dear ying,

blogging from malaysia for the first time..
arrived on the 24th..last tuesday
was really2 busy few days before balik here.. kemas la, byebye sana sini.. last visit here n there.. dont think i'll be going back to australia in the near future.. satu sebab dah habis roundlah jugak.. satu lagi sebab blacklisted.. left my bill happily with a 3 digit outstanding sum.. hehe..selamba.. thought of paying innitially, then they screwed up..overcharged me for no reason..apa lagi.. (alasan..) and since papa pun green light je.. oh well

betulla.. if i dont blog immediately, i tend to forget stuff easily..
all i could remember of my last days in brisbane was my graduation day, my final shopping day and the day doc cried..

i should go into detail about what i've indulged myself in for the past week.. i dont think such reminder is necessary.. the bill will arrive soon..and oh..how i hope i wont be home for that..
well anyway.. the byebye session.. i think shaz was affected by the departure.. which made me n hetz feel kinda heartless.. ok, so maybe hetz is coming back.. but me.. yg confirm nak balik kawin gerenti tak nak dtg balik ni.. i feel sad, no doubt.. i'll miss jogging and walking thru malls alone..without having eyes engaged on me..takdela perasan macam aku ni bagus sangat.. but that's it with malaysians.. tak kisah la org mcm mana...stare..stare..(just a week back and i'm extremely irritated by this kind of gestures from the malaysian males.. malays to be exact.. sorry if i offend anyone) i'll miss (and already missing) the laid back lifestyle.. the friendly road traffic.. but more than anything i miss malaysia so bad..so all these things kira minor..
i was surprised i didnt shed a tear pun before leaving..
was almost actually, that night when doc pun nangis.. played us a few soapy songs.. then bid farewell... hetz was in tears... doc pun sikit2..
best woo brisbane... rasa macam adult pulak kat sana ( i hope i am one dah la pun) everything do independantly.. money n spending.. since i received fix on monthly basis.. mcm dapat gaji keje.. life, memang free gila.. but sebab free sgt2la.. i think i tend to weigh wat's good n wat's bad myself.. sebab kalau nak buat apa2.. confirm parents wont be there to witness n say no.. so it's all up to me, and of course, when u're alone, jauh.. u cant help thinking about everything under the sky.. in a way, i learn a lot there.. and of course as all my other alma maters.. i wont forget sunny brissie for sure..

and now balik..
been having problem with jazmi (already)..dunnolah how..
called win last night.. almost cried.. the only reason i ever cry to him is always because of studies or about me .. now it's about a guy.. malulah pulak..so..contain jelah..
i dunnolah wat's happening with me..
too twisted to think..
called jazmi early morning today.. blurted out the words..'can we just be frens'.. bodoh bangang punya sentence and i've used it just now..i really think i should meet him tomorrow.. face to face, tell him nicely..
tonight.. try to talk to papa n mama..
hmm..
wat am i saying..
see..typing it send me twisted already..

i'll continue later
ta!