dear ying,
tennis cancelled..darn!
now feeling guilty over my heavy lunch..
should i go for a jog? aahh..too worn out la these days..
i'll just have it nice n easy this evening..
been surfing other journals..
came across this one cool one.. with hazleena's picture on it..
sheesh...small world afterall..
added the guy in my msn..and voila!..chatting with him now..
guess i can map things out and reconnect with haz when i go back..
learnt that this guy is from SMAP Labu.. so kenal June n Asyrul too.. wat a small world..
tonight VM Award is on at 7.30..
a must watch for me..
along with my finance notes (yeah right).. a good retreat from everything..
oh..arrangement with shah is cancelled.. and i'm talking about the brunch arrangement.
maybe tomorrow..
but since i've discussion in the afternoon, maybe later towards the evening.. which is better since i can at least show them the lively southbank.. and queen st will be open till late.. or else.. mati kutu aku.. asked shaz n hetz to tag along.. but of course.. am ok to face it alone.. ehhehe.. macam apa je..
called win last nite..
was a bit err.. pissed off is too strong a word here....
maybe was a bit annoyed when he barely speaks when he speaks.. (??!!)
ahh.. normal of him anyway.. dasar melayu malas.. (look who's talking..)
slept at 2 last night to wake up at 8 to finish my tute n go meet shah..
since shah cancelled.. i hit the bed again, feeling fresh and 'mcmdunianiakuygpunya' (having showered, deoderized n perfumed earlier)
screw the tutes.. thought will wake up again at 10 to do it..
woke up only at 10.30 by Khuzai's phonecall.. he came to see the house with Cher..
they like it..
good for them..
breakfast... been ages man!!.. then did my tutes..
went to class..
settle down..
feeling good.. and ready for the last lecture..
when i suddenly realised ..
left my whole tute book at home.. d'ohh!!
grr.. ah.. cutcutcutchopchopchop.. went to tute, finish early..came back..
n cook lunch..
the best mashed potato ever.. by me.. ehehehe..
alah.. minutes tak buat lagi..
Khuzai's picking it up later.. sheesh..
ok
got to run now..
have fun Ying
Thursday, October 31, 2002
Wednesday, October 30, 2002
dear ying
it's been ages since i feel this happy..
this proud to be nik norezreen nik adnan feeling
finally manage to crack that stupid programming thingy.. which apparently wasnt all that complicated in the first place.. but i guess i still owe myself some credit.. at least for being patience (yeah right.. i totally lost my mind and had fever over this) and to come out of this in a sane mode.
congrats me.. congrats hetz.. thx for ensuring me that 'this too shall pass'
i guess it has.. at least after friday it definitely will
going to bed early
hasnt started anything on the tute yet.. but oh well.. tomorrow an early day..
going to call mama n jazmi later..
they ought to know this..
i did it!!!
meeting shah tomorrow..
he called just now
he's probably on the plane now.. yeah, should be..
dunno wat to wear.. dunno where to bring him..
ah..
anywhere is fine i guess..
anything is cool..
anything is cool after this assignment
oh my God..
thx lord for this..
tomorrow i'm going to play tennis and whack it like no one has..
gilaa..
better go now..
before i get too excited and started mumbling things i'm not suppose to..
OH YING..YOU'VE DONE IT AGAIN!!!
gnite
it's been ages since i feel this happy..
this proud to be nik norezreen nik adnan feeling
finally manage to crack that stupid programming thingy.. which apparently wasnt all that complicated in the first place.. but i guess i still owe myself some credit.. at least for being patience (yeah right.. i totally lost my mind and had fever over this) and to come out of this in a sane mode.
congrats me.. congrats hetz.. thx for ensuring me that 'this too shall pass'
i guess it has.. at least after friday it definitely will
going to bed early
hasnt started anything on the tute yet.. but oh well.. tomorrow an early day..
going to call mama n jazmi later..
they ought to know this..
i did it!!!
meeting shah tomorrow..
he called just now
he's probably on the plane now.. yeah, should be..
dunno wat to wear.. dunno where to bring him..
ah..
anywhere is fine i guess..
anything is cool..
anything is cool after this assignment
oh my God..
thx lord for this..
tomorrow i'm going to play tennis and whack it like no one has..
gilaa..
better go now..
before i get too excited and started mumbling things i'm not suppose to..
OH YING..YOU'VE DONE IT AGAIN!!!
gnite
Tuesday, October 29, 2002
dear ying
been a while huh?
my sleeping pattern is killing me..
and the assignment workload is not helping either
didnt manage to shed that kilo off last week
been a while since last jog..
more than a week since i last call home
a week since i last call any of my frens..
bank accountsss read ..err.. very2 close to ZERO
so what have i been up to?
i really dunnolah..
i guess somewhere between the spectrum of writing a program to price an option (yes..sounds very sophisticated for a normal being like me, that's y i'm still stuck on it) and discussion about post natal syndrome and horoscope compatibality.
more like.. i dunno wat i've been wasting my last 96 hours on..
i guess the only achievement worth mentioning this week is - haircut
yes, got a haircut last friday without much contemplation, which is very unusual..
and maybe, that thai dinner last sunday nite.. my since dunnowhen cravings.. nasib baik dapat
wat else did i do..
bought my Ramadhan halal meat.. kilos n kilos..
went for tennis with the kakaks.. which is another cool thing for the week.. (the only .. maybe)
'collected' another batch of online frens.. to accompany me through my assignment works..(sounds rude.. but ying gotta do what ying gotta do n always do)
watched Joan of Arc.. full... partially alone.. wooooohooooo....congrats ying... u have reached the next level of tv concentration.. at a perfect time.. (2 weeks from my finals exam)
speaking of exam.. yes, in 2 weeks time..
nope, hasnt started anything yet.. not even the revision schedule (macam ikut pun.. it's just a psychology thing for me)
went to see tutors just now.. (dunno y)
they are quite flexible next week.. bless me!
hmm..
wat else..
shah'll be arriving on Thursday
dont really give a shit anymore..
he's on holiday.. and me struggling through my revision week..
have to meet him anyhow..
mama sent some stuff thru him.. $ for next month.. aarrghh.. i hate being financially weak..sick like this..
really2 miss home
cant wait to go back to my room, with that 16th floor area view of Subang n Sunway..n Puchong..
my family.. adik2.. (dreamt about them again last nite) ..Arman and the gang..
but even the thought of going back worries me..
am i going to pile back those kilos i've shed? by choice mmgla tak..
nak gi jogging with who? thinking of Jazmi.. shrugging off the thought..
cari kerja.. new ppl.. new environment.. all to be faced alone.. no novan, no hetz..
shah.. i think the worst is already over.. i think
everythingla worry me these days..
sometimes i forgot i've submitted some of my assignments ..and that i should worry about them no more..
i'm worried i dont drink enuff water..
worried that those time spent sleeping should really be use to do somehting else.. (and i only sleep after 5am)
think i'm losing it la.. 2 weeks away from my final exam final semester.. good on ya ying!
currently listening to ABBA "Take a Chance on Me"
feels like a 3 yr old again.. i wish i could go back to those days
when dancing topless to my favourite ABBA numbers are considered cute
and papa's books n calculator is something that i should never ever touch
cool song by the way...
guess good point to kick off - assignments!
take a chance take a chance take a chance..
but u know i've got ..so much that i wanna do..
lalalalal..take a chance.. take a chance..
been a while huh?
my sleeping pattern is killing me..
and the assignment workload is not helping either
didnt manage to shed that kilo off last week
been a while since last jog..
more than a week since i last call home
a week since i last call any of my frens..
bank accountsss read ..err.. very2 close to ZERO
so what have i been up to?
i really dunnolah..
i guess somewhere between the spectrum of writing a program to price an option (yes..sounds very sophisticated for a normal being like me, that's y i'm still stuck on it) and discussion about post natal syndrome and horoscope compatibality.
more like.. i dunno wat i've been wasting my last 96 hours on..
i guess the only achievement worth mentioning this week is - haircut
yes, got a haircut last friday without much contemplation, which is very unusual..
and maybe, that thai dinner last sunday nite.. my since dunnowhen cravings.. nasib baik dapat
wat else did i do..
bought my Ramadhan halal meat.. kilos n kilos..
went for tennis with the kakaks.. which is another cool thing for the week.. (the only .. maybe)
'collected' another batch of online frens.. to accompany me through my assignment works..(sounds rude.. but ying gotta do what ying gotta do n always do)
watched Joan of Arc.. full... partially alone.. wooooohooooo....congrats ying... u have reached the next level of tv concentration.. at a perfect time.. (2 weeks from my finals exam)
speaking of exam.. yes, in 2 weeks time..
nope, hasnt started anything yet.. not even the revision schedule (macam ikut pun.. it's just a psychology thing for me)
went to see tutors just now.. (dunno y)
they are quite flexible next week.. bless me!
hmm..
wat else..
shah'll be arriving on Thursday
dont really give a shit anymore..
he's on holiday.. and me struggling through my revision week..
have to meet him anyhow..
mama sent some stuff thru him.. $ for next month.. aarrghh.. i hate being financially weak..sick like this..
really2 miss home
cant wait to go back to my room, with that 16th floor area view of Subang n Sunway..n Puchong..
my family.. adik2.. (dreamt about them again last nite) ..Arman and the gang..
but even the thought of going back worries me..
am i going to pile back those kilos i've shed? by choice mmgla tak..
nak gi jogging with who? thinking of Jazmi.. shrugging off the thought..
cari kerja.. new ppl.. new environment.. all to be faced alone.. no novan, no hetz..
shah.. i think the worst is already over.. i think
everythingla worry me these days..
sometimes i forgot i've submitted some of my assignments ..and that i should worry about them no more..
i'm worried i dont drink enuff water..
worried that those time spent sleeping should really be use to do somehting else.. (and i only sleep after 5am)
think i'm losing it la.. 2 weeks away from my final exam final semester.. good on ya ying!
currently listening to ABBA "Take a Chance on Me"
feels like a 3 yr old again.. i wish i could go back to those days
when dancing topless to my favourite ABBA numbers are considered cute
and papa's books n calculator is something that i should never ever touch
cool song by the way...
guess good point to kick off - assignments!
take a chance take a chance take a chance..
but u know i've got ..so much that i wanna do..
lalalalal..take a chance.. take a chance..
Thursday, October 24, 2002
dear ying
just finished berbuka
ate some yucky pasta..i made myself.. been gulping down gallons of orange juice.. muak!
the day went fairly ok..
had a good nite sleep.. must be the 2 ponstant (spelling?) pills i took.. (yeah, went to bed with a heavy head)
woke up sneezing non stop, but feeling re-energized...
it has been a while since my last attack of the seriel sneeze..
today i must have sneezed a million time.. i think i managed to irritate my classmates in the tutorial just now..
thought of leaving, but then again.. i dont think i am as annoying as the noisy indian girl, who always have something to say about everything in the class..
if she's allowed to stay, i dont see why i should leave
anyway, finance class finished an hour earlier..
not knowing wat to do while waiting for the next class, i decided to waste my time in the bookstore
time wasting it wasnt..
came across this book.. Alone By Myself by Melanie Woss..
it was described as ' a moving diary of a teenager who lost the battle with depression..'
the couch was occupied by this (selfish) chinese guy who were lying there like nobody's business.. sheesh.. i gave him a stare.. he noticed but didnt make a hint of effort to move his stupid butt off the couch.. no wonder the locals hate us asians so much.. with such attitude.. who wouldnt.. err.. generalisation perhaps..
oh well.. found a chair at the wooden table in the corner of the store..
settle myself there and start digesting Mel Woss writing..
they were simple, honest.. disturbingly honest..
where the hell did she keep her writings before her suicide?
u can really tell it's gonna happen by the way she described it.. 'leap into the world of oblivion when my head smashed to trillions...'
i was so absorbed in the book.. imagining everything she described.. the boyfriend .. her fren's little mouse, her mom, her psyhciatrist..
an hour passed by.. aaahhh..late for class..
as i race to class, i thought of the concept of suicide
cross my mind once..
ok..LIE.. did cross my mind a few times..
dont ask me why.. was foolish then i think.. was.. i hope..
oh yeah,
dreamt of jazmi last nite..
it was soooooooo real
he came to visit me here..
shit.. it was so so real..
his smell, the feel of his skin..
that rugby shirt, my favourite rugby shirt..
dockers pants as usual.. that huge pair of shoes..ehehe
that thick glasses.. the smile..
i was frozen when i first saw him.. was half between smiling and crying..
he was being his usual mr soooo nice..
i cried.. in the dream.. was asking him to go away and not be irritatingly nice to me anymore..
for the first time he scolded me.. a real one.. it felt real at least.. asked me to just keep quite and smile
all i could do is just cry.. at that time somehow i realised it was just a dream.. but i kept crying, refuse to open my eyes.. i can feel the warmth of my pillows by then, realising it was all a dream, but he was still standing in front of me, it was soo real..he gave me a warm friendly hug... i can feel his heartbeat but at the same time i can hear the birds chirping outside my room
and in the dream i cried.. and i cried...
just a second later i woke up with swollen drenched eyes.. at least, if not for anything else.. the tears were real..
now i realised he never left me..
aaahh...
to many things going on in my head now..
inhale exhale, wake up
excell assignment to do
just finished berbuka
ate some yucky pasta..i made myself.. been gulping down gallons of orange juice.. muak!
the day went fairly ok..
had a good nite sleep.. must be the 2 ponstant (spelling?) pills i took.. (yeah, went to bed with a heavy head)
woke up sneezing non stop, but feeling re-energized...
it has been a while since my last attack of the seriel sneeze..
today i must have sneezed a million time.. i think i managed to irritate my classmates in the tutorial just now..
thought of leaving, but then again.. i dont think i am as annoying as the noisy indian girl, who always have something to say about everything in the class..
if she's allowed to stay, i dont see why i should leave
anyway, finance class finished an hour earlier..
not knowing wat to do while waiting for the next class, i decided to waste my time in the bookstore
time wasting it wasnt..
came across this book.. Alone By Myself by Melanie Woss..
it was described as ' a moving diary of a teenager who lost the battle with depression..'
the couch was occupied by this (selfish) chinese guy who were lying there like nobody's business.. sheesh.. i gave him a stare.. he noticed but didnt make a hint of effort to move his stupid butt off the couch.. no wonder the locals hate us asians so much.. with such attitude.. who wouldnt.. err.. generalisation perhaps..
oh well.. found a chair at the wooden table in the corner of the store..
settle myself there and start digesting Mel Woss writing..
they were simple, honest.. disturbingly honest..
where the hell did she keep her writings before her suicide?
u can really tell it's gonna happen by the way she described it.. 'leap into the world of oblivion when my head smashed to trillions...'
i was so absorbed in the book.. imagining everything she described.. the boyfriend .. her fren's little mouse, her mom, her psyhciatrist..
an hour passed by.. aaahhh..late for class..
as i race to class, i thought of the concept of suicide
cross my mind once..
ok..LIE.. did cross my mind a few times..
dont ask me why.. was foolish then i think.. was.. i hope..
oh yeah,
dreamt of jazmi last nite..
it was soooooooo real
he came to visit me here..
shit.. it was so so real..
his smell, the feel of his skin..
that rugby shirt, my favourite rugby shirt..
dockers pants as usual.. that huge pair of shoes..ehehe
that thick glasses.. the smile..
i was frozen when i first saw him.. was half between smiling and crying..
he was being his usual mr soooo nice..
i cried.. in the dream.. was asking him to go away and not be irritatingly nice to me anymore..
for the first time he scolded me.. a real one.. it felt real at least.. asked me to just keep quite and smile
all i could do is just cry.. at that time somehow i realised it was just a dream.. but i kept crying, refuse to open my eyes.. i can feel the warmth of my pillows by then, realising it was all a dream, but he was still standing in front of me, it was soo real..he gave me a warm friendly hug... i can feel his heartbeat but at the same time i can hear the birds chirping outside my room
and in the dream i cried.. and i cried...
just a second later i woke up with swollen drenched eyes.. at least, if not for anything else.. the tears were real..
now i realised he never left me..
aaahh...
to many things going on in my head now..
inhale exhale, wake up
excell assignment to do
dear ying
finished my tute earlier than expected, managed to revise the chapter too..
got my excell that i havent touch.. but just dont feel like it
probably head 4 the bed early..isyak pun dah..
the temp is getting cooler.. opened the door just now..
lantakla if the whole wide world can see wat i'm doing in my room.. as long as i can breath... hell with that bit of privacy
so win read about how i celebrated bday without him wishing..
it's ok.. forgiven..
dont think i'm angry.. i know wat he's like anyway..
maybe just a little bit terasa.. ok i lied.. i do feel insignificant..
i am affected..
whenever ppl asked.. 'so how was ur bday?' all i wanted to say is.. 'win forgot'
maybe all these bday stuff are not of any importance to him..
even if it's his goodfren's ( i'm not sure about using the word 'bestfren' now.. thought i was just overusing it)
maybe he just really3 forgot..
susah sgt ke? tak... dah lupa nak buat camana...
now i know he feels guilty
and i am even more guilty to know he is feeling guilty about it..
arrgh..i hate this.. it's all coming back to me..
i'm imagining, how would hetz feel if lish forgot her bday,
shaz if ramona forgot hers..
bad if jo forgot his,
ben n dan (err..not quite sure about this one.. considering both are.. hmm..cute)
i'm just sad win forgot mine.
hoping tomorrow will be a better day.. much cooler inside out..
: )
Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
finished my tute earlier than expected, managed to revise the chapter too..
got my excell that i havent touch.. but just dont feel like it
probably head 4 the bed early..isyak pun dah..
the temp is getting cooler.. opened the door just now..
lantakla if the whole wide world can see wat i'm doing in my room.. as long as i can breath... hell with that bit of privacy
so win read about how i celebrated bday without him wishing..
it's ok.. forgiven..
dont think i'm angry.. i know wat he's like anyway..
maybe just a little bit terasa.. ok i lied.. i do feel insignificant..
i am affected..
whenever ppl asked.. 'so how was ur bday?' all i wanted to say is.. 'win forgot'
maybe all these bday stuff are not of any importance to him..
even if it's his goodfren's ( i'm not sure about using the word 'bestfren' now.. thought i was just overusing it)
maybe he just really3 forgot..
susah sgt ke? tak... dah lupa nak buat camana...
now i know he feels guilty
and i am even more guilty to know he is feeling guilty about it..
arrgh..i hate this.. it's all coming back to me..
i'm imagining, how would hetz feel if lish forgot her bday,
shaz if ramona forgot hers..
bad if jo forgot his,
ben n dan (err..not quite sure about this one.. considering both are.. hmm..cute)
i'm just sad win forgot mine.
hoping tomorrow will be a better day.. much cooler inside out..
: )
Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Wednesday, October 23, 2002
dear ying
woke up at 1pm with running nose..
the weather is hitting me bad.. sneeze sneeze sneeze..it's 35 degrees today.. and summer is yet to come.. i dont even wanna imagine
my room feels so stuffy, (wasnt as bad as my ol room in warrent street though.. ) the kitchen is one big oven..
the lounge.. forget it...
along's cooking outside.. non keluar masuk bilik..
i guess it's the heat.. no one can sit still..
heard kevin's occasional sigh (more like shouts actually).. bet he's topless again...hehe
even the cold water feels warm..
nak balik msia... nak balik.. waaa...
two more sheets to excell assignment completion..
will continue tonight..
at the moment there's accounting tute to tackle..
missed one whole stretch of class to day by the way.. but it was intentional.. not worth mentioning i guess..
probably map out my study plan for the finals..
err.. just realised.. it's not that far away..
last semester i started 2 weeks before study break itself.. though my results doesnt justify..
guess there's no correlation between when u start revising and the outcome ... yeah right!!!
laundry to jemur
adios
woke up at 1pm with running nose..
the weather is hitting me bad.. sneeze sneeze sneeze..it's 35 degrees today.. and summer is yet to come.. i dont even wanna imagine
my room feels so stuffy, (wasnt as bad as my ol room in warrent street though.. ) the kitchen is one big oven..
the lounge.. forget it...
along's cooking outside.. non keluar masuk bilik..
i guess it's the heat.. no one can sit still..
heard kevin's occasional sigh (more like shouts actually).. bet he's topless again...hehe
even the cold water feels warm..
nak balik msia... nak balik.. waaa...
two more sheets to excell assignment completion..
will continue tonight..
at the moment there's accounting tute to tackle..
missed one whole stretch of class to day by the way.. but it was intentional.. not worth mentioning i guess..
probably map out my study plan for the finals..
err.. just realised.. it's not that far away..
last semester i started 2 weeks before study break itself.. though my results doesnt justify..
guess there's no correlation between when u start revising and the outcome ... yeah right!!!
laundry to jemur
adios
dear ying
it must be hard to believe that i'm really busy with assignments and academic work when i'm updating this blog almost every 10 seconds??
oh well...
it's just an escape from my work..once in a while.. my retreat..
this helps me to freshen up actually..
anuarfariz is still online ..
very good company to keep me sane through this sucky assignment..thx mate!
i guess we're in the same boat.. screw all these assignmentsla..
better go get some sleep now..
or else i'll be filling up tomorrow's blog with how tired i am..
not that anyone's reading.. but soon even i will get tired of me whining about my tiredness..
would u want me when i'm not myself
waiting out when i am someone else
-john mayer-
nite baby girl..kahkahkah
it must be hard to believe that i'm really busy with assignments and academic work when i'm updating this blog almost every 10 seconds??
oh well...
it's just an escape from my work..once in a while.. my retreat..
this helps me to freshen up actually..
anuarfariz is still online ..
very good company to keep me sane through this sucky assignment..thx mate!
i guess we're in the same boat.. screw all these assignmentsla..
better go get some sleep now..
or else i'll be filling up tomorrow's blog with how tired i am..
not that anyone's reading.. but soon even i will get tired of me whining about my tiredness..
would u want me when i'm not myself
waiting out when i am someone else
-john mayer-
nite baby girl..kahkahkah
Tuesday, October 22, 2002
dear ying
though the day started badly.. the evening was better..
went to dinner with doc, badri, firdaus, hetz, shaz, along n non..
was sooo nice of doc to spare some time.. (& $$) for the dinner..
and of course the rest too.. understand that along actually skip his class to get down on his assignment..
so wasnt expecting that he would turn up.. really
but he ends in front of me at the dinner afterall.. (and oh.. thx for the card too.. the card make me feel like 'budak kecik'la pulak.. which is good... no rush.. ehehe )
the rest has tons to do as well..
was flattered..
was not expecting a get together of such considering the bad timing this year..
doc sent me back home..
but i suspected it's not the end.. noticed hetz n shaz whispering.. ahaha..caught again, this yr..
and yeah, i was right..
they came with a cake and all..
was thinking quietly just now.. it's been 5 yrs..
celebrating bday with shaz n hetz..
oh my..
khuzai called,
faiz sms. jazmi sms too.. (he was so frustrated to be the.. 8th, 9th.. ?? person to wish..forgot abt the time difference i guess)
lynnette called too.. she never miss my bday (note that ying..note that ..)
online with cho just now..
he's one cheeky boylah.. no wonder he has so many admirers.. kakak angkat and the likes..
he was asking me to pray for him.. pray that he will also pray (??!) he's missing the concept here i think..ehehe
'cho ni banyak bergelumang dalam ombak dosa..'
i laughed frantically..
i love these jokers..
i miss them all
it's nisfu syaaban actually..
was, really..
my bday on nisfu syaaban.. wow..
3 Yasins - to all my sins, an easy n wealthy life ahead, and my parents
sunat hajat for a good lifetime partner
amin
feels much more energized and calm..
shall continue with my excell assignment now..
God bless!
though the day started badly.. the evening was better..
went to dinner with doc, badri, firdaus, hetz, shaz, along n non..
was sooo nice of doc to spare some time.. (& $$) for the dinner..
and of course the rest too.. understand that along actually skip his class to get down on his assignment..
so wasnt expecting that he would turn up.. really
but he ends in front of me at the dinner afterall.. (and oh.. thx for the card too.. the card make me feel like 'budak kecik'la pulak.. which is good... no rush.. ehehe )
the rest has tons to do as well..
was flattered..
was not expecting a get together of such considering the bad timing this year..
doc sent me back home..
but i suspected it's not the end.. noticed hetz n shaz whispering.. ahaha..caught again, this yr..
and yeah, i was right..
they came with a cake and all..
was thinking quietly just now.. it's been 5 yrs..
celebrating bday with shaz n hetz..
oh my..
khuzai called,
faiz sms. jazmi sms too.. (he was so frustrated to be the.. 8th, 9th.. ?? person to wish..forgot abt the time difference i guess)
lynnette called too.. she never miss my bday (note that ying..note that ..)
online with cho just now..
he's one cheeky boylah.. no wonder he has so many admirers.. kakak angkat and the likes..
he was asking me to pray for him.. pray that he will also pray (??!) he's missing the concept here i think..ehehe
'cho ni banyak bergelumang dalam ombak dosa..'
i laughed frantically..
i love these jokers..
i miss them all
it's nisfu syaaban actually..
was, really..
my bday on nisfu syaaban.. wow..
3 Yasins - to all my sins, an easy n wealthy life ahead, and my parents
sunat hajat for a good lifetime partner
amin
feels much more energized and calm..
shall continue with my excell assignment now..
God bless!
dear ying
not a good morning..
woke up heavy eyed and my body's aching everywhere..
weird..
went to class just now.. tired like hell..
was crawling with my work..definitely cannot submit in the class.. i gues will just have to email the tutor..ah..nevermind...still another tutorial class to go before submission..
better concentrate on my excel assignment now..
havent really started, am exhausted already..
i need a break..
maybe i'll have it today..
going to sleep earlyla i think.. and no more afternoon naps.. it kills me instantly.. still feel the effect from yesterday
called mama just now to include more stuff to pesan through shah..
vcd.. hair colour.. more $$$$
so their flight is confirmed... went through the intenarary.. seems very packed..
they'll be going back to kb on thursday for kak suzi's wedding..
err... after kak suzi.. it's definitely my turn... darn!!
but what i'm more concern now is.. nasi kerabu.. how i miss nasi kerabu.. and budu with ikan singgang..
if anyone ask for a bday wish now.. that'll be it..
hell with bf or a digicam..
nasi kerabu..
and an assistant to finish my assignment.. and .. ehehehe.. can never keep it simple eh?
miss home.. reallyreally miss home..
talked to bibik just now, before reaching mama, she's very excited hearing that it's me
'bila mau ketemu?'...
'kurang 2 bulan lagi bik..'
'asyik2 tengok gambar, belum ketemu tuannya..'
'tuannya dah nak balik, tak lama lagi.. nanti bulan 12 jumpa ya'
'iya....ketemu...'
soon bibik... soon..
ah...the comfort of being at home.. being able to cook n have someone do the dishes..
imagine lepak2 with the new bibik.. surely there'll be interesting stories from her..
they always have interesting stories..
whoaa...i am actually looking fwd to lepak with my new bibik... ehehe.. am really homesick i guess..
feels like going for a jog.. but that'll torture myself..
shaz says doc's arranging dinner outside tonight..
even overheard non asking along..
heard but buat dunno je.. ehehe..
so excel assignment..
here we go..
-tired at the age of 22..(?)
not a good morning..
woke up heavy eyed and my body's aching everywhere..
weird..
went to class just now.. tired like hell..
was crawling with my work..definitely cannot submit in the class.. i gues will just have to email the tutor..ah..nevermind...still another tutorial class to go before submission..
better concentrate on my excel assignment now..
havent really started, am exhausted already..
i need a break..
maybe i'll have it today..
going to sleep earlyla i think.. and no more afternoon naps.. it kills me instantly.. still feel the effect from yesterday
called mama just now to include more stuff to pesan through shah..
vcd.. hair colour.. more $$$$
so their flight is confirmed... went through the intenarary.. seems very packed..
they'll be going back to kb on thursday for kak suzi's wedding..
err... after kak suzi.. it's definitely my turn... darn!!
but what i'm more concern now is.. nasi kerabu.. how i miss nasi kerabu.. and budu with ikan singgang..
if anyone ask for a bday wish now.. that'll be it..
hell with bf or a digicam..
nasi kerabu..
and an assistant to finish my assignment.. and .. ehehehe.. can never keep it simple eh?
miss home.. reallyreally miss home..
talked to bibik just now, before reaching mama, she's very excited hearing that it's me
'bila mau ketemu?'...
'kurang 2 bulan lagi bik..'
'asyik2 tengok gambar, belum ketemu tuannya..'
'tuannya dah nak balik, tak lama lagi.. nanti bulan 12 jumpa ya'
'iya....ketemu...'
soon bibik... soon..
ah...the comfort of being at home.. being able to cook n have someone do the dishes..
imagine lepak2 with the new bibik.. surely there'll be interesting stories from her..
they always have interesting stories..
whoaa...i am actually looking fwd to lepak with my new bibik... ehehe.. am really homesick i guess..
feels like going for a jog.. but that'll torture myself..
shaz says doc's arranging dinner outside tonight..
even overheard non asking along..
heard but buat dunno je.. ehehe..
so excel assignment..
here we go..
-tired at the age of 22..(?)
dear ying
papa n mama were the first to wish me..
so no, irwan didnt call.. was melancholy already just now..all it takes is his call..
hetz, along n non wished online.. cute sms from along.. and of course, from dear bro danial.. and that boroi scantrzb.. gemokkk!!!
and my new friend anuarfariz.. another greetings from malaysia.. ehehe
oh yeah, received lish, cammy n wee yen's card this afternoon too.. flowerflowery some mores
so how do i feel?
tired.. and weird..
itching to call someone.. that someone
guessed he forgot.. *sigh.. : (
tired, tired...
this access assignment is eating me up.. excell belum sentuh yet
havent pray isyak ..
better go now before 'terkorban'..
Thank you Lord for another year of good health and wealth..
turning 22 this morning i pray for 3 things..
please grant me my scroll in 2 months' time..
please send me back home to my family, safely
please send me him now.. ahahaha.. demanding?? never from the Almighty.. u'll never know..
good nite old baby..
papa n mama were the first to wish me..
so no, irwan didnt call.. was melancholy already just now..all it takes is his call..
hetz, along n non wished online.. cute sms from along.. and of course, from dear bro danial.. and that boroi scantrzb.. gemokkk!!!
and my new friend anuarfariz.. another greetings from malaysia.. ehehe
oh yeah, received lish, cammy n wee yen's card this afternoon too.. flowerflowery some mores
so how do i feel?
tired.. and weird..
itching to call someone.. that someone
guessed he forgot.. *sigh.. : (
tired, tired...
this access assignment is eating me up.. excell belum sentuh yet
havent pray isyak ..
better go now before 'terkorban'..
Thank you Lord for another year of good health and wealth..
turning 22 this morning i pray for 3 things..
please grant me my scroll in 2 months' time..
please send me back home to my family, safely
please send me him now.. ahahaha.. demanding?? never from the Almighty.. u'll never know..
good nite old baby..
Monday, October 21, 2002
dear ying,
so anuarfaiz does exist
and he linked my blog to his.
am still figuring out why the 'feedback' doesnt work..
having terrible headache at the moment..too much sleep during the day i guess.. never ever again, feels like shit now..
yeah, i cheated fast.. slept through most of it.. woke up just nice to break fast.. tu pun sbb shaz came.. or else i might have break fast after isya'..
win mailed,
missumissumissumissu, i guess that's all he can afford to say.. considerng that he has forgotten my bday..
well.. let's give him the benefit of the doubt.. maybe he'll mail again tomorrow... saje je kot buat dunno today..
alah.. it's just a bday wish anyway.. too old to feel bitter over such thing.. (alert: consoling, consoling)
win.. win.. wat can i say..
...
so anuarfaiz does exist
and he linked my blog to his.
am still figuring out why the 'feedback' doesnt work..
having terrible headache at the moment..too much sleep during the day i guess.. never ever again, feels like shit now..
yeah, i cheated fast.. slept through most of it.. woke up just nice to break fast.. tu pun sbb shaz came.. or else i might have break fast after isya'..
win mailed,
missumissumissumissu, i guess that's all he can afford to say.. considerng that he has forgotten my bday..
well.. let's give him the benefit of the doubt.. maybe he'll mail again tomorrow... saje je kot buat dunno today..
alah.. it's just a bday wish anyway.. too old to feel bitter over such thing.. (alert: consoling, consoling)
win.. win.. wat can i say..
...
hi ying!
kakak burst just now..
'apehal dengan hetz tu baby..?? mende dia tak puas hati dengan i?? i dah tak larat dah..pesal semua org...blablabla..'
feels like i'm back in kys..or something.. basically feels like back in my early teen years..(been a while)
i wanted to laugh just now.. seriously..
this is not the way an adult should handle stuff..
i listened to her, maintaining occasional eye contact, nodded once in a while..
i pity her actually..
she's clueless..
offered her a sit.. and was prepared to switch to my aunt agony mode..
but she has something on at Uni..
only managed to bombard a few more remarks about along n non (???) involvement in this matter..in the hallway, maybe with the intention for them to hear
i quickly object to it.. automatically appoint myself as their spokeperson.. i really think they dont give a damn about this whole stuff anyway..
guys dont normally give a damn about stuff much.. yeah, they do bitch.. but it stops there.. untill next btiching sessionsla
hate to say this.. it's something i admire.. which explains why i'm in this house now.. (so it is about having guys housemates, isnt it?? kantoi!)
but being a libran, well, let's just put it this way, so ladies are more consistent. high stamina and endurance level..good follow through..ehehe..the works..
flashes of miss lai, sab, merissa, kamariah, nat, nell, lynn, kepah played in my mind..
good ol days..
kakak burst just now..
'apehal dengan hetz tu baby..?? mende dia tak puas hati dengan i?? i dah tak larat dah..pesal semua org...blablabla..'
feels like i'm back in kys..or something.. basically feels like back in my early teen years..(been a while)
i wanted to laugh just now.. seriously..
this is not the way an adult should handle stuff..
i listened to her, maintaining occasional eye contact, nodded once in a while..
i pity her actually..
she's clueless..
offered her a sit.. and was prepared to switch to my aunt agony mode..
but she has something on at Uni..
only managed to bombard a few more remarks about along n non (???) involvement in this matter..in the hallway, maybe with the intention for them to hear
i quickly object to it.. automatically appoint myself as their spokeperson.. i really think they dont give a damn about this whole stuff anyway..
guys dont normally give a damn about stuff much.. yeah, they do bitch.. but it stops there.. untill next btiching sessionsla
hate to say this.. it's something i admire.. which explains why i'm in this house now.. (so it is about having guys housemates, isnt it?? kantoi!)
but being a libran, well, let's just put it this way, so ladies are more consistent. high stamina and endurance level..good follow through..ehehe..the works..
flashes of miss lai, sab, merissa, kamariah, nat, nell, lynn, kepah played in my mind..
good ol days..
dear ying
i'm mean
woke up 5 to 8 and was still reluctant to leave the bed
made than unexpected innitiative to call zel to inform i'll be late..
told her i'll meet her at 9 instead..
picked up the towel.. landed on the bed.. again.. at least for the next hour..!
reached the library only at 9.30..
zel, as usual is only to happy to greet with a smile..rasa 'alaa...' la pulak
so we've handed in our assignment
no more Marketing Plan updates from now on.. history..period..
i dunno how to begin to describe my feelings now that it's over..so i better not start... legalah.. apa lagi
met firdaus n fariz just now..
which reminds me i need to go cut my hair this week..
maybe tomorrow.. my bday treat..
maybe not..
shah mailed last few days,
he'll be arriving 31st oct.. that's thursday next week..
i like the sound of his mail..
'When are you coming back for good??? Buzz me then we'll go for coffee/dinner...cousin cousin for real kay...'
for real kay...hmm..makes me wonder..
anyway, i'm looking forward to it too.. going back malaysia, going out with cousins..
seriously, i think we have passed that awkward stage.. for real kay.. ehehe
it's gonna be cool.. like how i've enjoyed doing foolish childish stuff with jo when we were younger (well, that's definitely over, now that he's someone's husband..ohmy..HUSBAND..geez)..
maybe shah can my companion among my relatives, to appreciate more ermm.. 'adult stuff' .. (read: watching movies, theatres, coffee..concert)
yeah, it'll be cool.. we've got some chemistry between us anyway
me, him, cousins... no pressure from anybody..
things may turn out to be more than that later, who knows.. everyone, including myself would be more than willing to allow it.. really
it's weird..
when i was typing that last paragraph.. all i could think about is jazmi
already, i feel ilike i'm commiting a sin..
it's hard when u've been with a saint.. u will measure up everything to wat he has done, or doing..
i hope i'm not hurting anyone.. no matter how many 'takpe' he has mentioned.. it's definitely not takpe to me..
trylah.. maybe the distance makes things complicated..
maybe when i'm back to msia, we'll just take each other for granted anyway.good frens and that's it
finger crossed
liz's on the way here, called just now
bilik bersepah!!!!
better go now then..
she's here!
i'm mean
woke up 5 to 8 and was still reluctant to leave the bed
made than unexpected innitiative to call zel to inform i'll be late..
told her i'll meet her at 9 instead..
picked up the towel.. landed on the bed.. again.. at least for the next hour..!
reached the library only at 9.30..
zel, as usual is only to happy to greet with a smile..rasa 'alaa...' la pulak
so we've handed in our assignment
no more Marketing Plan updates from now on.. history..period..
i dunno how to begin to describe my feelings now that it's over..so i better not start... legalah.. apa lagi
met firdaus n fariz just now..
which reminds me i need to go cut my hair this week..
maybe tomorrow.. my bday treat..
maybe not..
shah mailed last few days,
he'll be arriving 31st oct.. that's thursday next week..
i like the sound of his mail..
'When are you coming back for good??? Buzz me then we'll go for coffee/dinner...cousin cousin for real kay...'
for real kay...hmm..makes me wonder..
anyway, i'm looking forward to it too.. going back malaysia, going out with cousins..
seriously, i think we have passed that awkward stage.. for real kay.. ehehe
it's gonna be cool.. like how i've enjoyed doing foolish childish stuff with jo when we were younger (well, that's definitely over, now that he's someone's husband..ohmy..HUSBAND..geez)..
maybe shah can my companion among my relatives, to appreciate more ermm.. 'adult stuff' .. (read: watching movies, theatres, coffee..concert)
yeah, it'll be cool.. we've got some chemistry between us anyway
me, him, cousins... no pressure from anybody..
things may turn out to be more than that later, who knows.. everyone, including myself would be more than willing to allow it.. really
it's weird..
when i was typing that last paragraph.. all i could think about is jazmi
already, i feel ilike i'm commiting a sin..
it's hard when u've been with a saint.. u will measure up everything to wat he has done, or doing..
i hope i'm not hurting anyone.. no matter how many 'takpe' he has mentioned.. it's definitely not takpe to me..
trylah.. maybe the distance makes things complicated..
maybe when i'm back to msia, we'll just take each other for granted anyway.good frens and that's it
finger crossed
liz's on the way here, called just now
bilik bersepah!!!!
better go now then..
she's here!
dear ying
had a really2 heavy dinner at hetz's..
carol cooked fried chicken, eggplant, err..some vege.., prawn.. salad.. mussels..
well...i'm still full now.. and it's already 3.54am..
imsak's over, and i'm fasting
been on this marketing plan since got back from hetz's ...tomorrow is the submission day..pheww..done..finally
one thing i hate about assignments is.. they're always due on Monday.. when Monday is suppose to be MY day.. to wake up late, do my laundry..clear my room..
prepare myself for the week ahead..
darn, tomorrow..(or later actually) i've to wake up at 7 to meet zel in uni at 8..
i plan to go to uni just to have zel proof read it and hand in the stuff..probably will be back at 11..SLEEP!!
today's danial's bday..which mean tomorrow will be mine..
sheesh....22...
like it matters.. i mean, 21, 22, doesnt make any difference..
wonder who'll make the effort to call this year..
i doubt win will remember
shah might..but dunno if he'd call.. he better.. eheh.. with my call being his bday highlight this yr(according to him).. i think it's only fair if he could spare 5 mins or so for me..
jazmi.. i dont expect much from him.. but i know he wont dissapoint me. ..we'll see la kan?
i think this year's will be a quiet one.. new housemates n all.. and these housemates i have now.. ehehe.. i would be too lucky if they even know my bday
but if irwan calls at midnight again, i'll definitely cry! it's him la.. irwan.. and win.. another culprit.. never fail to make me cry.. eheh.. and that's a compliment guys..
should be in bed by now actually... but just dont feel like it..
in one hour's time.. the sun will be out again.. and i'll curse myself for not going to bed earlier..
i hate going to bed when it's bright... well.. unless it's afternoon nap, .. which i seldom have anyway..
K is online.. at this hour..
i always have someone to company me in msn..any hour of the day..
helmi will probably be online tomorrow, many things to story he says.. bet it's about his break up again... his xgf..
or better still.. his newfound love.. ahahahah..
enough ying..
nite
had a really2 heavy dinner at hetz's..
carol cooked fried chicken, eggplant, err..some vege.., prawn.. salad.. mussels..
well...i'm still full now.. and it's already 3.54am..
imsak's over, and i'm fasting
been on this marketing plan since got back from hetz's ...tomorrow is the submission day..pheww..done..finally
one thing i hate about assignments is.. they're always due on Monday.. when Monday is suppose to be MY day.. to wake up late, do my laundry..clear my room..
prepare myself for the week ahead..
darn, tomorrow..(or later actually) i've to wake up at 7 to meet zel in uni at 8..
i plan to go to uni just to have zel proof read it and hand in the stuff..probably will be back at 11..SLEEP!!
today's danial's bday..which mean tomorrow will be mine..
sheesh....22...
like it matters.. i mean, 21, 22, doesnt make any difference..
wonder who'll make the effort to call this year..
i doubt win will remember
shah might..but dunno if he'd call.. he better.. eheh.. with my call being his bday highlight this yr(according to him).. i think it's only fair if he could spare 5 mins or so for me..
jazmi.. i dont expect much from him.. but i know he wont dissapoint me. ..we'll see la kan?
i think this year's will be a quiet one.. new housemates n all.. and these housemates i have now.. ehehe.. i would be too lucky if they even know my bday
but if irwan calls at midnight again, i'll definitely cry! it's him la.. irwan.. and win.. another culprit.. never fail to make me cry.. eheh.. and that's a compliment guys..
should be in bed by now actually... but just dont feel like it..
in one hour's time.. the sun will be out again.. and i'll curse myself for not going to bed earlier..
i hate going to bed when it's bright... well.. unless it's afternoon nap, .. which i seldom have anyway..
K is online.. at this hour..
i always have someone to company me in msn..any hour of the day..
helmi will probably be online tomorrow, many things to story he says.. bet it's about his break up again... his xgf..
or better still.. his newfound love.. ahahahah..
enough ying..
nite
Sunday, October 20, 2002
dear ying
going out in a while..coffee with kit, nick, along n hetz..
old time sake..ehehehe..yelah tu.. just plain bored n unproductive at home i think
will follow hetz back to her home ..dinner by caroline..
marinated chicken drumstick.. wat else i wonder.. aaahh... been a while since nasik n lauk2.. looking forward to it.. slurpp!
will be finishin doc's portrait at hetz's..
browsed through the marketing plan correction.. should be able to do it within minutes je... afterall zel has already finished her parts
i'm muak with the plan already..
slept at 6 this morning..
woke up at 1.30pm
was about to sleep after my last entry.. then realised that sun is rising outside... fresh air.. fresh air..
went outside..oh My.. it was misty and dewwy everywhere.. u know.. those kind of videoclip atmosphere.. except for it's real mist..
spent 1/2 an hour grazing in the field..ehehe.. took pictures after pictures...
wish i can say more about it.. but couldnt find words to describe it..
maybe i'll post a picture or two here..
ade je benda lain yg interesting nak buat when i have loads of assignment..sheesh..
meanwhile..coffee anyone?
going out in a while..coffee with kit, nick, along n hetz..
old time sake..ehehehe..yelah tu.. just plain bored n unproductive at home i think
will follow hetz back to her home ..dinner by caroline..
marinated chicken drumstick.. wat else i wonder.. aaahh... been a while since nasik n lauk2.. looking forward to it.. slurpp!
will be finishin doc's portrait at hetz's..
browsed through the marketing plan correction.. should be able to do it within minutes je... afterall zel has already finished her parts
i'm muak with the plan already..
slept at 6 this morning..
woke up at 1.30pm
was about to sleep after my last entry.. then realised that sun is rising outside... fresh air.. fresh air..
went outside..oh My.. it was misty and dewwy everywhere.. u know.. those kind of videoclip atmosphere.. except for it's real mist..
spent 1/2 an hour grazing in the field..ehehe.. took pictures after pictures...
wish i can say more about it.. but couldnt find words to describe it..
maybe i'll post a picture or two here..
ade je benda lain yg interesting nak buat when i have loads of assignment..sheesh..
meanwhile..coffee anyone?
dear ying
just came back from the boys's place..
wished doc happy bday..along bought a chocolate pudding as his 'bday cake'
only me, hetz, shaz, non, along n abg john this time.. quite different compared to last yr's celebration..
went to watch red dragon....man ..it was a gripping show.. even more when i was sitting next to hetz..ehehe..who jumped at every instance created to make u jump.... ralph fiennes was sooooo fine!! edward norton is of course....the man! and anthony hopkin..is just.. err.. err.. his usual.. which is very good..vocab ying...vocab..
borrowed 5 videos.. end up watching only one.. 'Rasputin'... film about Gregory Rasputin.. it was a so-so movie.. wasnt expecting much anyway..
ok..
inhale..exhale..
14 females to 1 male in KL... according to one survey i read.. we were busy juggling figures just now... just to make it seems more ..more..severe..
the thing is.. i realised this long time ago.. long time before jeff.. long time before jazmi..
long time before papa's obsession about getting a son-in-law... the fact that my survey partners, shaz n hetz are now attached doesnt help at all..
dont get me wrong though.. it's not a trend.. shouldnt be seeking for one just because everyone has one.. not really seeking pun..not specifically seeking..
i may never say it out loud.. but i think i'm quite done with all these things.. watever will be will be..
i cant say that i've given up on myself.. or that incident has shattered all my hope.. no way! hehe..
let bygones be bygones anyway.. it's been bitter.. but it's a good experience.. at least i know i still have a heart.. and it is as fragile as any other girl's..
most importantly, i know i can still appreciate a person in many ways.. and love myself more than anything else..
being able to say 'enuff!' - to save myself.. is the most rewarding thing i ever done for myself this year.. so, i'm still here sane and happier than ever..and the best thing is.. everything turn out to be more than i could ever hope it to be.. (maybe it does not match my dream , but it's definitely more than wat i've asked for)
maybe it proves that i'm also appreciated in many ways..
i admit it was my mistake..innitiated the whole scene.. maybe i owe someone an apology.. more than anything, i owe him a big fat sincere 'thank you'
wat can i say-by far the most powerful impact i ever had on my feelings (in terms of this wushywashystuff - vocab ying vocab).. the best n the worst..
i just couldnt be bothered about this anymore.. it's not that i'm depressed 24/7 about being alone.. noticed that the occasional depression has lots to do with my biological clock (read:PMS)...phewww!!!
so, i'm nowhere near crazy.. come on...
i think i'm just plain tired.. emotionally and physically..
yeah..tired is the word.. maybe wat i should do really is take a long pause....
cheh..macamla..as if i've had many going on in the past anyway..
i find it easier listening to my frens grumbling about getting married ... them and their bf/gf stuff these days..
i think i'm more receptive now.. and think less.. absorp more and evaluate less..
happy for them really.. and no more self pity..
pa, i want to settle down early and all (cant believe i'm typing this)..but even at this instance, i dont know when and with who..
dont worry.. there'll be a person one day.. he'll take care of me.. the way u want him to.. how i want him to.. how u did.. the best!
there'll be a person who will provide me the same love n security u have endowed me ..
there'll be a person who will deserve my love n respect.. the same love n respect i have for you..
there'll be a person for me, we both will love..
i've been praying for a good son-in-law for you (u deserve it-after a hard work raising this daughter of yours..)
... and i know u've been doing the same so that God'll grant me a worthy husband.
it's just not the time yet..
ma, there'll be a person for me, we both will love.. u'll see me playing you..taking care of him, just the way u've taken care of papa.. just the way u advised me to.. if not better, right?
pheww..
that's a relieve..
that's it.. today.. i've made it clear to me.. (ehehe..) everything is fine..
lucky to have good frens.. and the best family..
to have experienced wat i experienced this year..
hold on...reality check - are these all only to console myself.. reassure..convince.. cover line?? :)
nope.. i'm ok.. probably just envy hetz's blog.. she always has lots to say and sufficient vocab to say it..
hehe..but seriously.. i wont go all the trouble of being super-emotional, in writing form, to console myself..
crying would be more of help..eheh
so i guess, the above are really wat i feel..at 5.01am Sunday 20th 2002..
tomorrow i shall read this entry again and laugh my lung out..trying hard to refrain myself from clicking the 'edit' button
cheap entertainment and immediate sense of power..
till then.. better go catch some sleep and burn half of Sunday!
nite ying.. cun gilerrr!!
just came back from the boys's place..
wished doc happy bday..along bought a chocolate pudding as his 'bday cake'
only me, hetz, shaz, non, along n abg john this time.. quite different compared to last yr's celebration..
went to watch red dragon....man ..it was a gripping show.. even more when i was sitting next to hetz..ehehe..who jumped at every instance created to make u jump.... ralph fiennes was sooooo fine!! edward norton is of course....the man! and anthony hopkin..is just.. err.. err.. his usual.. which is very good..vocab ying...vocab..
borrowed 5 videos.. end up watching only one.. 'Rasputin'... film about Gregory Rasputin.. it was a so-so movie.. wasnt expecting much anyway..
ok..
inhale..exhale..
14 females to 1 male in KL... according to one survey i read.. we were busy juggling figures just now... just to make it seems more ..more..severe..
the thing is.. i realised this long time ago.. long time before jeff.. long time before jazmi..
long time before papa's obsession about getting a son-in-law... the fact that my survey partners, shaz n hetz are now attached doesnt help at all..
dont get me wrong though.. it's not a trend.. shouldnt be seeking for one just because everyone has one.. not really seeking pun..not specifically seeking..
i may never say it out loud.. but i think i'm quite done with all these things.. watever will be will be..
i cant say that i've given up on myself.. or that incident has shattered all my hope.. no way! hehe..
let bygones be bygones anyway.. it's been bitter.. but it's a good experience.. at least i know i still have a heart.. and it is as fragile as any other girl's..
most importantly, i know i can still appreciate a person in many ways.. and love myself more than anything else..
being able to say 'enuff!' - to save myself.. is the most rewarding thing i ever done for myself this year.. so, i'm still here sane and happier than ever..and the best thing is.. everything turn out to be more than i could ever hope it to be.. (maybe it does not match my dream , but it's definitely more than wat i've asked for)
maybe it proves that i'm also appreciated in many ways..
i admit it was my mistake..innitiated the whole scene.. maybe i owe someone an apology.. more than anything, i owe him a big fat sincere 'thank you'
wat can i say-by far the most powerful impact i ever had on my feelings (in terms of this wushywashystuff - vocab ying vocab).. the best n the worst..
i just couldnt be bothered about this anymore.. it's not that i'm depressed 24/7 about being alone.. noticed that the occasional depression has lots to do with my biological clock (read:PMS)...phewww!!!
so, i'm nowhere near crazy.. come on...
i think i'm just plain tired.. emotionally and physically..
yeah..tired is the word.. maybe wat i should do really is take a long pause....
cheh..macamla..as if i've had many going on in the past anyway..
i find it easier listening to my frens grumbling about getting married ... them and their bf/gf stuff these days..
i think i'm more receptive now.. and think less.. absorp more and evaluate less..
happy for them really.. and no more self pity..
pa, i want to settle down early and all (cant believe i'm typing this)..but even at this instance, i dont know when and with who..
dont worry.. there'll be a person one day.. he'll take care of me.. the way u want him to.. how i want him to.. how u did.. the best!
there'll be a person who will provide me the same love n security u have endowed me ..
there'll be a person who will deserve my love n respect.. the same love n respect i have for you..
there'll be a person for me, we both will love..
i've been praying for a good son-in-law for you (u deserve it-after a hard work raising this daughter of yours..)
... and i know u've been doing the same so that God'll grant me a worthy husband.
it's just not the time yet..
ma, there'll be a person for me, we both will love.. u'll see me playing you..taking care of him, just the way u've taken care of papa.. just the way u advised me to.. if not better, right?
pheww..
that's a relieve..
that's it.. today.. i've made it clear to me.. (ehehe..) everything is fine..
lucky to have good frens.. and the best family..
to have experienced wat i experienced this year..
hold on...reality check - are these all only to console myself.. reassure..convince.. cover line?? :)
nope.. i'm ok.. probably just envy hetz's blog.. she always has lots to say and sufficient vocab to say it..
hehe..but seriously.. i wont go all the trouble of being super-emotional, in writing form, to console myself..
crying would be more of help..eheh
so i guess, the above are really wat i feel..at 5.01am Sunday 20th 2002..
tomorrow i shall read this entry again and laugh my lung out..trying hard to refrain myself from clicking the 'edit' button
cheap entertainment and immediate sense of power..
till then.. better go catch some sleep and burn half of Sunday!
nite ying.. cun gilerrr!!
Saturday, October 19, 2002
dear ying
woke up at 1pm..
gone half of the day...nevermind..
shah mailed ..change of plan, he'll be arriving 31st oct instead.. arranging to meet on that day itself..
since i got class, mailed him back..maybe to reschedule..
ala..once in brisbane/gold coast.. it's not that hard to plan a meet...
drawing doc's portrait now..
he's such a sweetie..really..
might be going out for movie later, and lepak at the boy's after dinner perhaps..
wait till midnite.. for syed farouk's 'happy bday doc'..
need to finish this portrait now..or i'll keep on mending it at the cost of my assignments..ehehe
alrighty..
g'day
woke up at 1pm..
gone half of the day...nevermind..
shah mailed ..change of plan, he'll be arriving 31st oct instead.. arranging to meet on that day itself..
since i got class, mailed him back..maybe to reschedule..
ala..once in brisbane/gold coast.. it's not that hard to plan a meet...
drawing doc's portrait now..
he's such a sweetie..really..
might be going out for movie later, and lepak at the boy's after dinner perhaps..
wait till midnite.. for syed farouk's 'happy bday doc'..
need to finish this portrait now..or i'll keep on mending it at the cost of my assignments..ehehe
alrighty..
g'day
Friday, October 18, 2002
dear ying
NO MORE A SECRETARY!!!! woooohoooooo!!!
yeah, i'm overjoyed!..
msa AGM today went smooth, and end on a good note..or shall i say good feast..pizza for everyone..
think i did a fairly good job.. well, maybe not as timely, but managed to get things in time.. feel good about handing this responsibility to my successor..
feel good about the whole thinglah.
being in the comm gave me many experiences... the least.. getting to know ppl i might not have chance to get to know outside this comm..
navin, nick, kit, rabia, roopi especially..cool bunch of people.. true malaysians! very colourful indeed.. literally and in every sense.. : )
i guess this will be the last time (first time too in fact..hah!) i'll be mentioning stuff about UQMSA..ok, let's not get into that mellow mood.. nowhere near anyway.. maybe i should just change this committee tshirt first.. ehehe.. yeah.. ah jap lagilah.. malas..not as sexcited as along.. to strip..
but actually, no one's looking..
and it's a warm nite anyway.. ok. ok.. was just mentioning..
looking at the time, might have skipped a day of entry..but as if anyone is keeping a watch..
been a good day generally.. woke up with a smile (yeah..really loosing itlah these days)
just nice to prepare for class at 9.. went to the class.. in fact managed to catch 10 mins of naps, after shower, after clothing of courselah..wateva for..10 mins..sheesh..!
the tutor gave an overview of our marketing plan.. think we're on the right track..
meet him later to discuss our work so far.. he was more that satisfied..impressed really.. considering it's 5 days before the due date..
good job he says.. an interesting plan
learnt that he is a sporean/msian himself.. err.. does that have anything to do with the review.. bet it does.. i dont care, as long as it's on our side.. ehehe..
went back, had the bestest sleep ever in my entire year so far..and it's october already..how's that?
khuzai called to tell uqmsa booth's cancelled.. an extra hour, or 2 of sleep... no need to go to uni again.. love u lah Kuz!!
had series of dreams.. wateva.. dont give a bull... it was the nicest, most sound sleep ever..
woke up only after a halfconcious calculations.. last evening ate at 6pm... havent taken anything since.. and it's 1pm now... no wonder my stomach growling like anything..
but really i never had better sleep like last night's n this morning.. this morning esp.
papa called just now..
their flight's confirmed, 17th dec
aah...a relieved.. he doesnt have to know wat i'm capable of doing if they say they couldnt get a flight here afterall..
dont ever try it with me pa.. can be very ignorant n forgiving when it's just anyone..or an extra special anyone..
but when it's nik adnan or nik azizah.. no excuse.. no sorry..
i'm mean
ok, still in my committee tshirt..
it's hard to let go.. really hard.. YEAH RIGHT!
better go have shower before it's too late
it's never too late for a late nite shower when it comes to me though..
think just gonna take shower...
nice cold milo..
i wanna drawlah tonite
tomorrow will be mktg plan day..
sunday i'll start with the excel assignment..
monday tutes for the week..
today..is MY day..
today as in now..
signing off a happy person..
NO MORE A SECRETARY!!!! woooohoooooo!!!
yeah, i'm overjoyed!..
msa AGM today went smooth, and end on a good note..or shall i say good feast..pizza for everyone..
think i did a fairly good job.. well, maybe not as timely, but managed to get things in time.. feel good about handing this responsibility to my successor..
feel good about the whole thinglah.
being in the comm gave me many experiences... the least.. getting to know ppl i might not have chance to get to know outside this comm..
navin, nick, kit, rabia, roopi especially..cool bunch of people.. true malaysians! very colourful indeed.. literally and in every sense.. : )
i guess this will be the last time (first time too in fact..hah!) i'll be mentioning stuff about UQMSA..ok, let's not get into that mellow mood.. nowhere near anyway.. maybe i should just change this committee tshirt first.. ehehe.. yeah.. ah jap lagilah.. malas..not as sexcited as along.. to strip..
but actually, no one's looking..
and it's a warm nite anyway.. ok. ok.. was just mentioning..
looking at the time, might have skipped a day of entry..but as if anyone is keeping a watch..
been a good day generally.. woke up with a smile (yeah..really loosing itlah these days)
just nice to prepare for class at 9.. went to the class.. in fact managed to catch 10 mins of naps, after shower, after clothing of courselah..wateva for..10 mins..sheesh..!
the tutor gave an overview of our marketing plan.. think we're on the right track..
meet him later to discuss our work so far.. he was more that satisfied..impressed really.. considering it's 5 days before the due date..
good job he says.. an interesting plan
learnt that he is a sporean/msian himself.. err.. does that have anything to do with the review.. bet it does.. i dont care, as long as it's on our side.. ehehe..
went back, had the bestest sleep ever in my entire year so far..and it's october already..how's that?
khuzai called to tell uqmsa booth's cancelled.. an extra hour, or 2 of sleep... no need to go to uni again.. love u lah Kuz!!
had series of dreams.. wateva.. dont give a bull... it was the nicest, most sound sleep ever..
woke up only after a halfconcious calculations.. last evening ate at 6pm... havent taken anything since.. and it's 1pm now... no wonder my stomach growling like anything..
but really i never had better sleep like last night's n this morning.. this morning esp.
papa called just now..
their flight's confirmed, 17th dec
aah...a relieved.. he doesnt have to know wat i'm capable of doing if they say they couldnt get a flight here afterall..
dont ever try it with me pa.. can be very ignorant n forgiving when it's just anyone..or an extra special anyone..
but when it's nik adnan or nik azizah.. no excuse.. no sorry..
i'm mean
ok, still in my committee tshirt..
it's hard to let go.. really hard.. YEAH RIGHT!
better go have shower before it's too late
it's never too late for a late nite shower when it comes to me though..
think just gonna take shower...
nice cold milo..
i wanna drawlah tonite
tomorrow will be mktg plan day..
sunday i'll start with the excel assignment..
monday tutes for the week..
today..is MY day..
today as in now..
signing off a happy person..
Thursday, October 17, 2002
dear ying..
online with hetz, along n non.. who else..ehehe
so non knows this sultan muzaffar guy.. i dunno blogging can bring u fame..
well..at least that's not my point here..
along was like alien to all these..well now he knows..
i'm not surprise if one day they'll find me here..pls dont.. but if they do.. hi!
yeah, and this is wat i do behind my four walls..
so i have no life and my life lies in this site..i have no defence to that
been browsing around.. and have made my conclusion (generalisation) that those who keeps online journals dont have much going on in their life...well..i dont mind including myself though..
finished typing that sentence and hetz gave me her journal site...ahahah..
i must be wrong afterall..
she's one cool personality i know..with heaps going on in her life.. great frens (well wat can i say.. eheh)..so wat, she keeps a journal..
and it's a full long bloody one lah..way to go minah! journalism at its best.. : )
reading other journals make me think mine is really 'very me'.. from me to me...that's the whole purpose anyway..
i guess hetz's one is of similar nature..
yelah..as if we have some kind of 'group' or circle that we belong to...
i'm not looking into these kind of stuff anyway..
kan ying kan?
gila dah!
online with hetz, along n non.. who else..ehehe
so non knows this sultan muzaffar guy.. i dunno blogging can bring u fame..
well..at least that's not my point here..
along was like alien to all these..well now he knows..
i'm not surprise if one day they'll find me here..pls dont.. but if they do.. hi!
yeah, and this is wat i do behind my four walls..
so i have no life and my life lies in this site..i have no defence to that
been browsing around.. and have made my conclusion (generalisation) that those who keeps online journals dont have much going on in their life...well..i dont mind including myself though..
finished typing that sentence and hetz gave me her journal site...ahahah..
i must be wrong afterall..
she's one cool personality i know..with heaps going on in her life.. great frens (well wat can i say.. eheh)..so wat, she keeps a journal..
and it's a full long bloody one lah..way to go minah! journalism at its best.. : )
reading other journals make me think mine is really 'very me'.. from me to me...that's the whole purpose anyway..
i guess hetz's one is of similar nature..
yelah..as if we have some kind of 'group' or circle that we belong to...
i'm not looking into these kind of stuff anyway..
kan ying kan?
gila dah!
dear ying..
no one's online and i feel sick to my stomach..
was browsing around people's journal and oh my God!..
ok, i thought i'm ok about this..not that i judge..
but maybe not afterall..
i'm talking about gays..blogging..blurting their feelings..
out of 8 guys blogs.. 5 were gays...how scary can it be????
and we're talking about Muslim malays..
in Malaysia..
oh God..
help me please..
i know i misbehave sometimes..well.. a lot of time..
please.. endow me with a true guy..
not that i'm choosy, since there's not many left out there..
but please...grant me a guy.. a guy in every sense..
amin.
no one's online and i feel sick to my stomach..
was browsing around people's journal and oh my God!..
ok, i thought i'm ok about this..not that i judge..
but maybe not afterall..
i'm talking about gays..blogging..blurting their feelings..
out of 8 guys blogs.. 5 were gays...how scary can it be????
and we're talking about Muslim malays..
in Malaysia..
oh God..
help me please..
i know i misbehave sometimes..well.. a lot of time..
please.. endow me with a true guy..
not that i'm choosy, since there's not many left out there..
but please...grant me a guy.. a guy in every sense..
amin.
Wednesday, October 16, 2002
dear ying
too tired to do anything at this moment
havent started on my tutorial at all..nevermind..it's at 2 anyway..
finally sent my mktg plan to the tutor for review..5 days before due date..one for the record.
went jogging with liz just now.. i guess that explains..
wat else do i say besides i'm really very2 fatigue..thinking twice about fasting tomorrow..
apa2 hal pun niat dulu...insyaAllah..
i feel mad today
angry..
i wish i know why..
i guess it's just the weather..
i really2 want to do this design stuff in frontpage.. and scribble some unknown disproportionate faces in some scrap paper..(really, i just wanna draw)
but things have been holding me back.. assignments, stuff.. aaahh..hate it when i'm tied like this..
hate it not having someone to blablabla with at the end of the day
hate it when i cant function like this..
hate it when my fingers resume typing without my conscience..sometimes..consent..
hate it when i click 'post'
hate it when i read it tomorrow..and laugh..
maybe i'll do it right now..'post', read, laugh, sleep..
nite loves
too tired to do anything at this moment
havent started on my tutorial at all..nevermind..it's at 2 anyway..
finally sent my mktg plan to the tutor for review..5 days before due date..one for the record.
went jogging with liz just now.. i guess that explains..
wat else do i say besides i'm really very2 fatigue..thinking twice about fasting tomorrow..
apa2 hal pun niat dulu...insyaAllah..
i feel mad today
angry..
i wish i know why..
i guess it's just the weather..
i really2 want to do this design stuff in frontpage.. and scribble some unknown disproportionate faces in some scrap paper..(really, i just wanna draw)
but things have been holding me back.. assignments, stuff.. aaahh..hate it when i'm tied like this..
hate it not having someone to blablabla with at the end of the day
hate it when i cant function like this..
hate it when my fingers resume typing without my conscience..sometimes..consent..
hate it when i click 'post'
hate it when i read it tomorrow..and laugh..
maybe i'll do it right now..'post', read, laugh, sleep..
nite loves
hi ying..
weird how one choose to live one's life..
last night was stucked with marketing plan assignment till 3.30..
at 2.30am made up my mind, that if i dont wake up for 8am class..tomorrow declare cuti!..no alarm clock watsoever..
was thinking of finishing the whole thing..no matter wat time it gonna take me..
at 3.00 my brain is still in its hyperactive mode.. thinking of changes in page 9 when i'm typing at page 4..
thought of a useful part of the Worldbank website when my fingers are still typing a paragraph of market segment..
got a whole new idea of rearranging the appendices..
at 3.30 my fingers stop..my eyes couldnt blink..giving way to my neuron activities..
i dunno where this impulse came from, clicked 'save' and the 'x' mark at the top righthand corner of the screen..
a long sigh...
enough is enough..my body is yearning for the bed.
but my heart is yearning for someting else..
ok, maybe yearn is too strong a word in this context..
another auto reaction : reached the phone..'Welcome to Say G'day..pls dial in your destination no...'
and jazmi accompanied me for a while (an understatement)
decided to say bye when the sun is already out..
must have fallen asleep at 6 am..
obviously didnt make it to class this morning..
woke up only at 11pm..and my last class for the day ends at 12pm..
sleep sleep sleep...
mr bondz replied the mail again..
i can foresee a chain reaction here..
probably give this site link in the next email or two..
ok..work it work it lady!
weird how one choose to live one's life..
last night was stucked with marketing plan assignment till 3.30..
at 2.30am made up my mind, that if i dont wake up for 8am class..tomorrow declare cuti!..no alarm clock watsoever..
was thinking of finishing the whole thing..no matter wat time it gonna take me..
at 3.00 my brain is still in its hyperactive mode.. thinking of changes in page 9 when i'm typing at page 4..
thought of a useful part of the Worldbank website when my fingers are still typing a paragraph of market segment..
got a whole new idea of rearranging the appendices..
at 3.30 my fingers stop..my eyes couldnt blink..giving way to my neuron activities..
i dunno where this impulse came from, clicked 'save' and the 'x' mark at the top righthand corner of the screen..
a long sigh...
enough is enough..my body is yearning for the bed.
but my heart is yearning for someting else..
ok, maybe yearn is too strong a word in this context..
another auto reaction : reached the phone..'Welcome to Say G'day..pls dial in your destination no...'
and jazmi accompanied me for a while (an understatement)
decided to say bye when the sun is already out..
must have fallen asleep at 6 am..
obviously didnt make it to class this morning..
woke up only at 11pm..and my last class for the day ends at 12pm..
sleep sleep sleep...
mr bondz replied the mail again..
i can foresee a chain reaction here..
probably give this site link in the next email or two..
ok..work it work it lady!
Tuesday, October 15, 2002
dear ying..
posted a long entry just now only to learn that it didnt appear..
will probably post later..if i have the time and mood.. if i have the mood..
anyhow, a song from John Mayer
Not Myself
suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
there are times
I lose my worried mind
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else
suppose I said
colors change for no good reason
words will go
from poetry to prose
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else
and I
in time
will come around
I always do
for you
suppose I said
you’re my saving grace
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else
i'm thinking twice..really
you know it matters an extra bit when it's the person you really care
it matters an extra a lot when the person is dear to you
dear person, i hope you comprehend
dear God, help, please...
amin
posted a long entry just now only to learn that it didnt appear..
will probably post later..if i have the time and mood.. if i have the mood..
anyhow, a song from John Mayer
Not Myself
suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
there are times
I lose my worried mind
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else
suppose I said
colors change for no good reason
words will go
from poetry to prose
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else
and I
in time
will come around
I always do
for you
suppose I said
you’re my saving grace
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else
would you want me when I’m not myself
wait it out while I am someone else
i'm thinking twice..really
you know it matters an extra bit when it's the person you really care
it matters an extra a lot when the person is dear to you
dear person, i hope you comprehend
dear God, help, please...
amin
Monday, October 14, 2002
dear ying
the marketing plan is still in touch up stage..
meeting zel tomorrow to discuss the final bits..
really having good feelings about this assignments..not that i'm particularly confident it'll score big time..
but at least i've put my full effort in it... that's rewarding enuff..
ok, end of my obsession with my assignment
mr bondz replied..
ehehhe..he must be puzzled..
i would like to receive such thing once in a while..
makes ur heart pound an extra beat every time you open your mail...
thought of giving this url to mr bondz..then again..maybe not..
maybe later..
suddenly feel the urge to surf for marketing postgraduate courses..aahh..dont do this to yourself ying..
udah dah laaa...
God help me!
the marketing plan is still in touch up stage..
meeting zel tomorrow to discuss the final bits..
really having good feelings about this assignments..not that i'm particularly confident it'll score big time..
but at least i've put my full effort in it... that's rewarding enuff..
ok, end of my obsession with my assignment
mr bondz replied..
ehehhe..he must be puzzled..
i would like to receive such thing once in a while..
makes ur heart pound an extra beat every time you open your mail...
thought of giving this url to mr bondz..then again..maybe not..
maybe later..
suddenly feel the urge to surf for marketing postgraduate courses..aahh..dont do this to yourself ying..
udah dah laaa...
God help me!
dear ying
considering my last entry last night (this morning) was at 3.43,
it's not too crazy to mention that i woke up to a sunny day at 1pm.. : )
ok, so it's sunny and i'll only managed to capture 5 hours of it..
which dawn on me that maybe i should fast...monday anyway, and it's syaaban
feel good this morning..
it's nothing to do with the side of the bed that i woke up at..there's only one side anyway..
probably my achievement with the assignment last nite...
still thinking about Bali bombing though.. really concern and a bit upset..for a selfish reason ..
darn..i was just thinking of Bali as my graduation gift..
well..actually, tickets and trips will be much cheaper after the bombing..that's for sure..
but no..not only nik adnan, i think even nik azizah would detest to this proposal..
i guess the world has witnessed the best of Bali..
and i missed out..sheesh..
heard about Ko Samui at Shaz's place last night..
maybe that'll be an alternative...
the thing i dont understand is..as if i'm all out for this paaarty..beach fun..clubs drinks and all..
err..not me..maybe just for the sake of 'been there, done that..so wat?'
come on...wake up to your senseslah ying
there's tons to do..your tutes, assignments, more assignments..
alah...spoil mood betulla..
checked the solat timetable..
and realised..it has passed Zohor!!...mana boleh puasa lagi dah!
eheheh..sometimes i can be funny..
even funnier if i did fast the whole day
semalam semayang hajat for cho's PMR..
and for myself..
i suddenly realised how lonely i am
everything seems perfect, the day is perfect, good job, good food, good frens..company..
end of the day, something's still missing...
ok, let's not spoil the day
havagudday!
considering my last entry last night (this morning) was at 3.43,
it's not too crazy to mention that i woke up to a sunny day at 1pm.. : )
ok, so it's sunny and i'll only managed to capture 5 hours of it..
which dawn on me that maybe i should fast...monday anyway, and it's syaaban
feel good this morning..
it's nothing to do with the side of the bed that i woke up at..there's only one side anyway..
probably my achievement with the assignment last nite...
still thinking about Bali bombing though.. really concern and a bit upset..for a selfish reason ..
darn..i was just thinking of Bali as my graduation gift..
well..actually, tickets and trips will be much cheaper after the bombing..that's for sure..
but no..not only nik adnan, i think even nik azizah would detest to this proposal..
i guess the world has witnessed the best of Bali..
and i missed out..sheesh..
heard about Ko Samui at Shaz's place last night..
maybe that'll be an alternative...
the thing i dont understand is..as if i'm all out for this paaarty..beach fun..clubs drinks and all..
err..not me..maybe just for the sake of 'been there, done that..so wat?'
come on...wake up to your senseslah ying
there's tons to do..your tutes, assignments, more assignments..
alah...spoil mood betulla..
checked the solat timetable..
and realised..it has passed Zohor!!...mana boleh puasa lagi dah!
eheheh..sometimes i can be funny..
even funnier if i did fast the whole day
semalam semayang hajat for cho's PMR..
and for myself..
i suddenly realised how lonely i am
everything seems perfect, the day is perfect, good job, good food, good frens..company..
end of the day, something's still missing...
ok, let's not spoil the day
havagudday!
dear ying,
so went to shaz's place for dinner..
nasi ayam.. a good change after all the sandwiches..
the boys were there..shaz's housemates
one of them looks exactly like win, except taller, blonde and with nicer..(understatement) build..
took picture with him..just to show win the taller, blonde, blue eyed version of him. : )
he must have thought that i like him or something..oh well..who cares...
win's sake...konon..ehehehe
managed to keep my butt on the chair and progress with the assignment..
most importantly managed to do the bits that i'm suppose to finish today
definitely ahead of time this time..first time..teree..
really tired
brain drain tired
oh, mailed that jebondz guy..
ahahah..saje..spice up my inbox if he replies..
if not..spice up his inbox..either way..i lose nothing
tomorrow Monday..another week..time surely flies
ish...Shah in 2 weeks time..oh my..
err..let's not think about it now..
ok, bedtime..
favourite time of the day..
wish there's someone to talk/listen to as i doze off though ..
wishfull me..
gnite ying
so went to shaz's place for dinner..
nasi ayam.. a good change after all the sandwiches..
the boys were there..shaz's housemates
one of them looks exactly like win, except taller, blonde and with nicer..(understatement) build..
took picture with him..just to show win the taller, blonde, blue eyed version of him. : )
he must have thought that i like him or something..oh well..who cares...
win's sake...konon..ehehehe
managed to keep my butt on the chair and progress with the assignment..
most importantly managed to do the bits that i'm suppose to finish today
definitely ahead of time this time..first time..teree..
really tired
brain drain tired
oh, mailed that jebondz guy..
ahahah..saje..spice up my inbox if he replies..
if not..spice up his inbox..either way..i lose nothing
tomorrow Monday..another week..time surely flies
ish...Shah in 2 weeks time..oh my..
err..let's not think about it now..
ok, bedtime..
favourite time of the day..
wish there's someone to talk/listen to as i doze off though ..
wishfull me..
gnite ying
Sunday, October 13, 2002
dear ying,
no particular reason to start this journal today
but there's no such thing as perfect timing for these kind of stuff..really?ntah
woke up early today. no sun.. again.. this is getting depressing
decided to just do my laundry anyway.
vacum room, arrange books and stuff..
change beddings..
fan full blast..and air freshener..
bowl of cornflakes and full cream milk..toast n cheese..
and finally the sun is out!!
perfect day.. except for havent taken my bath yet : )
plan to finish up my mktg plan today..shouldnt be a problem..
well the only problem is i might be writing stuff here instead for the assignment..haha..
appear offline in msn...malas..
no one is online.. err..maybe a few.. blocked everyone except along n hetz..
just dont feel like it..
feel tak feel, keje kena buat..arrghh..
well..catch u later mate!
no particular reason to start this journal today
but there's no such thing as perfect timing for these kind of stuff..really?ntah
woke up early today. no sun.. again.. this is getting depressing
decided to just do my laundry anyway.
vacum room, arrange books and stuff..
change beddings..
fan full blast..and air freshener..
bowl of cornflakes and full cream milk..toast n cheese..
and finally the sun is out!!
perfect day.. except for havent taken my bath yet : )
plan to finish up my mktg plan today..shouldnt be a problem..
well the only problem is i might be writing stuff here instead for the assignment..haha..
appear offline in msn...malas..
no one is online.. err..maybe a few.. blocked everyone except along n hetz..
just dont feel like it..
feel tak feel, keje kena buat..arrghh..
well..catch u later mate!
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