ying,
Just got back from Het'z place..
the dinner went fine except for the leftovers that's more than enough to feed us for the next whole week..
didnt eat much of the ikan bakar.. and the rendang.. hmm.. didnt eat muchla full stop... but i'm sickeningly full.. maybe the cooking process is too memualkan already..
hope they enjoyed the dinner.. i did, as much as i've enjoyed preparing it..
ok.. from now on.. no more cooking i guess.. just 3 weeks away from my holiday away anyway..
oh well.. felt goodlah, can feed that many perut tonight..
am really tired but still refusing to sleep..
thought i should do some revising..
a nice quick warm shower may be a good idea....
but too tired to even change my clothes pun.
maybe i'll just go to sleep n have an early start tomorrow..
ah.. we'll see..
anyhow.. good nite for now..
Just got back from Het'z place..
the dinner went fine except for the leftovers that's more than enough to feed us for the next whole week..
didnt eat much of the ikan bakar.. and the rendang.. hmm.. didnt eat muchla full stop... but i'm sickeningly full.. maybe the cooking process is too memualkan already..
hope they enjoyed the dinner.. i did, as much as i've enjoyed preparing it..
ok.. from now on.. no more cooking i guess.. just 3 weeks away from my holiday away anyway..
oh well.. felt goodlah, can feed that many perut tonight..
am really tired but still refusing to sleep..
thought i should do some revising..
a nice quick warm shower may be a good idea....
but too tired to even change my clothes pun.
maybe i'll just go to sleep n have an early start tomorrow..
ah.. we'll see..
anyhow.. good nite for now..
Saturday, November 02, 2002
Dear ying,
just came back from shopping for stuff to cook for this sunday dinner..
somehow.. excited pulak..
like it cost me less than $30 to feed 15 people...
wow..
murah rezeki diorang..murah rezeki aku..insyaAllah
met Shah last nite.. finally..
he was being his usual.. very nice, very sarcastic.. very cousin..
despite watever has happen betwen us thru emails n phonecalls.. it seems some things never change..
went to meet him in the city with hetz.. i guess it's appropriate since he brought 3 frens along..
was in the city earlier yesterday too..
was browsing around, 'finding' shoes, sandals.. clothes..dresses (??)
when hetz asked about meeting shah...it never occur to me that i'll be nervous or even that bothered about it anymore..
well.. then came the sms.. he was already in the city by then..
err.. i just couldnt look at any more shoes, no discounts can attract me at that time..
i was NERVOUS.. yes, the joke is on me
and it felt like the first time i met him..
sheeshh..
suddenly it all came to me.. i actually rejected him once..
not just any plain proposal that was..
it was like.. err.. 'marry me' in more words.. ehehe..
yeah, seriously..
and i rejected
and there were few months of silence between us...
and now here he is.. paying a visit in brisbane.. from malaysia..
i never know i could ever be too nervous to part my hair, apply my lipstick, wear my earings properly..
i was shaking through it all... eee...
but calmed down in the bus.. surely, the butterflies still wont go away..
then.. there he was.. in his (veryveryshort) shorts and striped polo t shirt..
handshakes, hi.. and then dinner..
all in all he was ok... actually more than ok..
he was all natural.. like before..
and i didnt feel awkwards watsoever throughout the whole outing..
maybe when we were teased by his frens..and that's only once.. and when he said.. he's single..still single..
he was really nice to hetz.. a sign that he can get along with my frens..
and his frens are ok too.. wat can i say about a bunch of thirtysomethings on holiday..
and hetz said he's ok too..and that he is nothing like i pictured him to be..
i dont like this..
suddenly he's so normal..
suddenly it seems ok afterall..wont elaborate on that now..
he keeps on saying i'll see you in 2 months time..
suddenly two months doesnt seem that far away
2 months time..
promised me a dinner for my bday cum graduation
yeah, 2 months time..
called mama for no reason..
told her about the outing and all..
papa was in the background, listening.. as usual..
and he sounds excited by this positive development..
wat positive development???
mama asked, so wat say hetz..
well... suddenly i felt cornered..
damn..
then called faiz.. maybe only he would understand how i can switch mode form one person to another..
talking about switching mode..
yes, i called jazmi again.. (it's been daily for this week.. short 10 mins daily)
wasnt going to tell him.. thought it's not appropriate..
but he asked.. and i told him.. bits n pieces..
he went.. 'it's nice to hear things are ok'
i hate him...
why must he be very nice about everything all the time..
maybe it's my subconcious guilt about treating jazmi this way and thinking about wat could have been (or wat will be happening) between me n shah
as for the other interesting party .. i'm starting to see the human side of him.. so he's not perfect afterall.. and somehow.. time do decide
and i think throughout the months.. i've seen more than i wanna know about him...
as reality surfaces, i guess the debits n credits of the person need to be readjusted..
anyhow, he is a good friend who maybe, was suppose to stay that way from day one..
and as i've said once.. i owe him an apology n a big thank.
sorry n thanks bro!
(i'll find a day when i'm thickface enough to say this to his face rather then here.. meanwhile.. this would do.. eheh)
okla..
yes, room is still messy..
clean up!
just came back from shopping for stuff to cook for this sunday dinner..
somehow.. excited pulak..
like it cost me less than $30 to feed 15 people...
wow..
murah rezeki diorang..murah rezeki aku..insyaAllah
met Shah last nite.. finally..
he was being his usual.. very nice, very sarcastic.. very cousin..
despite watever has happen betwen us thru emails n phonecalls.. it seems some things never change..
went to meet him in the city with hetz.. i guess it's appropriate since he brought 3 frens along..
was in the city earlier yesterday too..
was browsing around, 'finding' shoes, sandals.. clothes..dresses (??)
when hetz asked about meeting shah...it never occur to me that i'll be nervous or even that bothered about it anymore..
well.. then came the sms.. he was already in the city by then..
err.. i just couldnt look at any more shoes, no discounts can attract me at that time..
i was NERVOUS.. yes, the joke is on me
and it felt like the first time i met him..
sheeshh..
suddenly it all came to me.. i actually rejected him once..
not just any plain proposal that was..
it was like.. err.. 'marry me' in more words.. ehehe..
yeah, seriously..
and i rejected
and there were few months of silence between us...
and now here he is.. paying a visit in brisbane.. from malaysia..
i never know i could ever be too nervous to part my hair, apply my lipstick, wear my earings properly..
i was shaking through it all... eee...
but calmed down in the bus.. surely, the butterflies still wont go away..
then.. there he was.. in his (veryveryshort) shorts and striped polo t shirt..
handshakes, hi.. and then dinner..
all in all he was ok... actually more than ok..
he was all natural.. like before..
and i didnt feel awkwards watsoever throughout the whole outing..
maybe when we were teased by his frens..and that's only once.. and when he said.. he's single..still single..
he was really nice to hetz.. a sign that he can get along with my frens..
and his frens are ok too.. wat can i say about a bunch of thirtysomethings on holiday..
and hetz said he's ok too..and that he is nothing like i pictured him to be..
i dont like this..
suddenly he's so normal..
suddenly it seems ok afterall..wont elaborate on that now..
he keeps on saying i'll see you in 2 months time..
suddenly two months doesnt seem that far away
2 months time..
promised me a dinner for my bday cum graduation
yeah, 2 months time..
called mama for no reason..
told her about the outing and all..
papa was in the background, listening.. as usual..
and he sounds excited by this positive development..
wat positive development???
mama asked, so wat say hetz..
well... suddenly i felt cornered..
damn..
then called faiz.. maybe only he would understand how i can switch mode form one person to another..
talking about switching mode..
yes, i called jazmi again.. (it's been daily for this week.. short 10 mins daily)
wasnt going to tell him.. thought it's not appropriate..
but he asked.. and i told him.. bits n pieces..
he went.. 'it's nice to hear things are ok'
i hate him...
why must he be very nice about everything all the time..
maybe it's my subconcious guilt about treating jazmi this way and thinking about wat could have been (or wat will be happening) between me n shah
as for the other interesting party .. i'm starting to see the human side of him.. so he's not perfect afterall.. and somehow.. time do decide
and i think throughout the months.. i've seen more than i wanna know about him...
as reality surfaces, i guess the debits n credits of the person need to be readjusted..
anyhow, he is a good friend who maybe, was suppose to stay that way from day one..
and as i've said once.. i owe him an apology n a big thank.
sorry n thanks bro!
(i'll find a day when i'm thickface enough to say this to his face rather then here.. meanwhile.. this would do.. eheh)
okla..
yes, room is still messy..
clean up!
Friday, November 01, 2002
Dear ying,
classes are over..
over for the rest of my undergraduate studies!!...phewww..!!!
handed in the finance assignment just now.. was amazed to see the printed version of the Macros... macam buat computer courselah pulak..
anyway.. it's over.. met Zel for the last time ( i think ) bid farewell and wished her gluck..
gluck to diana n michael too.
good luck to me..
came back, the room was in total mess..
thought i'll give it a good clean up.. biasala.. before start studying, me n this obsession for mengemas when time is better spent on something else..
initially was thinking of going to the city
but since shah sms saying that we should meet in the evening in the city..err.. maybe not then..
after all.... the cleaning up. : )
ok..last nite..
was no ordinary nite.. at least i made it non ordinary
firstly, met yea online.. she found me..somehow.. but it was really cool..
telling me to come back fast.. can tell she's damn bored ..
how can u ever get bored in malaysia.. now that i'm in this laid back brisbane..
well.. maybe bored to her means not being able to see her bf during her 3 mths holidays... well.. that's ouchh..
at least, i know for sure.. there's someone to lepak with when i'm back..
now that sounds pathetic..
secondly
was browsing around other blogs yesterday and came across this guy.. i dunno.. nothing fascinate me in particular.. but his blog sounds honest though..
so thought wat the heck, added him on my msn list..
last nite.. he was online.. and we talked a bit..
nazrul mistunderstood some of my remarks, i guess..
come on man.. i was kidding.. who am i to judge anyway..havent met u in the first place..
well, at least now he wont forget me.. ehehe, that's for sure..
err.. bad move ying.... bad bad move..
i'm mean..
anyway, nazrul, sorry mate!seriously didnt mean it..
PEACE!
oh..hetz called..
she's going to the city to eat kebab!..
darn!!! was thinking about kebab just now..
room is still messy..
non n along has just left for friday prayers..
kevin not home, no sound from upstairs.. bryan class..
christine class.. sonya.. err .. doesnt make any difference..
i dont understand her, she doesnt understand me..
aaaa... i hate to stay in when everyone esle is not home..
not on a friday afternoon.. when i've just handed in my last assignment and finished all my classes..
err... room is still messy..
hetz might need company..
room is still messy..
bank account is still empty..
err...
true libran aint i?
off to the city!
ta!
classes are over..
over for the rest of my undergraduate studies!!...phewww..!!!
handed in the finance assignment just now.. was amazed to see the printed version of the Macros... macam buat computer courselah pulak..
anyway.. it's over.. met Zel for the last time ( i think ) bid farewell and wished her gluck..
gluck to diana n michael too.
good luck to me..
came back, the room was in total mess..
thought i'll give it a good clean up.. biasala.. before start studying, me n this obsession for mengemas when time is better spent on something else..
initially was thinking of going to the city
but since shah sms saying that we should meet in the evening in the city..err.. maybe not then..
after all.... the cleaning up. : )
ok..last nite..
was no ordinary nite.. at least i made it non ordinary
firstly, met yea online.. she found me..somehow.. but it was really cool..
telling me to come back fast.. can tell she's damn bored ..
how can u ever get bored in malaysia.. now that i'm in this laid back brisbane..
well.. maybe bored to her means not being able to see her bf during her 3 mths holidays... well.. that's ouchh..
at least, i know for sure.. there's someone to lepak with when i'm back..
now that sounds pathetic..
secondly
was browsing around other blogs yesterday and came across this guy.. i dunno.. nothing fascinate me in particular.. but his blog sounds honest though..
so thought wat the heck, added him on my msn list..
last nite.. he was online.. and we talked a bit..
nazrul mistunderstood some of my remarks, i guess..
come on man.. i was kidding.. who am i to judge anyway..havent met u in the first place..
well, at least now he wont forget me.. ehehe, that's for sure..
err.. bad move ying.... bad bad move..
i'm mean..
anyway, nazrul, sorry mate!seriously didnt mean it..
PEACE!
oh..hetz called..
she's going to the city to eat kebab!..
darn!!! was thinking about kebab just now..
room is still messy..
non n along has just left for friday prayers..
kevin not home, no sound from upstairs.. bryan class..
christine class.. sonya.. err .. doesnt make any difference..
i dont understand her, she doesnt understand me..
aaaa... i hate to stay in when everyone esle is not home..
not on a friday afternoon.. when i've just handed in my last assignment and finished all my classes..
err... room is still messy..
hetz might need company..
room is still messy..
bank account is still empty..
err...
true libran aint i?
off to the city!
ta!
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